Xmas '16

Merry Christmas everyone!!!!

I had such an unforgettable night with my best colleagues in the world. Last night, the weather seemed not so easy to celebrate the party, but we still attended to the Guest Gathering and had warm conversations with our beloved guests. There were a lot of activities such as calligraphy (one kind of Vietnamese traditional writing), dragon dance, etc. at the Jetty bar. Then we both turned into the faithful and went to the Dining by the Bay restaurant to sing carol songs. 

Although it was raining heavily and freezing, we later decided to come to the Rock Villa to sing for a private BBQ party thanks to the speed boat. The feeling of rain, wind and frozen to the bone but happiness flew inside me somehow. Yay, we were taken many wonderful pictures to share on facebook and honestly that was one of the best Xmas I had ever experienced in my life because I had them all beside me.

The night fell down and we had an intimate late dinner at the host bar to chit chat and laugh out loud like kids. It lasted until the midnight and we must get back to our room for sleeping. 

What a holy night!!!

This morning, we sang again and danced the bamboo ^^~ Then we had a big pizza and cups of carrot juice at lunch while waiting for the speed boat to get home. *Phew* As soon as I arrived at home, I flung myself into the bed and sleep well haha

Too tired but too happy to complain :") I'm so full now!!!

Thanks, God for everything!!!

Love,

Hal

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Christmas is not coming to town but flooding over the resort where I'm working. It means I have been participating in the vocal group to sing carols on Christmas' Eve at the restaurant as a special gift for all the guests on the day. 

Half of me is intensively excited to stay over night on the hidden away island to celebrate this occasion for the first time with my lovely colleagues and spread our heart all around to cheer the night while the other half tells me to get home, stick my ass on the comfy sofa beside my beloved ones, taste the popcorn while watching our all-the-time favourite movie "Home alone 2". 

This year, I am about to have myself a little Christmas in another way, though. Yes, I agreed to spend my most special moment in the resort to sing carols and have a party with my colleagues here. Hopefully the night wouldn't make me disappointed :)

Bf has been not around for over one month and won't return until Tet holiday for his master degree course. Last year, we had a warm and cosy night together at Nha Trang center. Life is always getting so easy to be with him. I suppose I should fill the loneliness on holidays by hooking up with my friends and enjoying the holidays in delight even without him.

Can't wait until the Saturday!!!

Peace,

Hal 

Nước lũ dâng cao

Qua giờ Nha Trang có áp thấp nhiệt đới nên mưa xối xả từ đêm qua đến tận sáng nay, mình cũng cố dậy sớm chuẩn bị rồi đi làm. Xe đi được đến cầu Trần Phú thì bị tắc nghẽn giao thông vì đường biển khúc Phạm Văn Đồng bị chặn do sạc lở đường.

Mình ngồi trên xe cũng nhoi nhoi vì sợ không biết lát đi tàu ra sao nữa, thế là quyết định xuống xe bắt taxi về nhà cho lành. Về đến nhà lại không có mami ở nhà nên đành lên Lotte mua vé xem phim vô ngồi trong cái rạp vắng tanh xem phim "The charnel house". Phim khá hay vì ít nhất lâu lắm rồi mới lại có cảm giác sợ thật sự.

Sau đó thì về nhà ăn trưa rồi nằm ngủ. Hôm nay mưa to nhiều lắm, vỡ đê lũ lụt khắp nơi. Nhà mình cũng bị dột từ tối hôm qua nhưng may quá lại không bị lũ lụt gì cả. Đôi khi chỉ cần thế này cũng thấy rằng mình may mắn nhiều như nào rồi.

Mấy nay tiếng anh mình quá tệ :( Mình cảm thấy xấu hổ và buồn bã vì mình không còn được sử dụng tiếng anh hay thấy tự hào gì về khả năng ngôn ngữ của mình nữa.

Cảm thấy buồn vì bị put in the wrong condition :)

Boring day!

Christmas is coming to town. People all around me are getting busy with a lot of incredible plans at Christmas' Eve such as practicing to sing carols, decorating the Xmas tree, shopping for a bunch of cute fluffy stuff to wear and take photos everywhere. 

However, I feel somehow indifferent with this most special event in the year. There is no more annual Christmas countdown, no more decoration and Hal-made greeting cards. What has left in me now is just a void that is hardly to be filled. 

I'm thinking of another trip to HCMC at the end of year to have the New Year's Eve party with my friends and they would be able to drive me through beautiful and sparkling streets under the colorful lights above my head. It must be wonderful to meet them again after months of working like a slave.

On the other hand, my colleagues asked me to remain at the resort to sing the carols of Christmas for guests at the dinner and celebrate a little party at the Christmas' Eve and we will take a trip to Dalat city at the first of 2017.

Well, there are several interesting options to pick here. Either HCMC or Dalat city or nothing - stay at home and enjoy my holiday wrapped myself in the cover and start to hibernate like a polar bear =.= 

Since I started my work, all I wish to do everything I've got free time is just sleeping and sleeping as much as possible in order to fill the lack of sleep that I have been experiencing for months. 

*Phew*

This post is lame! I'm lame too!

Sorry.

