mardi, décembre 30, 2014

The 1st day in Saigon


Met Will one the last time at "Dear Joe" cafeteria, all the senses of intimacy and confusion were still there for the moment I saw his face. Honestly, my heart did race and I'm still loving him no matter what :)

Finally, I could hand in him the present box and get the chance sitting right behind his back while being taken on the way to meet my friend :)) Like I'm telling a story but yeah, the final ending of our story tho.

That's all! The major purpose of this trip is offering him the present, seeing him the last time and wishing him the best. Now, I'm content! Needless to say more abou this matter, I'm not going to mention him again but he'll always be here in my heart for sure.

Enough ;)

By the way, the first day in Saigon was pretty fun and delightful. I was taken to taste various scrumptious dishes and get through streets full of colourful lights which were the leftovers of Chritsmas. Kinda regretful, if only I could afford to come to Saigon on Noel day, it must be much much more beautiful and wonderful.a

Many thanks to my friends who helps and loves me unconditionally. I'm indeed lucky to have such amazing friends like them. Rather than love, friendships are precious ;) I'd better enjoy to the fullest~

Gosh, I forgot taking my laptop with me... it's quite difficult to manage blogging. Anw, just wanna update a bit :p

Love,

~ Hal

dimanche, décembre 28, 2014

Nervous


The sooner my journey is coming, the more insecure I feel for some unknown reason. Never had before my mood turned to become a mixture of anxiety and fear each time I visit Saigon until this time, why don't I sense any kind of peace or excitement for the trip?

Is there something wrong inside me? It's weird because I have no longer waited for the first hour landing on Saigon and even meant to cancel the flight there a few days ago. 

Okay, honestly I'm quite good for now. But "when we are happy we are always good, but when we are good we are not always happy" :) 

What should I do??

Is it because I'm afraid this is the last time...?

...

By the way, today is Dec 28th! R.A.L.P.H :) It hurts as usual, but I've at least been recovered somehow.

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02:41

Khó chịu dễ sợ dù chẳng hiểu khó chịu cái gì nữa. Tự nhiên chẳng muốn đi đâu nữa, chẳng muốn làm gì nữa. Chả hiểu đang bị cái gì nữa >.< Cứ lo, cứ sợ, cứ ức chế vãi chưởng là như nào? Muốn đập lộn quá...

Sao í :(( Chẳng hứng thú xếp đồ gì luôn í T_T Giờ hỏi sao thế thì xin thưa "hông biết" :|


samedi, décembre 27, 2014

Pack up and get ready!


There are a couple days left 'til the moment I'm on the way to Saigon, though it is slightly uneasy and blue somehow in my heart for the reason I'm terrified of horrid things and pains would come to me out of nowhere.

Well, I'm not good at foreseeing what the future may hold, but my 6th sense scarcely seems to lead me to incorrect facts as how it feels. Coming to Saigon this time with an expectation of something amusing and incredible, I hope everything is going to be better a little bit for me because I've been through a lot of pressure and endurance for months at the awful school with a mass of annoying people. 

I need to breathe in a fresh air and take my mind clear off as soon as possible. Honestly, what fears me the most is that it always turns out to be quite contrary to my belief and imagination. I'm such a daydreamer at times, then it's pretty stupid if I flee my expectation highly because the higher I climb, the harder I fall in the end. 

It took me great efforts to prepare Willian a big box with multiple gifts :) This time, I'm not yearning for romance or unexpected sweetness from him like the summer one year ago since our relationship has likely altered in a complete different way... whether it is better or worse, I have no idea. But no further linger hope at any rate.

Out of this point, the rest of matters become quite okay to me. My friends and brothers can't wait to reunite and take me around. They do love me unconditionally. How lucky I am to have such amazing ones despite the long distance! Anne and I phoned each other last night for an hour right after my Yoga class. lolz~

This voyage is a promising sign of my future and it consists of several events that may be the last. I don't know! I's scary just to have a thought of either sadness or happiness. Yeah, I must face some issues and get ready for the worst!

Gotta make my luggage ready right off! I'm leaving the day after tomorrow ;)

Bonne chance!

xoxo

~ Hal


jeudi, décembre 25, 2014

Xmas. So?


This is exactly how my Christmas was...

Having spent whole day at school to help my friend for his presentation, I went home with excitement at the thought of hook-up tonight with my friends.

Oh well, I did hang out and have dinner with them at a familiar coffee shop. We talked and played "Domino" game together for hours, yet when it came to the time for going to the beach and take photographs, there was a sudden rain falling down and washing away all the amusing notions of enjoying the colourful-lighted streets at night which was certianly less crowded than other hours. 

We finally had no option but getting back home with great sadness because we would like to take photos on the sparkling streets, at fantastic decorated hotels...

This Christmas, I am still single and have the least happiness for several reasons in spite of having fun with my friends tonight. *sigh* 

It is incomplete to me somehow :( 
...

There was a friend getting even worse than me a hundred times at Christmas Eve. This year is indeed awful, not only to me but also to some best friends :) I may say "Merry Christmas" to neither Mike nor Ralph! 

Christmas ain't always nice as my wish!

