My two-eye Dzi

There is a say "What's yours will find you". Today, the Dzi bead was supposed to be mine finding its way to belong to me from Nepal. 

Dzi in Chinese is called Tian Zhu (Heaven's Bead) whose meaning is generally "shine, brightness, splendous". My two-eye Dzi simply means love, happy marriage, evil elimination. In Buddhism it means unblock the path to enlightenment. Of course I have no idea about these meanings but doing research on the Internet. What I love the most about this two-eye Dzi is the way of balancing in life :)

As I had no intention to find the bead, didn't check the differences of function and also the meaning according to the different eyes on Dzi beads and especially I didn't know what Dzi beads were until one of them became mine. When I first wore it on my neck, I could feel the energy from the two-eye Dzi bead that made me believe more in miracle. I think I will write more about it after wearing for a period of time to see how much I would change thanks to it.

I previously possessed a feng-shui bracelet with all the good stones such as moonstones, aquamarine stones which were chanted and kept a large amount of positive energy from nature thanks to a master. Honestly three wishes were granted and I'm indeed grateful for what she and the universe have brought into my life so far. However, from that turning point, I learnt to be grateful but stop being greedy to ask for more from the universe since I believe in karma.

This Dzi bead must have come to my life with more spiritual meaning which is connected to Buddhism and the path to enlightement. What I need right now is only to become peaceful and balanced.

Thanks for coming to me!

Hal-

I'm back!

Hello my beloved blog,

It was fated for me to come back to this "little house", cherish my memories, thoughts and just write for me-myself-and-I. There were countless times I wanted to delete this blog because somehow when I read a few posts again, I felt ashamed of my past, of my stupid and selfish thoughts and all of my mistakes and felt afraid if someone ever has the chance to dig deeper into my past through these posts, it would become big disadvantages for my current image. *laugh at my face*

Now I realized that although I always seem to be mature and knowledgable about love techniques, psychology, life, marriage, etc. by showing how many posts I can write through thoughts, advice, guidelines, or something. On the surface, I came from a very good intention, just to help the next ones in line to find the true value of themshelves before finding Mr.Right based on what I drew on some conclusions from what I experienced. On a deeper lever, though, after receiving so many thanks and intentions from readers, I felt a little bit flattered and my pride became higher, I don't deny this. Then what happened later? I started to protect my image, my points of view and all in sudden, the target of my writings was no longer for me to express and cherish my thoughts, my feelings but trying to "build up" my virtual images which is so wrong to my previous lifestyle and out of my very first pure intention. I was no different from a pretentious girl who was covered by the "jacket of kindness and scholar".

As my clone facebook was removed, to me it was a sign for me to return back to the core, to who I am and to my inner self again. I shouldn't go around and boast about my "so-called" knowledge anymore. Instead, I shall come back to this blog, to write and nourish my soul in my own way as I used to do. 

These posts should be written first for me-myself-and-I, then for those "passers-by" :) Both must be happy enough.

My English is not as good as it was but I will try my best to bring it back. At least, this is the language that I feel most at ease to write and express my feelings. Hopefully "practise makes perfect" is still correct to me.

Much love,

Hal