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I have got a sunstroke since the day of interview at Eastin resort for some reason. That must be an impressing day as long as I forgot the interview with a Vietnamese nasty woman in Human Resource Department. What's more, working on Saturday would be awful to me. Therefore, regardless of the fact that I had an interesting conversation with General Manager and I supposed I would be fortune to work with such a nice boss like this, my ultimate decision was refusing the job no matter how high my salary could be. 

My guts told me it was not right to go for such an office environment as everything was strange to me, from the way those staff threw at me inquisitive looks and certainly initiated to give me judgment inside their head. I felt totally uncomfortable!

Back to where I have been working, there are a lot of nice things here. From the colleagues to the environment, they give me peace and the sense of familiarity except my manager *frown* Well, I'd better temporarily work here until the end of January due to the upcoming Lunar New Year. I'm going to attend to the Year-End party with most of my company and get the bonus at the end of year :') Many good things are waiting for me at this time. 

The start of something new should come in new year!!!

My current job is kind of boring and tedious which doesn't give me any opportunity to grow myself and improve any specific skill. I am an extrovert who would like to communicate and learn more new things from a variety of other fields, but right now I'm surrounded by the walls in a small room, all alone sticking my ass on a chair, facing to the screen for eight hours and working like a machine T_T Sometimes I wonder why I chose this position although I had already had a vision of that poor me stuck in a room without moving an inch to anywhere else. Well, maybe my decision followed the salary that attracted such a recent graduate like me :)) Money first, your passion comes second! That's the rule ='p Now, I'm slight regretting for the thought somehow!

...

It's raining in torrents outside.

...seems the storm is coming.

Sad!

~Hal

Salut Decembre!

December greeted me with an overwhelming workload that I believe it must have been for the whole team working together to complete. Sometimes I wonder whether my manager supposes I am such a supergirl or possess any supernatural powers to handle all those tasks at once, or simply she merely considers me a machine to work automatically without tiredness. 

To be honest, I am capable of handling them but I decided to refuse and quit the job because I should let no one exploit me for no reason. I need a leader who may sympathize with me or at least encourage me and appreciate what I have done so far instead of showing me how unproductive I am although she never tries putting herself into my shoe and knows how much I have dedicated to this company. 

I am not going to show off my ability but I dare her to find out someone else better than me. Someone who can play two roles at the same time and work all alone under pressure without being recognized by the leader.

This morning, it was the straw that broke the camel’s back when she forced me to follow her rules even though she allowed me to manage everything by myself right from the beginning. One thing, she is bad at managing and doesn’t fit to become a manager :)

As my plan, I have the date of interview tomorrow morning at another resort and get ready to leave this current job. Future is such a mysterious thing to predict but I believe there is a will, there’s a way. 

Wish me luck on the day!! *finger crossed*

Hal

To sum up the November

There are a lot of stories to tell within this month since I have not updated anything in my blog for a while. No excuse here for this but I am going to make it up by this post :')

- From 19 to 22/11: My bf and I visited the romantic city - Dalat for the third time in year due to the wild sunflower blossom season. The temperature was so low that I barely wished to get out of the bed regardless of my bf's effort to pull me out of the cover. However, no sooner had I arrived in some beautiful destinations listed in my bf's plan than my heart became overwhelmed by the impressive beauty of them and thank God my laziness had not made me miss those wonderful things. We came to the tea hills, the wild sunflower path, Dalat academy children's house, the field of pink grass (almost failed), the night market, Bao Dai summer palace, Culan village :') Everything was so beautiful and dreamlike that I never wanted to wake up!

- Nov 25th: My company celebrated a festival for the male hosts at the cooking competition and the programme. It was very delightful because of many special items and the most excellent comedy that cracked me up lolz~ That night was amazing and I felt like I came to get closer to the resort.

- Nov 26th: My colleagues and I started to make the paper bags by recycled papers to contain our little gifts from heart to the children at a local kindergarten on the occasion of universal children's day (a little bit late). We had been working for the whole day to make almost 200 gifts in total. Although it was quite tiring, I somehow felt blissful inside.

- Nov 28th: On behalf of our company, my colleagues and I came to the local kindergarten as planned to distribute those gifts. To my expectation, seeing the delighted facial expression of the children, everything turned out to be meaningful and I believed our efforts were valued. They are the generation that will lead the future of this country, I hope they will live a meaningful life and change the country in a better way.

In the evening, I dated out with my bf for the movie "The fantastic beast and where to find them". As such a Potterhead like me, this is a must to watch and give myself a ticket back to the childhood where my heart always yearns for. Poor my bf! He didn't understand where the plot of movie comes from because any scenes in the movie were kind of complicated and confusing. It took me minutes to explain to him in the movie box. 

- Nov 29th: One month of the twenty four Hallie :)) My afternoon began with some hosts' anger pouring on me without asking for my explanation. I was under the impression that they were throwing their temper at me as they couldn't do with their manager. My silence was everything. I felt so tired that I didn't want to say anything but keeping quiet and letting them be. A few hours later, having figured out the whole story, they came back to my office and made their apologies for what they had said furiously to me lolz~ forget to forgive. I don't mind at all, but I feel nothing either. Whatever!!!

Last day bf stays here with me :( Hope tonight will be bright and memorable before his leaving to Hue for the master degree within two years. Oh my God! Long distance relationship again, bae T_T it's not fair to me AT ALL!!!