Good night the world,

~ Hal

mercredi, décembre 24, 2014

How my Xmas was ruined


1 days until Christmas 

I was fucked off this morning for some annoying people pushing me complete the assignments when it had come closely to the afternoon deadline. Things at that time were a beautiful mess that I had no idea if I must cease my work to help them.

It was a such severe hurt to my self-respect when the teacher was suspicious of me due to the fact that my essay was beyond his expectation. How ridiculous of Vietnamese teachers who always want to limit their students to the presumably level and dislike if someone goes further than what they have taught. What the fuck! 

What if I've been spending a considerable amount of time for books and collect numerous words to boast what I've comprehended as self-study during the long run? There is nothing wrong if it's not that low as he expected!

If only I could change the whole situation by getting away from this environment as soon as possible. The place in which there are injustice along with superficial teachers bounding their students' knowledge within textbooks and information on the surface that I can possibly gain much more deeply than that. I hate to take my ass to class for roll-call and only be allowed to know what those teachers say, even if their knowledge is incorrect sometimes since they don't even learn about those lessons carefully. 

Dear, it drives me crazy and I fuckingly hate this school >.<

What a horrid day! Yeah, tonight is the Christmas Eve! Though, I'm still here all alone in my bedroom, sitting before the screen of my laptop to blog and being jealous of someone who are getting together with the man I love, feeling uneasy for the damn teacher mentioned above, wondering the time my brother would wake up for me to whine about what has led to this Hallie's overly awful mood and look for consolation and being about to watch my favourite Xmas movies "Home Alone 2" and "Snow Queen". 

Well, it's okay to be alone at Christmas Eve since it has lost its meaning already when I'm incapable of celebrating the day with someone I love. My polar star has not risen this year yet :) I'd better have myself a little Christmas at home with my family for movie-time. 

I'm not going to let some awful things ruin my special day. I love Christmas as much as I love my birthday and new year, even more. That's why I hoped to see him on the very occasion. Anw, you see, God never pleases me in the least :) even on His birthday =)))

Hallielujah!!!

Unlike me, you all should have a merry Christmas with your beloved :x Merry Christmas!!!

With love,

~ Hal

PS: The egg, one of my Xmas presents, was broken emerging a bad omen for my holiday. Yeah, it turned out to be this dark!

mardi, décembre 23, 2014

23/12


2 days until Christmas

Buồn dã man vô nhân đạo, đêm mai Noel rồi mà giờ này ngồi làm bao nhiêu là việc còn chẳng biết kịp hông nữa :((

Lèm bèm xíu thôi vì mình còn cả đống bài để học để làm và phải đủ chiện, cuối cùng còn bị túm cổ đi hát Firework cuối tuần này nữa T_T

Chẳng muốn làm gì cả :( Còn chưa xếp đồ đạc chuẩn bị gì để vào SG hết, bao nhiêu là thứ thế này @@

Mệt quá aaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~ Chưa có cái năm nào mà Noel mình sơ sài như năm nay. Qúa sức thảm mà :-<

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02:08 am
24/12/2014

Vãi chưởng chưa =))) Giờ này chưa ngủ í -_- Vừa xong hw Frcais với sự trợ giúp thần thánh từ xa của ông anh già xấu xí đáng ghét và còn essay + history+author Amer literature ngày mai chưa làm chữ nào rồi còn thuyết trình lần 2 với tư cách siêu nhơn và còn cả thuyết trình tuần sau.

Bài vở đâu ra lắm thế này :((( Thế mà nãy giờ ngồi giỡn, nhây, cãi nhau, nhiều chuyện đủ thứ với ông anh già trong lúc ổng đang giúp mình Frcais essai =="

Oh cuộc đời :(( mệt lắm, còn nhìu bài quá. Noel cái mốc xì gì đây mà mệt thế không biết :(((((((((

Hal muốn đi chơi đi chơi đi chơi. Gặp người Hal yêu đương huhuhuhu


dimanche, décembre 21, 2014

Wish-list'14



4 days until Christmas

Dear Santa Claus,

My name is Hallie Poupée in Vietnam - the easternmost country in Southeast Asia :') I've been very very good this year for being an amazing friend, a patient superhero to others and working so fucking productively. Thus, I think I deserve a little something under the tree. I promise I will be better next year if you come to fulfill my very short wish-list:

1. The most important one: him - Willian <3

2. A little teddy bear from him, too. No need one from you because I've got enough stuffed animals from my friends through the years.

3. A beautiful doll with long blonde hair, red lips, blue eyes and white-as-snow complexion for me to do the sewing :')

4. Yoga mat + Anna Sui perfume + Crème de la Mer moisturizer :)) I've ran out of my budget ha ha

5. A pair of military spec Oxford shoes

6. A burgundy manteau + a pair of bear mitten + a pair of bear earmuffs :p

7. A polar star :) You got me, didn't ya?

It's such a short list, right?! lolz~ Thank you!!!

Merry Christmas, Santa!

Love,

Hạ Ly Búp Bê, 22 yrs old.

vendredi, décembre 19, 2014

Damn, I hurt myself!


