#1 night w/o FM

Regardless of the absence of mommy Mary, Daddy and I experienced a great day together as cooking, doing household and talking to each other on many different interesting subjects. Mary has continuously called either Daddy or me to check if both of us are alright without her because we are usually lazy at cooking and having enough meals in day. Instead, we tend to have super plain food such as instant noodles, omelettes, rice with fried eggs that are supposed not to provide us sufficient nutrition, according to Mary's knowledge. 

Sometimes I rather feel irritated for her overprotective way, though it only shows how much she loves and takes care of this family by all her heart. How fortune of me to remain  my habitation with beloved ones at this age, at least I'm being grounded by love and great concerns in an extreme secure condition which gives me reasons to be careless, childish, spontaneous and free to follow my interest and hobbies. Conversely, most of my friends are making great efforts to seek jobs, struggling with countless personal adversities  and dealing with many different evil types of elements in this horrid society. I will certainly be confronted of these one day, even though it must be later a bit (okay a lot), yet I'd learn how to overcome the complex about my situation and get ready with any kind of challenges ahead for I believe fate is what I make of it, thus I'm not going to be held by fear or uncertainty or any other negative emotion.

All of a sudden, I'm aware of how much I changed. I became a completely different better version, with a new mindset and a new soul. The girl that once cared ways too much about everyone and everything, no longer cares at all. The girl that was once willing to aid in any body's needs, even strangers, no longer appears such as an easy target for them to take advantage. The girl that once only broke into tears as someone meant to hurt her, no longer cries. She would scream at your face and give you a slap if you dare to hurt her.

This new version sounds cool, great and awesome. But it is merely the outward shell that I must put on to protect the fragile and vulnerable core inside. If only there were someone who would see right through all the layers I try to put on myself to hide away from the world, or at least take time to get to know me and particularly be patient enough to approach to my heart. I promise they would be surprised because their patience is worth the most precious award from me - my heart :) What should I call this case? That's something about Scorpio girl!

Man, my writing is out of the point again =.= Over and over again :(( Anyway, the first night without mom is so quiet and desolate that I'm inspired to focus on "moaning" a little bit by words :p He he

New lessons to consider...

I miss Mommy :((

Hallie misses fairy Mary :((

Gotta hit the hay!

Nite nite,

Hal