Love,

Hal

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Tối qua đi coi phim Dr.Strange với ba mà về hơi trễ nên cũng không update gì được cả. Thật ra thì mình không thích thể loại siêu anh hùng ảo lòi như này rồi nên cũng không biết khen chê như nào cả, từ đầu đến cuối chỉ xem mỗi anh Ben thôi :)) Ba thì đến khúc cuối lại lăn ra ngủ mất tiêu =.=

Hôm nay đi làm vui lắm. Sếp đi công tác xa nên cả bộ phận HR nhoi nhoi kéo vô mang nào là xoài, ổi, lựu, khế blah blah ngồi nhai nhồm ngoài tám chuyện rồi hát hò đủ trò. Không có sếp là thành cả lũ giặc hết như này...

Thật ra thì hôm qua buồn lắm, đồng nghiệp cùng phòng mình nghỉ luôn nên thành ra hôm nay đi làm cảm giác khá buồn và hụt hẫng nên bản thân mơ mơ màng màng. May mấy anh chị bộ phận cũng thương nên rủ qua chơi thành ra cũng đỡ buồn.

Mình cũng đang tính chuyển việc do mọi người ai cũng sắp đi rồi :( Mình chả biết nữa, đến lúc thân thiết với mọi người thì cuối cùng lại ra thế này...

Chủ nhật mưa...

Hôm nay Chủ nhật mà trời mưa to quá, phát ốm với loại thời tiết như này vì khiến con người uể oải chậm chạp và chỉ muốn nằm ườn trong phòng quấn chăn ngủ thôi chứ chẳng buồn ra đường nữa.

Nhưng cuối cùng mình vẫn phải ra đường để mua vé xem phim Dr.Strange cho ngày mai đi cùng papa. Bản thân mình không thích thể loại siêu anh hùng hay kỹ xảo ảo lòi bao giờ, nhưng vì anh Ben thương yêu của trái tim đóng vai chính nên không thể không đi xem được :")

Lúc mua về thì người ướt sũng vì mắc mưa nhưng vẫn vui vì đã mua được 2 vé do ngày mai là ngày khuyến mãi nên người ta mua khá nhiều í. Cầm hai vé mà lòng sung sướng vì mua được chỗ không phải là tồi nên vui.

Hôm nay nhà mình mới mang về một em chó xù khá xinh xẻo tên Bên =)) Ôi đau đầu quá đi vi sao lai lay ten Ben dat cho cho the nay co chu :') Hi vong no khong hung du va dang so nhu con cho den cu =.=

Chủ Nhật như này ảm đạm quá đi mất... lại còn nghe nhạc Adele thì thôi rồi :( Bf đã bay vào SG với mẹ để đi thăm gia đình anh trai, còn mình ở đây chóc ngóc chơ vơ nghe tiếng mưa rơi.

Thôi đi đọc truyện đây cho thấm.

Rainy day,

Hal

Birthday girl at 24

Twenty four years ago, I was born on the Earth and soon became the only light of happiness to my parents due to the fact that they have only one child who is me so far. Since then, it was such a tough and difficult time for them to foster me as a weak and skinny child being in pain and sickness most of the time back to my childhood. They took me to the doctor so usually that he remembered my name – the frequent little patient crying in fear for pills and injection. 

Days turn to weeks, weeks turn to months, months turn to years and now here I am – at the beginning of my 24th year of lifetime. I am grateful for having strength to move on despite those bad previous episodes that I struggled to get through in each bitter period.

Looking back to my sweet twenty three, my graduation from university and a full time job with high salary are the remarkable achievements in which I fully take pride for it has not been a rosy path leading to the success if you ever know about my history and how I struggle to overcome obstacles and pains in order to become this indestructible me today.

I celebrated my birthday party with my family and beloved one. Four of us dined out at a family-run restaurant, then returned to our house to lighten the candles on a fresh cream cake for me to blow out and make a wish, actually I made three wishes. Finally we took photographs to save those memories as the mark of another chapter in my life.

As a birthday girl, I promise to become more mature and reasonable in each consideration that I may make!

Happy birthday to me!!

Love,

Hal

Goodbye my 23rd

Đôi dòng tạm biệt tuổi 23 nhé!

Vậy là tôi chuẩn bị già đi một tuổi nữa rồi vì chỉ còn chưa đầy 2 tiếng nữa là sẽ sang tuổi 24. Chưa bao giờ tôi cảm giác rằng mình lớn lên nhiều đến thế, trưởng thành đến thế, trầm tĩnh và chững chạc đến thế này,

Có lẽ tuổi 23 chính là con số đánh dấu cho sự trưởng thành thật sự của tôi. Tôi đã trở thành một quý cô thật sự. Tôi biết điệu, biết nói chuyện khéo léo, biết cái gì nên và không nên nói, biết khi nào nên thành thật và khi nào buộc lòng phải sử dụng một tí xã giao.

Tôi đã lớn rồi. Chốn công sở phức tạp, xã hội hỗn loạn thì việc giữ mãi bản chất hiền lương vô tư thì tôi sẽ chẳng khác gì con ngốc cả, họ sẽ coi thường tôi và sẵn sàng dẫm đạp lên tôi mà bước tới.