6 days until Christmas

Akin to a kitten, I unconsciously scratched my thighs brutally and strongly in the slumber of my dream which caused me to wake up with several painful claw marks on the thighs for no reason. 

Given that there was a nightmare previous night with the scene I was running away from a bloodthirsty murder. It must been come from a great amount of horror movies I've watched :)) Curiously, I'm clueless of which part of the nightmare reinforced me to scratch myself this much =.= but how foolish of me to hurt and damage myself in a way I've never imagined before. 

It's scary!!! 

By the way, I got an early Xmas gift from Maman today: a pair of simple drop earrings :') *sigh* Although I'm slightly upset for not being in with someone I love, at least I'm here with ones who love me the most. That's my bless!

Love,

~ Hal

jeudi, décembre 18, 2014

Becoming a superhero. Again.


7 days until Christmas

It's been four days I've not blogged for just one minor reason: movie-and-book time after assignments and presentations at school. I'mma present a subject for the second time, despite the highest score for my official presentation, due to the fact that I want to assist in a friend whose team members have moved into another class and leave him alone with the presentation while none of other groups are willing to have him as a member. 

I was under the impression that everybody was so fucking selfish that they would rather isolate him than invite him to their groups. After all, I was the one who asked my teacher to take the role of his other members and give him a hand with no any least notion of hidden benefits that might come along. No sooner had the teacher given me a bonus mark for the next presentation since my last one was excellent, other classmates out of sudden were interested in joining his team to get bonus marks.

How ridiculous of them merely thinking of what they would obtain if helping someone! It is such a selfish and insatiable society of which I'm awfully scared.

Honestly, there were some problems previous days that must have pissed me off and drove me crazy for suffering unfairly. Yet I did try to put myself in others' shoe and yeah, I saw the problems on a bright side when I learned how to sympathy and ease any complex issues to the point of simpleness. Just breathe in love and peace!

The weather in Nha Trang lately has been absofuckingly excellent to me although it is quite severe for not only torrential rain but also the biting winds that chills people to the bone no matter how much they cover themselves by sweaters, scarves or mitten. Passers-by must have found me such a weirdo taking a sole jacket without other winter stuff and even wearing just a demi short and a tank top as coming for the Yoga class which surprised anyone in the room lolz~

It's beginning to feel a lot like Christmas in this town. Yeah I can't travel to SG and have fun at Christmas eve with either my friends or him, spending time here with my family under this freezing weather and colourful lights everywhere on the streets brings me to the top of satisfaction though :) It's my pleasure!

Gosh, I have not yet written my wish-list for Santa Claus =))) What a big mistake! I'll do tmr :p

Nite nite,

~ Hal

dimanche, décembre 14, 2014

Want a real Xmas


11 days until Christmas

It is a bit annoying not being able to sleep in due to the week-no-ends. I haven't had one weekend for weeks and it continues this state until the end of the month for working and working like a slave.

Anyway, it is fine after all because I at least just treated myself a nice episode of "Pretty little liars" - How the "A" stole Christmas which leads to my current desire for immersing  myself in a real Christmas with someone I love. 

Christmas movies constantly seem to reinforce the sense of not only Christmas celebration but also the atmosphere around despite the fact that I am living in the torrid zone where it is impossible to get some snow or even cold climate in order to experience what a real Christmas is. That's one of the reasons having me yearn for a permanent settlement in Europe :(

Anyhow, I still wish to have myself a Christmas with him. Why does it turn out to be this much disappointing and depressing? *frown*

Drop it! Tomorrow I will write my wish-list and make a Xmas-movie list for curling up on the couch, watching them at Christmas Eve, drinking a cup of hot cocoa and relaxing. Cheers! =.= 

Poor me,

~ Hal

samedi, décembre 13, 2014

Can't be a superhero forever!


12 jours avant Noel

I'm perfectly conscious of the built-up stress for the whole week, thus I let myself stay at home for a little break after such a damn long and exhausting week regardless of another ton of things to do next week.

However, a person blamed on me for irresponsibility as I had not been present at our group meeting with no excuse and even warned me not to become overly self-confident for my ability.

I speechlessly looked at the person like "what the fuck are you talking about? Am I irresponsible? Am I so self-confident that I look down and make light of other subjects?"

The first, I might have a self-irresponsible attitude but it never happens when it comes to business involved others. I always complete everything in silence and I do prefer working alone to having group meeting for gossips and chat-chip purposes. 

The second, I hardly learn for the high scores in this fucking school :| It can't be clearer that I know exactly where my position is. It's the person, other students and teachers who overestimate, put too much expectation and give me the damn pressure while I'm truly such a mere mediocre student.

They demand me being a superhero and then throw bad words at me if I'm tired and need to take a rest. Merde! 

*sigh* I hardly find my mind free anywhere other than yoga class :) Having been through a tiring day with unwanted people and problems, it seems the most ideal way to close my eyes at the class, focusing on breaths, setting loose my body and thinking of nothing at all.

It is intriguingly relaxing especially at the end of my long days stuck with complicated and annoying ones. Well, no more complaints. Whatever! I will only take my part and never concern others' :)

Good night! I must rise up very early tmr morning and prepare for my oral speech in front of the whole school on behalf of students -_- Again, I'm not proud of being outstanding and teachers' pet since it feels like a burden to me.

