New lappie - Aiden

Dear babe Happy,

This is the first but also the last letter I would like to write to you although my English is not as good as I used to be so as to express enough my feelings for you right now.

On the first day I brought you home, I felt half delighted half guilty for my brother’s satisfactory. From the destined date, we had continuously been together years by years. You brought to my life the sky of knowledge, entertained me in my spare time with a ton of TV series, born with me during white nights from Saigon to Nha Trang due to my study and also worked with me from dusk to dawn for my very first freelance job.

I am super duper grateful to have you with me for almost ten years and more than that number since you had been with my brother for longer. I guess your age is as old as the ancient tree in my old school :) I am not going to deny that I got frustrated at you at times and wasted much money to bring you to a “hospital” for “treatment”. More than twice I wished that I could get rid of you as soon as possible because I couldn’t be patient enough to wait for you loading and responding but you know, thanks to you, I learned how to be more and more patient since I had no choice but becoming your friend. 

Little by little, I realized your health was not as good as how it had been before. The mouse was inactive, the date was automatically set on some date in 1998, wifi connection was error and there were more than one sign of your illness. I even changed your “heart” and treated you pretty well sometimes just because I cherished you as a nice memento of my brother and also you as a friend who had been with me for years through ups and downs during the most difficult time.

As the time passed by, nevertheless like a rule of life, sometimes no matter how much I love you, I eventually must choose to move on even without you anymore. You are still here with me, patiently working according to my demands though no longer as productive that you could serve again due to your “health”. I do appreciate what you have done for me so far, Happy!

I am sincerely apologizing to you for the thought of throwing you away at times when you did not work well and you carried too many issues with your “health” while you still struggled at your utmost to serve me. I chose to keep you, be patient with you and help you cure your illness many times due to the fact that I was not capable enough of finding another new one to replace, not because I truly loved you and found ways to keep you longer. Bitter but truth be told, I was not a good friend and owner at all :) It is such a shame of me to say this. I am sorry, Happy!

Thank you for being my friend for many years and it’s the time for you to rest more a bit. I would let you rest beside my parents for less work and feel less pressure from me. No matter what, I still love and remember you as the one I knew from the very first time I received you from my brother Felix. You are really a gift and you have successfully done a good job as what a laptop should do. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Today was the first date of my new babe Aiden and I am using him to write this farewell letter to you. He seems to be a good one and so far so good :) He is happy to be with me and I am also deeply grateful to have him because he was born thanks to many factors. I am transferring your data to Aiden to make sure that I still have you in him lah~

I know that you would be glad and relieved for me after all those years fighting together with me. It’s beyond my words to express how much I’m both grateful and sorry for you. I promise I will keep you safely in Aiden and often think of you when I open Aiden. Say “hi Aiden” to him and give him blessings.

I love you, Happy!

And welcome babe Aiden to my life. Let’s be good friend for long lah~

Love you both, 

Hal

Last post of Lunar Year 2018

Dear diary, 

It would be such a shame to me for neglecting this blog that long. I am not going to make an excuse since it also shows the way how much I care less for myself. There is not self-conversation, nourishing my soul and saving my best memories by written anymore. 

On the occasion of the last day of the last lunar month, it is necessary to look back to what I have got throughout 2018:

I turned myself into the best version :) This year was a year with too many ups and downs in life. Sometimes I must struggle all alone, fight alone, suffer alone and get all the whole shits that life could throw at my face, though somehow one way or another, there were always friends or strangers there helping me and lifting me up. Never had before I felt so grateful for the universe this much. Thanks to these obstacles, I started to have more me-time to think, see, feel and realize how life would be.

I encountered the most lovable sisters in the world. We are compatible in any way from perceptions of life to positive energy and kindness. Three of us are so close, so loved and care for one another. We share the same value and always learn to encourage one other to move on and chase our dreams.

I experienced the best blue birthday party in my life. Everything was in blue - my favourite colour. They wore blue shirts and dresses, prepared for me a blue birthday cake, offered me blue gifts and goodies. More especially, I got a bouquet of blue roses from someone I just knew a few weeks ago on my special day.

So many my first times. 

First time I went oversea

First time I was on a plane

First time I came to Singapore

First time I had my holiday for a week (that long)

First time I met him

First time I was brought to the highest place of the city and confessed lol

First time I experienced so many delicious Chinese dishes

First time I experienced MRT

...

Last but not least, I'm falling in love with someone who is out of my expectation :) 

Of course, this year was also filled with tears, loss, pains and bad memories. Although I couldn't count how many times I have cried during this year, as long as God returns me with great experience and lovable sisters at the end of year, it must be enough for me to be deeply grateful for this life anyhow.

Officially say goodbye to 2018! I don't wish or ask God for more. I'm willing to embrace what He would grant me either good or bad things, I always believe that there is a reason for each event of my life >.^

Best of luck to everyone!

Tonight, I will see the New Year in with my beloved one xD 

Hal