Bây giờ tôi không phiền muộn nhiều, không nói nhiều, không tâm sự thổ lộ nỗi niềm nhiều mà tôi chỉ cười thật nhiều. Tôi bị đối xử không tốt, tôi cười vì tôi chẳng còn quan tâm lắm đến điều đó hay bận tâm suy nghĩ tôi đã làm gì sai để người khác làm vậy với tôi. Tôi cười vì bây giờ tôi bình yên nhiều lắm, tôi không còn sân hận hay làm gì hại đến tinh thần của tôi. Tôi được đối xử tốt, tôi cười vì tôi đã đúng khi tin rằng cuộc đời này vẫn còn nhiều lắm những người tốt và tôi vẫn còn lòng tin vào con người.

Đi làm dạy tôi được nhiều thứ dù đây không phải là công việc mà tôi thật sự yêu thích. Nhưng nhờ nó, tôi có thể thực hiện được những điều mà tôi yêu thích trong thời gian ngắn hơn nếu tôi chuyển sang một câu việc mới. 

Tuổi 23 tôi mới bắt đầu nghiêm túc với những phím đàn piano từ những nốt Do Re Mi Fah Sol dù trước đây tôi cũng đã từng được các sơ chỉ dẫn tận tình. Tôi đã cho rằng mình quá tuổi học nhưng rồi tôi nhận ra rằng ước mơ không phân biệt tuổi tác, chỉ cần có đủ kiên trì thì tôi đều có thể học được.

Tôi bây giờ sống nhẹ nhàng, thanh thản và điềm nhiên nhiều. Chính tôi đôi khi cũng ngạc nhiên với điều đó cơ mà. Cuộc sống của tôi bây giờ bình thường, theo lời dạy của ba tôi thì bình thường chính là hạnh phúc rồi. Vì vậy tôi không tham cầu gì thêm cho cuộc sống nữa. Tôi đang cảm thấy đủ ='D

Gửi đến cô gái Hallie tuổi 24 xinh đẹp,

Hãy sống thật tốt và hạnh phúc thật sự nhé... tuổi xuân sắp qua đi rồi. Đời có bao nhiêu cái sinh nhật đâu để mà hững hờ.

Hôm nay tôi chỉ viết đến đây, mai tôi sẽ viết thật nhiều cho bản thân cô gái 24 nhé ^^~

Yêu cô,

Hal

PS: Sáng sớm mới đi làm đã được tặng một cái bánh kem thật xinh :") tôi quả là một cô gái may mắn :x

[Horro film] Ouija 2

My birthday is coming in two days but nobody seems to care about it. A few days ago, I received an early birthday gift from ss Sarah who always loves me no matter how far and how long we have been parted. That was the only sign of birthday coming all the way to me.

Each time when people are bound up to prepare for Halloween, it also means that my birthday is very near and horror films are waiting for me to enjoy the taste…all alone in an interesting way. I swear I have been out at times for horror movies especially in October as this is just a nice treat for me and I love it.

Two years ago, I went to the movie for “Ouija”. As far as I remember, of course I took a look on this blog too, this movie was good enough and caused me to get curious at the end, particularly regarding the history of haunted house where Debbie found the spirit board as known as Ouija. 

And now, to my pleasure, I was off for the “Ouija 2” tonight all alone again. I bet you may assume I am such a weirdo who would feel delightful and enjoy each moment watching an horror films by herself regardless of the surroundings with strangers. 

Due to the cardiovascular disease, my bf couldn’t go out with me for the movie and the absences of my best friends in this city are reasonable to explain my solitary. 

Well, I’m going to tell something briefly about the “Ouija 2”. There are many negative comments about it on Internet, though I hardly believe in those things. No standards would be set for a movie; it depends on each person’s taste of film. To some, it is mediocre and to others, it is extraordinary. If I had faith in those comments, I would have missed hundreds of good films so far. 

In comparison to the first part, I still prefer the first to the second. It often occurs to “sequel”, I guess. “Ouija 2” was exactly the answer for the first one in term of history of the haunted house. The whole story was just around the house: in the kitchen, the basement, the bedroom, the living room and on the side wall of staircase. Doris, overtaken by a merciless spirit, appeared to be indeed creepy. With her cold starting eyes on others, I was scared to dead haha just kidding!~ But I must admit the little young lady who casted the character Doris is really talented. There were a few impressing jumpscares sometimes which caused strange girls beside me to scream and start to weep for nothing. I was bothered by their noise =.=

*sigh* long time no write… my writing skill is worse than ever!!!

Gotta hit the hay now,

Lovely night!!!

Hal

Europe - The goal

Another hiatus since I started to work at an office like other adults would do after the graduation, though deep down inside me, there is always an appositive flow of thoughts that is urging me to change and live the life I’m yearning for. A life of journeys, discovery and freedom. A life that I can both make the best of me and earn savings from what I am genuinely good at in an interesting way. But at the end of the day, I’m still just an ordinary girl surrounded by those who would sit there for hours telling me what I am supposed to do, how fortunate I am to get the current job while millions of unemployed people are miserably searching for such a stable job with high salary like me, how entirely insane I would be if I leave this job to harbor these illusions which may potentially crash out my future. 