I wish to become an ordinary student staying at home on weekend and sleeping in like who I really am - a lazy girl @@

By the way, I'm not going to write "Othello" script and see how they deal with it :) Excuse me, you need me but I don't need you all. If you suppose I'm showing off and over-confident, ok I am. So what?

You think I'm childish? Yes, I am. Any kind of tags that you want to put on me, it's okay because it's none of my business!

~ Hal

PS: Will texted me this morning :') and it made my day :x Although I'm bound to spend the Xmas without him for his complicated hectic life, it's pleased as he texted me and at least would spent time with me in SG :p Merci!

vendredi, décembre 12, 2014

Điều quý giá nhất từ một người đàn ông?


Mình tin là đến một lúc nào đó mình chắc chắn sẽ gặp một người đàn ông yêu thương mình nhiều như vậy :) Có lẽ không phải là Xmas này nhưng có thể Xmas năm sau, năm kia hoặc năm sau của năm sau nữa. Một cái Xmas nào đó sẽ có người xuất hiện :p I believe!

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Năm 20 tuổi, người phụ nữ cần một người đàn ông đẹp trai, thông minh và biết quan tâm đến họ. Năm 30 tuổi, họ cần một người đàn ông thông minh và biết quan tâm đến họ. Đến năm 40 tuổi thì điều họ cần chỉ là một người đàn ông biết quan tâm đến họ.

Thì quả thật, năm 40 tuổi, người đàn bà không còn gì xuân sắc để đòi hỏi. Nhưng bạn có bao giờ tự hỏi, bởi vì đã 40 tuổi nên người đàn bà biết cái điều gì là quý giá nhất dành cho họ.

Tôi có nghe một câu chuyện từ má tôi. Bà có một người bạn khá xinh đẹp, lắm người theo. Cái thời chiến tranh, có vị còn định tặng quà sinh nhật cho bác ấy là cả một chiếc xe đạp, thứ mà chỉ cần có hai chiếc là mua được căn nhà của ngoại tôi. Vậy mà cuối cùng, bác ấy lại lấy một anh kỹ sư quèn, mới ra trường. Người chỉ tặng cho cô những đóa hoa dại, những gói xôi chỉ có xôi không, sinh nhật thì chỉ có những cuốn sách cũ móc meo.

Ai cũng chửi bác ấy ngu, bác ấy dại. Bác ấy chỉ nói một câu:

“Hoa anh ấy tặng là anh ấy phải đi bộ một đoạn dài để hái. Gói xôi anh ấy cho mình là cả bữa sáng của anh ấy. Những cuốn sách quăng góc này là anh ấy đã phải tích cóp, dành dụm rất lâu. Còn chiếc xe đạp của anh kia, là của ba má ảnh. Không có nó thì ảnh vẫn còn vài chiếc xe khác để đi.

Cái họ chìa ra cho mình, nó quan trọng bao nhiêu so với cuộc đời của họ? Cuốn sách được ky cóp cả tháng có thực mạt rệp hơn chiếc xe đạp với chỉ bằng một lời xin?”

Bây giờ, dù đã hơn sáu mươi tuổi, nhà cửa khang trang, dù đã lên chức nội ngoại, họ vẫn âu yếm gọi nhau: “Mình ơi! Mình à!” đến khiến con cháu nhiều khi cũng bật cười.

Sống cả cuộc đời, đàn ông thì mình không dám nói, nhưng phụ nữ có mấy ai được hạnh phúc như thế?

Nguồn: Diều Hâu Đuôi Đỏ/ Triethocduongpho

Productive works



13 jours avant Noel

Honestly I starved to death after skipping the lunch to prepare my "British cuisine" presentation :'( Thanks, God! I successfully got 90/100 for it :D Yesterday, I delivered my oral presentation about "The gift of Magi" and got 80/100.

Next week, I'm about to prepare a couple of presentations and one play "Othello" by Shakespeare. Well, Hallie is certainly going to become a holder of several positions as usual: a script writer, a dramatic actress and a stage director.

Sometimes I wonder by what power I'm capable of mastering such a huge amount of works while nobody seems to assist me a little bit although the final outcomes will be shared equally with one another. 

I continue to be a superhero by all means. No more complaints because I'm satisfied with what I've achieved so far. At least all of my efforts are not a waste.

My works, rather than love, are often productive :) I'm doing my utmost and working double-time productivity in order to have Haliday in SG with the least anxiety and most relief, but Will frustrated me and it was not out of my expectation. I could foresee this before, I mean!

Anyway, I keep my plan to SG at the end of the year and have fun with my friends because this trip would be able to be the last time for me to travel to SG. Had he not treasured it, I should have pinpointed good reasons to take my leave and carry on the path without him.  

From today on, his name will never be written in the blog again :) Adieu!

What if my Christmas comes without him? I may have myself a very little Christmas and cherish it with all my heart no matter what!

A storm has just landed in our town this morning which leads to the unstoppable rain all day, but I believe after the rain, there is a rainbow, occasionally, a double beautiful rainbows that I once contemplated.

