How my Xmas was ruined

1 days until Christmas 

I was fucked off this morning for some annoying people pushing me complete the assignments when it had come closely to the afternoon deadline. Things at that time were a beautiful mess that I had no idea if I must cease my work to help them.

It was a such severe hurt to my self-respect when the teacher was suspicious of me due to the fact that my essay was beyond his expectation. How ridiculous of Vietnamese teachers who always want to limit their students to the presumably level and dislike if someone goes further than what they have taught. What the fuck! 

What if I've been spending a considerable amount of time for books and collect numerous words to boast what I've comprehended as self-study during the long run? There is nothing wrong if it's not that low as he expected!

If only I could change the whole situation by getting away from this environment as soon as possible. The place in which there are injustice along with superficial teachers bounding their students' knowledge within textbooks and information on the surface that I can possibly gain much more deeply than that. I hate to take my ass to class for roll-call and only be allowed to know what those teachers say, even if their knowledge is incorrect sometimes since they don't even learn about those lessons carefully. 

Dear, it drives me crazy and I fuckingly hate this school >.<

What a horrid day! Yeah, tonight is the Christmas Eve! Though, I'm still here all alone in my bedroom, sitting before the screen of my laptop to blog and being jealous of someone who are getting together with the man I love, feeling uneasy for the damn teacher mentioned above, wondering the time my brother would wake up for me to whine about what has led to this Hallie's overly awful mood and look for consolation and being about to watch my favourite Xmas movies "Home Alone 2" and "Snow Queen". 

Well, it's okay to be alone at Christmas Eve since it has lost its meaning already when I'm incapable of celebrating the day with someone I love. My polar star has not risen this year yet :) I'd better have myself a little Christmas at home with my family for movie-time. 

I'm not going to let some awful things ruin my special day. I love Christmas as much as I love my birthday and new year, even more. That's why I hoped to see him on the very occasion. Anw, you see, God never pleases me in the least :) even on His birthday =)))

Hallielujah!!!

Unlike me, you all should have a merry Christmas with your beloved :x Merry Christmas!!!

With love,

~ Hal

PS: The egg, one of my Xmas presents, was broken emerging a bad omen for my holiday. Yeah, it turned out to be this dark!