Sometimes I practically find it make sense for my life at the present is quite stable and would be permanently if I keep up this job for the rest of my life haha It means when I grow old, my hair turns grey, my eyes get blurred, I would sit in a room like a jail, live on a pension, have a lot of money that I have spent my whole life to save it and feeling dreadfully regretful for the passing youth that I didn’t dare to live to the fullest, the dream that I would never ever be able to catch even if I’m capable of “buying” the dream now. Yeah, it’s too late!! You only have one life to live and you can’t live twice, may be yes, albeit in my next incarnation, you would forget what you have missed in this life and continue to repeat that miserable circle. Who knows?!

Don’t gasp! I have already planned out the “route” to my beloved Europe within a month sooner or later regardless of any arguments that may occur with this decision. I am more than willing to tear out the cocoon as my safe zone for years due to my parents’ overprotective instincts and become a strong butterfly spreading its wing, flying straight to the European sky and indeed immersing its self into the infinite happiness that it has always been yearning for. 

I am fully aware of how dangerous it is and this must be the risk that I have to take, but I’d rather take the risk and see more of the world than tie my ass on the chair behind the wall and imagine how big this world out there would be. Basically I am a destiny believer, anything happens for a reason. If I was born to become an introvert, bound by the destiny to put myself “in jail” for life to lead such a normal and simple life like others, my 6th sense wouldn’t urge me this much and obviously I couldn’t encounter many interesting people and amazing friends telling me fairy tales about life in “the wonderful life”. I believe universe has brought to me these magical encounters to light up in me the idea of voyages. I comprehend neither the term fairy tales nor the wonderful life in Europe is true but it is beautiful in its way or at least, my guts tell me that I belong to that place where I should feel like duck in water.

Dear me, if you have faith in your dream, it will become true someday! Yes, someday..

Okay, get my ass back to work and keep on the uninspired work for now *frown* 

Love,

Hal

Keep it up, girl!

At times, I decided to shut down this blog and create a new one to make something fresh as changes for me but I finally casted the idea away. This blog has been my dearest invisible friend for years that would keep all the ups and downs in my previous life. From tears, fear, shame to happiness, sorrows. These must be the best also the worst memories carrying with me since I was that innocent little lady.

You know, I am no longer the old me – that dreamy girl who would spend hours looking at the sky, elbows on the windowsill, thinking about the Europe where there are endless green fields of flowers, cool air getting through my hair giving such a sense of paradise, where there are imposing mountains and impressive deep blue lakes that I could stand motionlessly and gaze at them to let myself immersed in the beauty of nature, where there are ancient buildings across the streets I could find myself travel to the past to which my soul always belong, as I said, I must have been born in the wrong era, where the weather is so damn freezing that I need to put on thick coats to keep warm. Yay, warmth is my favourite! 

The little dreamy girl is not here anymore, but instead there is a strong and mature lady who would put her efforts to make her dreams come true. She chose an inappropriate job to work and has been completed her probationary period. She keeps dealing with this tedious life without complaining because she is certain that this job and what she is doing will help her to carry on the plan to Europe. She learns how to accept what she doesn’t really love and how to treasure the present so that she may find the genuine happiness in life, in any period that she is.

She talks less but thinks more. The friend zone is limited because her time for herself is shortened too. Sometimes she finds herself in the middle of nowhere and too lonesome to bear it even though she has her boyfriend and family beside her all the time. Perhaps she has lost the value of time and unintentionally fallen into the rough circle that everybody is following. Working, going home, having dinner, sleeping and starting another the same day. Life is nothing but the same routine daily. 

She used to have fun with friends, real friends at parties but at the end of the day, she was still herself lonesome in the bedroom pouring down the thoughts on this blog because there would be nobody understanding or at least trying to know her, otherwise she didn’t want to show herself either. Becoming dramatic, so sensitive, weak, fragile and not halicious in front of others is such a shame to her.  Yes, she was stubborn and incomprehensible!

This girl at the present is still childish, clumsy and sensitive, but stronger than ever. Sometimes she may weep or burst into tears over such a trivial or worthless issue, and then she is recovered soon. She has learnt how to forgive and forget quickly so as to let her mind clear and free from rubbish.

She accepts herself as who she is because nobody is going to love her more than she does. She keeps doing the things that seem right to her and never means to give in unless it reaches to the limit of her endurance. She believes that someday she will be happy in making her dreams come true.

Instead of indulging in illusions, let make them lucid dreams in reality!

…

I have no idea what the future may hold but deep down inside, I still believe in the magic coming from ultimate faith in oneself.      

Love,

Hal

A high fever

Oh yeah my month greeted me with a high fever of 38*C. Yesterday, I started to feel uneasy at work because I couldn't do anything but laying my head on the desk and getting my headache as hell.  

I am always supposed to be as strong as a horse for I'm capable of being daily transferred within one hour and half from home to my office. No sooner had I put my feet on the ground, I went to either yoga class or piano class right off. Then I would have "fast" dinner and hang out with bf until the night and got home around half past nine.

Day by day, the circle merely runs and runs without any symptom of this fever. One day it comes and knocks me down this badly :'( I'm fully aware of the quote "Health is better than wealth" now!!!

You wouldn't love to do anything out of the fact that covering yourself on the bed and being suffered. It was such a night mare for you to lay awake all the night with a high temperature, an awful headache and nasal congestion. :(( I have to beat myself up for this illness, dear *frown*

Okay, hope I will be fine soon and return to the active life instead of lying on the bed all day and watching movies. Anw I actually love this condition somehow :') hehe~ I'm lazy lah :*

Stay well!

