Nervous

The sooner my journey is coming, the more insecure I feel for some unknown reason. Never had before my mood turned to become a mixture of anxiety and fear each time I visit Saigon until this time, why don't I sense any kind of peace or excitement for the trip?

Is there something wrong inside me? It's weird because I have no longer waited for the first hour landing on Saigon and even meant to cancel the flight there a few days ago. 

Okay, honestly I'm quite good for now. But "when we are happy we are always good, but when we are good we are not always happy" :) 

What should I do??

Is it because I'm afraid this is the last time...?

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By the way, today is Dec 28th! R.A.L.P.H :) It hurts as usual, but I've at least been recovered somehow.

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02:41

Khó chịu dễ sợ dù chẳng hiểu khó chịu cái gì nữa. Tự nhiên chẳng muốn đi đâu nữa, chẳng muốn làm gì nữa. Chả hiểu đang bị cái gì nữa >.< Cứ lo, cứ sợ, cứ ức chế vãi chưởng là như nào? Muốn đập lộn quá...

Sao í :(( Chẳng hứng thú xếp đồ gì luôn í T_T Giờ hỏi sao thế thì xin thưa "hông biết" :|