Looking on the bright side, everything is going to be all right as long as I keep this optimistic attitude. Love is not something you can achieve by great efforts, remember this quote!

Good night the world,

~ Hal

PS: Thank Maman, no sooner had I got home, she served me beef steak instantly as if she had known about my long-time empty stomach :p ha ha 

 

jeudi, décembre 11, 2014

11/12/14

Candice siêu đẹp =.=

14 days until Christmas

*lăn lăn* VS fashion show có bữa giờ rồi mà mình vừa mới xem xong đây. Bữa giờ bận kinh khủng, chẳng có thời gian mà ngủ nghỉ gì nữa.

Vì mình còn tính đến chuyến đi SG cuối năm nên bây giờ cật lực cố gắng làm cho hết mọi việc để còn yên tâm đi chơi. Thành ra mệt lắm nhưng vẫn phải cố gắng.

Hôm nay thuyết trình về "The gift of Magi" khá thành công 80/100 :)) Cũng có thể gọi là thở ra được một tí, ngồi xem VS cho giải lao rồi mai lại thuyết trình tiếp "British Cuisine" và tuần sau thì còn một đống việc nữa.

Dạo này sụt sịt bắt đầu muốn lăn ra ốm rồi nhưng chả hiểu sao vẫn ổn :)) Chắc ở hiền gặp lành =))) 

Năm nay VS show đẹp kinh khủng, thích hơn năm ngoái :x Nhưng hình như thấy thiếu Cara :( Ôi nhìn mấy angels mà thích mê thích mệt luôn :(( Hallie cũng tập dữ lắm mà vẫn như mắm thôi =)))

Thôi giờ ngủ :"> Ngắm gái đã con mắt rồi :v Thiệt chớ không biết cuối cùng mình thuộc hệ nào nữa luôn hahaha Mơ ước một ngày nào đó không xa được đi xem VS fashion show live @.@

Yêu,

~ Hal

mardi, décembre 09, 2014

09/12/14


16 jours avant Noel

Hôm nay thi mid-term mà học bài hông có kịp. Sáng sớm hẹn đồng hồ dậy rồi mà nghĩ sao tắt xong ngủ luôn tới gần 8h sáng mới dậy, đã vậy có học bài đâu, mò lên fb than thở với ông anh mình rồi bị mắng cho một trận "Cô đấy, lúc nào cô cũng than vãn bảo làm bài không được rồi học bài chẳng vào làm ko xong. Nhưng cuối cùng cô lúc nào cũng A+ hết. Ghét mấy đứa zị lắm nha" =)))))

Buổi chiều học 2 tiết đầu môn Biên dịch mà đúng ra ngồi ôn để 2 tiết sau thi. Vậy mà cuối cùng mang sách lên đó có ôn đâu, ngồi quay qua quay lại buôn chuyện khắp xứ tới mức giáo viên nói "Hình như Hallie nó ngồi yên một phút nó chịu không nổi hay sao đó ha?" =.= Rồi cuối cùng chưa có học gì hết :))

Nói thiệt là mình "ở hiền gặp lành" nên được nhiều may mắn! Thật sự cười nhiều thì may mắn sẽ tới ^^

Anw mình vẫn muốn vào SG dịp Noel cùng hẹn hò với người đó :)) Lại vẫn linh tinh nhỉ :p Nhưng chỉ là mình muốn cùng nhau đi chơi chứ hông phải ở NT mà cô đơn một mình như này nữa.

Thật sự là vẫn có bạn, nhưng chẳng ý nghĩa gì nếu như không được cùng với người mình thích đêm Noel. Vẫn muốn đếm ngày...rồi ra sao thì ra.

Hôm nay mình làm bài cũng khá tốt dù không có học bài kĩ, kiến thức chủ yếu là nhờ mình cũng thích nước Anh nên nắm khá vững mấy thứ ngoài sách. Chứ còn nếu văn hóa Mỹ thì mệt lắm đó.

Thôi đi ngủ, mai đi làm nhóm chuẩn bị thứ năm thuyết trình "The gift of Magi". Ôi mình thích Noel kinh :(((

~ Hal

PS: À hôm nay có đứa dám bảo mình giống "Harley Quinn" trong Bat man vì mình cũng bị điên điên tưng tưng giống zị =))))))) mất nết vãi :))) Mình thì có mà "Hallie Queen" quý xờ tộc chứ "Harley Quinn" cái giè mà giống ha ha ha

samedi, décembre 06, 2014

Next week schedule!


19 jours avant Noël

Lundi: The study of language + assignment "British literature"
Mardi: "British culture" mid-term 
Mercerdi: presentation "history of America" + French
Jeudi: a "The gift of Magi" play + analyse the work (American literature)
Vendredi: presentation "British cuisine" + French

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I would be able to perish half way to the following weekend *frown* How come I deal with that many issues to learn? My time is getting shortened since I must take almost two hours per day for the Yoga class. 

No sooner do I arrived home, I usually desire to lay down in bed and get much sleep instantly. Unfortunately, it always takes me over mid-night to hit the hay. 