Hal 

PS: It's my pleasure to be treated like a little princess when I'm sick :') haha 

Naomi's wedding

Came another day of marriage into which my high-school classmate has stepped. That was the first wedding ceremony that I had to attend all by myself since my bf had been out of the town for the entrance examination for the master course.

As I came to the flower gate and saw the lovely bride, she was amazed of my appearance so much that she must utter how skinny I look. Yeah, I have lost one kilo after starting the job but it is alright because my health stays as good as you may expect it to be.

Through her brief words, I could sense that no matter how long it takes, we are still good friends after all. We haven’t talked to each other for a while but dropping some short messages on facebook every now and then.

Tonight, she was stunning in the yellow gown beside her husband. I wished all the best wishes for both of them. If only I could stay longer to talk to her more, the point was I was sitting alone in a table of strangers, gradually getting bored of the noise and the atmosphere because I felt like I was left behind everything…so small…so sensitive and yeah, I’m not type of person who would know how to enjoy the loneliness unless I intend to do so.

Well, another wedding. Another urge for me to get married :)) Who knows?! Haha Honestly, I am not ready for any commitment right now, or at least, until the graduation day of my bf ^^~

For one thing, my wedding would be entirely different from any Vietnamese weddings. How weird it is to invite too many people, including strangers or so-called friends, stuffing them all in a hall, letting them look on the stage for a moment when the ceremony begins, then focusing only on food and even forgetting the reason why they are here. Having finished the last dish, they stand up and leave. What is the meaning of wedding? People just need to come, put the envelope of money into the box which means paying for the party and leave?

I imagine one day I would celebrate such a little party with a few of my best friends and our parents whose presents are wholeheartedly for the bride and the groom with wishes and lovely gifts, not money. They would express their happiness and encouragement to us and at the mid night, we would dance, sing and even me, the bride, I would be able to performance a piece of music on piano and sing a romantic song as a special gift to my husband. Whoa, how cool it would be! There is scope for imagination after attending in a wedding. Hihihi~

Anw….happy wedding, Naomi!!!

Much love,

Hal

PS: Happy the 14th monthsary to me, by the way :")

Content :x

Dear diary,

Life is treating me nicely that is out of my expectation. This is exactly what I have always been yearning for since I can remember. Perhaps, due to a healthy life that I'm leading, my mind is better and I can balance between work, love and time for myself.

I am getting used to be a morning bird, waking up early in the morning to see the sun rises, preparing to go for work. At the evening, while transferring on a boat from the island where I'm working to the coast, I lay on a bench and start to read one of my favourite book. Then I have to catch the bus back home. It takes me another thirty minutes from the coast called "The Pearl Farm", though I found another interesting thing to do that is listening to either music or French audio while looking out of the window, contemplating the landscape along the way and letting my soul drifting ~

No sooner have I set my foot safely on the ground, I shall prepare to go for either yoga class or piano class. At the end of the day, I'm home, have dinner with my family and call boyfriend before the bed time ^^

It sounds peaceful, eh? Sometimes I would like to spend a little time on writing blog to pour my thoughts out, turning my sorrows into words and forgetting them later. But I've been in the best form and felt content with this life right now, so there is nothing to complain :")

That's the update of my healthy habit, healthy life!!! Congrats, Hal :*

Peace,

Hal 

Graduation 2016

I am delighted that I have eventually graduated on the 15th of September. My apology for leaving this blog too long to make it alive since I'm falling myself into the hectic life that I used to dislike.

Four years in the university. Four years in tears, pain, sorrows and of course victories in which I truly took pride. Six years of struggling to overcome any tough time about finance, family matters and even myself. At first, I supposed that I was born under a unlucky star because life always gives me lemons. However, I have gradually realized that life always gives me lemons in order to help me learn by myself how to make lemon juice and taste this life better.

Today, I am working at a well-known resort in the position of trainer, interpreter and translator. Sometimes I get worn-out and nearly intend to quit the job due to the pressure of work and even I am not really interested in it. Then, as you know, I am such an optimistic girl who would look on the bright side to see the light even in the darkness. 

I must say that I am fully more mature than before. I become calmer and take control of my mind very well. I can work very professionally without any guideline right from the beginning for my supposed-to-be manager had taken his leave before I became an official host *at my resort, we call employees and staff "hosts".

I am grateful for four years, actually six years after my graduation from my high school. From the moment I moved to HCMC for study to difficult time that I struggled to survive in an entire city with no relatives and family. From the moment I returned home and started over again my campus life to tedious days in tears for not being able to get myself used to that new life. From my hatred towards this new university, new environment and many disgusting things to the change of mindset. I will remember all of them in the corner of my heart. 

I have met with many adversities but they made me grow stronger, more mature and better for real :) In the near future, I hope that I will success, achieve my dreams and bring happiness to my beloved ones as my wish. 

Love you and congrats!!

Hal 

The 4th day!

This is the fourth day since I started over my career at another place on an island. Things are strange and mostly tough due to the long distance that I have to get through every morning.

I wake up at 5 to prepare and have breakfast quickly so that I can catch up the minibus to the port and yeah, another long trip on the boat to the island :)))

The weather on the island is nice in the summer but it seems dirty in the winter due to the torrents of rain. As I set my foot on the island, the first thing I always do is deeply breathing in the morning fresh air which makes my mind pretty calming and relaxing after snatching a nap on the boat.

