There are a couple days left 'til the moment I'm on the way to Saigon, though it is slightly uneasy and blue somehow in my heart for the reason I'm terrified of horrid things and pains would come to me out of nowhere.
Well, I'm not good at foreseeing what the future may hold, but my 6th sense scarcely seems to lead me to incorrect facts as how it feels. Coming to Saigon this time with an expectation of something amusing and incredible, I hope everything is going to be better a little bit for me because I've been through a lot of pressure and endurance for months at the awful school with a mass of annoying people.
I need to breathe in a fresh air and take my mind clear off as soon as possible. Honestly, what fears me the most is that it always turns out to be quite contrary to my belief and imagination. I'm such a daydreamer at times, then it's pretty stupid if I flee my expectation highly because the higher I climb, the harder I fall in the end.
It took me great efforts to prepare Willian a big box with multiple gifts :) This time, I'm not yearning for romance or unexpected sweetness from him like the summer one year ago since our relationship has likely altered in a complete different way... whether it is better or worse, I have no idea. But no further linger hope at any rate.
Out of this point, the rest of matters become quite okay to me. My friends and brothers can't wait to reunite and take me around. They do love me unconditionally. How lucky I am to have such amazing ones despite the long distance! Anne and I phoned each other last night for an hour right after my Yoga class. lolz~
This voyage is a promising sign of my future and it consists of several events that may be the last. I don't know! I's scary just to have a thought of either sadness or happiness. Yeah, I must face some issues and get ready for the worst!
Gotta make my luggage ready right off! I'm leaving the day after tomorrow ;)
Bonne chance!
xoxo
~ Hal
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