Maman asked me quit the Yoga class in order to  spare more time for sleeping and completing my study and work but I refused to obey due to the fact that I've gained energy and good health thanks to Yoga. The more I push myself that hard to practice, the better my physical force is.

No matter how frustrating and tiresome some troubles and worries may visit my mind as usual, they've soon gone as I breathe in peace and silence. C'est très bon, je suppose!

Despite the hopelessness of my belief in Christmas, I still want to count and shall have myself a merry little Christmas on my own. Unless anyone make me happy, I'd better learn how to bring big smiles on my lips and see the bright side of a dark situation.

Don't worry. Be happy!

Oh no, looking back at the schedule, I see no light :((( Hwaiting!!! You have to survive the semester and remain being the top :) That's always your pride, right? *sigh* If only this term would be the last one...

Next Christmas...please in white!

Bon weekend à tous! 

~ Hal

vendredi, décembre 05, 2014

The gift of the Magi


20 days until Christmas

One dollar and eighty-seven cents. That was all. And sixty cents of it was in pennies. Pennies saved one and two at a time by bulldozing the grocer and the vegetable man and the butcher until one's cheeks burned with the silent imputation of parsimony that such close dealing implied. Three times Della counted it. One dollar and eighty-seven cents. And the next day would be Christmas.

There was clearly nothing left to do but flop down on the shabby little couch and howl. So Della did it. Which instigates the moral reflection that life is made up of sobs, sniffles, and smiles, with sniffles predominating.

While the mistress of the home is gradually subsiding from the first stage to the second, take a look at the home. A furnished flat at $8 per week. It did not exactly beggar description, but it certainly had that word on the look-out for the mendicancy squad.

In the vestibule below was a letter-box into which no letter would go, and an electric button from which no mortal finger could coax a ring. Also appertaining thereunto was a card bearing the name "Mr. James Dillingham Young."

The "Dillingham" had been flung to the breeze during a former period of prosperity when its possessor was being paid $30 per week. Now, when the income was shrunk to $20, the letters of "Dillingham" looked blurred, as though they were thinking seriously of contracting to a modest and unassuming D. But whenever Mr. James Dillingham Young came home and reached his flat above he was called "Jim" and greatly hugged by Mrs. James Dillingham Young, already introduced to you as Della. Which is all very good.

Della finished her cry and attended to her cheeks with the powder rag. She stood by the window and looked out dully at a grey cat walking a grey fence in a grey backyard. To-morrow would be Christmas Day, and she had only $1.87 with which to buy Jim a present. She had been saving every penny she could for months, with this result. Twenty dollars a week doesn't go far. Expenses had been greater than she had calculated. They always are. Only $1.87 to buy a present for Jim. Her Jim. Many a happy hour she had spent planning for something nice for him. Something fine and rare and sterling - something just a little bit near to being worthy of the honour of being owned by Jim.

There was a pier-glass between the windows of the room. Perhaps you have seen a pier-glass in an $8 Bat. A very thin and very agile person may, by observing his reflection in a rapid sequence of longitudinal strips, obtain a fairly accurate conception of his looks. Della, being slender, had mastered the art.

Suddenly she whirled from the window and stood before the glass. Her eyes were shining brilliantly, but her face had lost its colour within twenty seconds. Rapidly she pulled down her hair and let it fall to its full length.

Now, there were two possessions of the James Dillingham Youngs in which they both took a mighty pride. One was Jim's gold watch that had been his father's and his grandfather's. The other was Della's hair. Had the Queen of Sheba lived in the flat across the airshaft, Della would have let her hair hang out of the window some day to dry just to depreciate Her Majesty's jewels and gifts. Had King Solomon been the janitor, with all his treasures piled up in the basement, Jim would have pulled out his watch every time he passed, just to see him pluck at his beard from envy.

So now Della's beautiful hair fell about her, rippling and shining like a cascade of brown waters. It reached below her knee and made itself almost a garment for her. And then she did it up again nervously and quickly. Once she faltered for a minute and stood still while a tear or two splashed on the worn red carpet.

On went her old brown jacket; on went her old brown hat. With a whirl of skirts and with the brilliant sparkle still in her eyes, she cluttered out of the door and down the stairs to the street.

Where she stopped the sign read: 'Mme Sofronie. Hair Goods of All Kinds.' One Eight up Della ran, and collected herself, panting. Madame, large, too white, chilly, hardly looked the 'Sofronie.'

"Will you buy my hair?" asked Della.

"I buy hair," said Madame. "Take yer hat off and let's have a sight at the looks of it."

 Down rippled the brown cascade.

"Twenty dollars," said Madame, lifting the mass with a practised hand.

"Give it to me quick" said Della.

Oh, and the next two hours tripped by on rosy wings. Forget the hashed metaphor. She was ransacking the stores for Jim's present.

She found it at last. It surely had been made for Jim and no one else. There was no other like it in any of the stores, and she had turned all of them inside out. It was a platinum fob chain simple and chaste in design, properly proclaiming its value by substance alone and not by meretricious ornamentation - as all good things should do. It was even worthy of The Watch. As soon as she saw it she knew that it must be Jim's. It was like him. Quietness and value - the description applied to both. Twenty-one dollars they took from her for it, and she hurried home with the 78 cents. With that chain on his watch Jim might be properly anxious about the time in any company. Grand as the watch was, he sometimes looked at it on the sly on account of the old leather strap that he used in place of a chain.