Thanks, God! I don't find it difficult to steal a nap in any tough condition. No need to be on a soft mattress with a warm basket to lie down. As long as I get some pending minutes to rest, I'm capable of sleeping in any pose lolz~

Speaking of my current job, I'm merely in the period of probation and there has not yet been the pressure of work. I'm always attempting to have the best performance beneath my HR manager and of course the manager in my department. Honestly, they don't pay much attention on what I have done because I'm left in an isolated room that nobody seems to drop by. I'm alone in the room most of time and I myself find anything that interests me to work with, of course to please and prove the mangers that I'm not good for nothing.

Life goes on. For the first three days, I was not familiar with transferring that far. My head was aching and I predicted that I wouldn’t be able to continue this job beyond 3 days :)) At that time, I promised myself if I could be here on the fourth day, I would write an entry to mark the day as I was pretty sure that everything would have been alright then.

Okay, time to work hard and earn well!!!

Peace,

Hal

Đậu phỏng vấn rồi!!!

À thế này, sau 7 vòng từ interview tới test kỹ năng các kiểu thì bạn Hal đã lọt qua các vòng và chuẩn bị đi làm vào ngày 1/8 sắp tới. 

Dạo này bạn không onl máy nên cũng không có time viết blog gì nhiều cả vì bạn đang trang thủ tận hưởng những ngày ít ỏi cuối cùng trước khi bước chân vào công việc mới làm từ sáng tới tối mịt mới mò đầu về.

Tuần này là tuần cuối bạn Hal làm giáo viên, bạn Hal còn đứng lớp, còn quát nạt ăn hiếp các bé học trò dễ thương của bạn Hal nên trong lòng bạn Hal khá buồn bã. 

Lớp Dino còn quá nhỏ thì chúng nó chẳng hiểu mô tê gì, cứ gặp là lại kêu "Hello teacher Hallie đẹp gái" rồi cả lũ cứ nhào vào ôm hôn bạn Hal thắm thiết khiến bạn Hal đỏ mặt rồi xong cũng biết là sau đấy lại quên ngay. 

Lớp Pixie lớn hơn một chút thì có ý thức, lúc nghe tin cô Hallie không dạy nữa thì nháo nhào rần rần la hét "cô Hallie đừng bỏ con" các kiểu khiến bạn Hal lo lắng thót tim vì sợ sếp biết cái sự nổi loạn này :)) 

Bạn Hal ko biết sau này thế nào và tương lai ra sao, dù buồn nhưng bạn Hal vẫn thấy quyết định ra đi và bắt đầu một công việc mới đúng ngành nghề và môi trường quốc tế như thế này thì có thể hợp với bạn hơn vì bạn thích nói tiếng Anh :))

Dạo này bạn cười hơi nhiều nhưng lòng bạn lại rối rắm lo âu trăm bề. Bạn vẫn tin rằng lạc quan có đủ quyền năng và huyền diệu để giúp bạn xua tan mọi sự tiêu cực có thể sắp tới xảy ra.

Hôm nay bạn viết tiếng Việt vì sắp tới bạn chắc sẽ dùng tiếng Anh nhiều. Đôi khi có những thứ rất khó chịu với vài việc nhưng bạn chắc chắn sẽ chịu khó nhiều ^^~

Tháng 8 bạn sẽ đi tập yoga lại để có sức khỏe làm việc và luyện tâm trí minh mẫn. Tháng 8 dự kiến nhiều thứ quan trọng bạn sẽ làm. Bạn sẽ cố gắng làm tốt, chăm ngoan và thông minh :))

Flu and interview tmr

Oh Gosh! Bless me!

How unfortunate I am at the moment in bed with flu while I am about to have a very important interview tomorrow morning which demands an hour on a coach and further twenty minutes on a boat to get there. 

Hic I wonder by what supernatural power I would be able to successfully survive through the interview without feeling ashamed of myself later if I couldn't make it. 

The fact that this flu seems to become my lame excuse for any failure probably occurring after the interview doesn't help me forgive myself more easily. 

My head is fucking aching =.= Honestly, I shan't be in the best form if this severe headache doesn't go away in the morning. 

Okay, no more complaints. Having had the dinner with Pho, I took five pills in hope that it would get better following day because I'm in need of good health to deal with the recruiter :(((

Life is completely unfair!!!! Anw~ 

Goodbye, Aunt!

No sooner had I arrived home than the shocking news came like a thunderbolt. My dearest aunt has passed away due to a stroke. She was a spinster who devoted her lifetime to charity activities, this family including siblings and nephews, nieces. 

Time flies and no one could predict what would come next until it occurred. Throughout my childhood, she often bought me dresses, hair pins and in the recent time, it was a pair of shoes for the Tet holiday. Sometimes she appeared as such an unendurable woman who always grumbled about something especially involved in children’s prank that also used to be mine. However, at the other time, she seemed to be such a benevolent aunt who would treat her nieces and nephews very well because I know deep down inside, she was always a good aunt as ever.