When Della reached home her intoxication gave way a little to prudence and reason. She got out her curling irons and lighted the gas and went to work repairing the ravages made by generosity added to love. Which is always a tremendous task dear friends - a mammoth task.

Within forty minutes her head was covered with tiny, close-lying curls that made her look wonderfully like a truant schoolboy. She looked at her reflection in the mirror long, carefully, and critically.

 "If Jim doesn't kill me," she said to herself, "before he takes a second look at me, he'll say I look like a Coney Island chorus girl. But what could I do - oh! what could I do with a dollar and eighty-seven cents?"

At 7 o'clock the coffee was made and the frying-pan was on the back of the stove hot and ready to cook the chops.

Jim was never late. Della doubled the fob chain in her hand and sat on the corner of the table near the door that he always entered. Then she heard his step on the stair away down on the first flight, and she turned white for just a moment. She had a habit of saying little silent prayers about the simplest everyday things, and now she whispered: "Please, God, make him think I am still pretty."

The door opened and Jim stepped in and closed it. He looked thin and very serious. Poor fellow, he was only twenty-two - and to be burdened with a family! He needed a new overcoat and he was with out gloves.

Jim stepped inside the door, as immovable as a setter at the scent of quail. His eyes were fixed upon Della, and there was an expression in them that she could not read, and it terrified her. It was not anger, nor surprise, nor disapproval, nor horror, nor any of the sentiments that she had been prepared for. He simply stared at her fixedly with that peculiar expression on his face.

Della wriggled off the table and went for him.

 "Jim, darling," she cried, "don't look at me that way. I had my hair cut off and sold it because I couldn't have lived through Christmas without giving you a present. It'll grow out again - you won't mind, will you? I just had to do it. My hair grows awfully fast. Say 'Merry Christmas!' Jim, and let's be happy. You don't know what a nice-what a beautiful, nice gift I've got for you."

"You've cut off your hair?" asked Jim, laboriously, as if he had not arrived at that patent fact yet, even after the hardest mental labour.

"Cut it off and sold it," said Della. "Don't you like me just as well, anyhow? I'm me without my hair, ain't I?"

  Jim looked about the room curiously.

 "You say your hair is gone?" he said, with an air almost of idiocy.

"You needn't look for it," said Della. "It's sold, I tell you - sold and gone, too. It's Christmas Eve, boy. Be good to me, for it went for you. Maybe the hairs of my head were numbered," she went on with a sudden serious sweetness, "but nobody could ever count my love for you. Shall I put the chops on, Jim?"

Out of his trance Jim seemed quickly to wake. He enfolded his Della. For ten seconds let us regard with discreet scrutiny some inconsequential object in the other direction. Eight dollars a week or a million a year - what is the difference? A mathematician or a wit would give you the wrong answer. The magi brought valuable gifts, but that was not among them. This dark assertion will be illuminated later on.

Jim drew a package from his overcoat pocket and threw it upon the table.

"Don't make any mistake, Dell," he said, "about me. I don't think there's anything in the way of a haircut or a shave or a shampoo that could make me like my girl any less. But if you'll unwrap that package you may see why you had me going a while at first."

White fingers and nimble tore at the string and paper. And then an ecstatic scream of joy; and then, alas! a quick feminine change to hysterical tears and wails, necessitating the immediate employment of all the comforting powers of the lord of the flat.

 For there lay The Combs - the set of combs, side and back, that Della had worshipped for long in a Broadway window. Beautiful combs, pure tortoise-shell, with jewelled rims - just the shade to wear in the beautiful vanished hair. They were expensive combs, she knew, and her heart had simply craved and yearned over them without the least hope of possession. And now, they were hers, but the tresses that should have adorned the coveted adornments were gone.

But she hugged them to her bosom, and at length she was able to look up with dim eyes and a smile and say: "My hair grows so fast, Jim!"

And then Della leaped up like a little singed cat and cried, "Oh, oh!"

 Jim had not yet seen his beautiful present. She held it out to him eagerly upon her open palm. The dull precious metal seemed to {lash with a reflection of her bright and ardent spirit.

"Isn't it a dandy, Jim? I hunted all over town to find it. You'll have to look at the time a hundred times a day now. Give me your watch. I want to see how it looks on it."

Instead of obeying, Jim tumbled down on the couch and put his hands under the back of his head and smiled.

"Dell," said he, "let's put our Christmas presents away and keep 'em a while. They're too nice to use just at present. I sold the watch to get the money to buy your combs. And now suppose you put the chops on."

The magi, as you know, were wise men - wonderfully wise men - who brought gifts to the Babe in the manger. They invented the art of giving Christmas presents. Being wise, their gifts were no doubt wise ones, possibly bearing the privilege of exchange in case of duplication. And here I have lamely related to you the uneventful chronicle of two foolish children in a flat who most unwisely sacrificed for each other the greatest treasures of their house. But in a last word to the wise of these days let it be said that of all who give gifts these two were the wisest. Of all who give and receive gifts, such as they are wisest. Everywhere they are wisest. They are the magi.

- O. Henry


jeudi, décembre 04, 2014

04/12/14


21 days until Christmas

Tự nhiên chẳng còn thèm đợi Noel nữa, nên hôm qua không thèm đếm ngày nữa đấy. Mình còn chẳng muốn vào SG nữa cơ vì tự nhiên thấy bị đối xử không tốt.

Đôi khi tâm tính cứ dở hơi cám lợn như này, mà lại trong lúc bao nhiêu là chuyện không vui. 

Một ngày của mình bình yên nhất là lúc vào lớp tập Yoga, bao nhiêu phiền muộn đau đầu nhức óc xã hết cho thoải mái rồi thôi xong. Sau đấy lại chẳng muốn than phiền gì nữa.

Cảm giác của mình bây giờ là lâng lâng bất định. Có một vài loại người bẩn thỉu đáng ghê tởm ở ngoài đời mà mình cứ phải gặp hàng ngày, nhưng mình chẳng buồn nói về những người đó vì mình không có bị rãnh. Thời gian quý báu dùng vào việc khác chứ ngồi bỏ thời gian cho người xấu làm chi?

Bây giờ thì sao đây? Mình hông biết nữa. Mình ước gì có thể đẩy mấy người này đi để đưa người mình yêu thương về gần mình. Mình thèm được ôm ấp hun hít chụt chụt, thèm được làm nũng, thèm được childish trở lại với người mình thấy an toàn.

Ngủ đây. Mình lại mệt!

Ước gì người mình yêu cũng yêu thương mình nhiều thế :(

mardi, décembre 02, 2014

02/12/14


23 days until Christmas

Dạo này trở lại cái quỹ đạo bận muốn nổ đầu xong rồi đầu cũng muốn nổ theo nghĩa đen luôn rồi.

Mà giờ kiểu sắp có việc đi làm khảo sát để sếp mở chi nhánh rồi còn nhiều thứ nữa mà mình cũng muốn làm nhưng không biết sao nữa.

Hết thời gian ngủ luôn rồi :(( Sắp đi dậy gia sư nữa mà bữa giờ trên trường bài vở ngập mặt mình còn chẳng có thời gian học.

Mai thuyết trình, tuần sau thuyết trình tiếp 2 môn. Boom! Kiểu cứ stuck như nào í :(

Dạo này cảm thấy chẳng nên expect nhiều quá vào Xmas kẻo đến đấy lại rưng rức mà khóc lóc thì phiền với cả dở hơi lắm. Biết tính người ta rồi đấy, chả bao giờ chiều mình được cái gì với cả mình cũng phải BIẾT ĐIỀU một tí nữa :p

Tự nhiên thấy mệt...mệt từ thể xác lẫn tinh thần. Chẳng muốn than đâu nhưng cứ dồn vào mặt như này, mất ngủ nên tinh thần bị sụt nặng.

Please be nice to me, Xmas! Tui sợ tui bị buồn này nọ hay thất vọng gì lắm nha :((( Tui khổ nhiều rồi, cho tui happy một đêm đi. Được hông?

Oh man, chưa đi gửi quà sinh nhật ra Hà Nội cho thằng bạn mình chớ :(((( đầu với óc ơi nó sẽ giết mình chết mất :((( bữa giờ ko lo gửi lẹ làm gì quên hoài vậy. Tôi ơi là tôi. Hal ơi là Hal T_T

lundi, décembre 01, 2014

The upbeat start of December


24 days until Christmas

It is unbelievable that I've got the highest score in faculty for the Amer culture examination: 8.8/10 :') 

I guess my exam got that high due to the essay and some short answers within. Most of my multiple choices were incorrect for I'm a kind of person who is interested in neither politics nor international news :p 

Beyond all, to my belief, Luck Lady must have smiled at me anyhow since I didn't prepare anything for the essay while others did =)) Honestly, I did prepare 4 out of 6 topics and Gosh, the exam was about the topic of which I was totally clueless. Thus, I must both think and write simultaneously within a very short time :(

The outcome was presumably indeed low, but it turned out to be further than my expectation :o I dunno...honestly I didn't know what was excellent with my exam since it's the highest one :)))

Perhaps, thanks to the fact that I'm blogging and reading books nearly day by day in English which automatically helped me pass the exam even without preparation. I suppose nothing comes without a price :) luck is only 1% and your non-stop efforts are 99%!

Ah today, there was a girl throwing some good words at me. She told to her friends but I accidentally heard :)) "Hallie's naked face is pretty. She must have been much prettier if wearing a make-up layer" =))))

Never mind if it's like I'm a show-off :3 This is my so-called diary and I just wanna share my happiness with it. That's all!!

December, please make my wish come true :(

~ Hal

PS: Vừa xem "Love in tokyo 2" tập 1 đáng yêu cực :x iu Naoki quá. Bây giờ thì mỗi thứ 2 sẽ có một tập này và một tập phim ma "Thirteen terrors" của Thái Lan. Phim nào cũng hay cực cực cực :(((((((