Just a few days ago, she promised to take me to open my seven charkas so that I would be able to mediate again. The promise doesn’t seem to be kept after this sudden change. As the moment I had heard the news, I burst into tears in pain because I do cherish and love my aunt for years. The person who lived with you under one roof, spent much time with you during your childhood and even shared with you a countless of bittersweet memories should be unforgettable. 

Yes, those who love me always have their ways to separate with me either by death or the distance. I am dreadfully terrified at the thought of the thin line between life and death which only occurs in the wink of an eye. 

We only realize how much someone means to us, when they are no longer with us.

Rest in peace, Aunt Thuan! I will pray for you since this moment… and I believe you shall go straight to the heaven where you belong.

With my heart,

Hal

I miss the girl...

There are a few more weeks until I quit the teacher life to look for another suitable one which provides better environment and boots my English as my wish. 

It has been months since I applied to this English centre, experienced many tests and tough training days to offically become a teacher for children as who I am at the present. 

Time flies quickly and everything has to alter in some way. Take me as an obvious example, I am no longer the same old girl who would spend hours writing entries almost daily in this blog, express her emotions freely through the words in order to let herself feel easier right away. Yes, it was that simple.

That girl was like a care-free soul with a childish mind. People would judge her. Some supposed she was pretending to be younger than her real age in order to look nicer and cuter while she seemed to be artificial in fact. She was annoying. Yet, she was completely untroubled with those kinds of negative thoughts because she was quite conscious who she was and what kind of person she would like to become.

The little Hallie has turned out to be artificial for now. People expect from her such a mature lady who would put on makeup layer, pretty dress, high heels, smile at anyone she meets and pay attention on every manner and gesture she may do. It is no longer her :) The girl would cry her heart out loud if somebody let her down and laugh out loud when she achieved into which she had been putting all her efforts.

Dear God, I am willing to trade anything for that light-hearted smile again. Yes, I'm absolutely aware of the necessity to step into this adulthood sooner or later since life is continuing even if I want to hold it back for a little while to take a breath and immerse myself in the serene world that I has created for only me.  

Be strong girl! You will be fine :) Please, take care.

Hello July

Finally, July has come for real!

This is the destined month that pulled us close together one year ago. I could not be happier to say that I and my man would almost reach the mark one year in this precious relationship. We have gone through ups and downs, through happiness and sorrow and now comes the fruit of sheer bliss washing over our two hearts as one.

Today, I begun my favourite month with a good book “Love, Rosie” by Cecelia Ahern and a cup of tea in the fresh morning. Its author is the same one with the book “PS, I love you”. Okay, I haven’t finished the book until now, thus I can’t write a review or something about the book. It is a good book, though!

It has been a long time since I curled up myself on my lovely bed reading a romantic love story, tasting something warm to feel really easy and comfortable, smiling now and then due to some descriptions in which I suddenly found myself.

I would spend whole day leaning my back against the pillow, reading a book and afterwards writing a fiction or just simply a diary. That emotional girl is still here, in me but her leisure time has seemed to be limited because of the adulthood.

Yeah, I am attempting to arrange my time for work, for relationship, for my family, for my friends and at least a few hours per day for myself to balance everything. That’s why I need books and classics as the best remedy for my soul. To nourish it, to keep it still in this chaotic world.

The first of July started in an calming and refreshing way, I hope this month will run smoothly and peaceful as the way I made it in the beginning.

Please be nice to me, July!

With love,

Hal

Dalat voyage

Having been through three awful hours on the coach back to Nha Trang, I finally got home last night. Three days Dalat city were to me like a heaven on Earth. 

The weather was chilly but rather nice with us regardless of drizzling rain. We had already made a list in details, so things became more easily when we got there. We only needed to find the streets and how to arrive in the listed destinations as soon as possible, that’s why we have successfully visited many amazing tourist spots together.

Day 1:

The coach driving me made me want to vomit, and yes I did for a while on the mountain pass leading to Dalat city. No sooner had I set my foot on the city than the freezing cold weather came and covered my already worn-out body. To my belief, I had put on a fox fur coat since I was in my hometown. 

Then we checked in and took a rest for a while before getting outside to look for a lunch.

First, we went to the Domaine de Marie church. Unfortunately, the drizzling rain made my mood so low that I didn’t want to take photos anymore. Thus, there was nothing special at the church. We headed to the Dalat train station for photo shoot. 

At night, we had Dalat pizzas and went to the night market for shopping. At this spot, we got lost each other for a few minutes because of the crowd. I almost burst into tears like a child while shuttling back and forth between the head and the end of the night market to find him. We eventually found each other and I was more than happy to say that it must have been the heartstrings which tied us together, never let us apart. Right?

And it rained again… We had warm soup as a snack for the night.

Day 2: 

Today was our 11th monthsary!!!!

We went to the Robin hill, caught a cable car to get to the Truc Lam Zen monastery and walked hand in hand along the lakes there. Tuyen Lam Lake was beyond my expectation due to its breathtakingly imposing beauty. Even the way to the lake became super duper romantic and poetic as us walking under an umbrella with many pines along the two sidelines. 

Then we came to the Xuan Huong lake for the pedalo. Haha I bought a ticket for an hour but it merely took a few minutes, we got exhausted and the sudden rain came to urge us to push pedals back to the port. That was one of the most memorable things to us. 

In the evening, Love valley was our destination in order to celebrate our monthsary. Next, we had chicken gruel and beef hot pot. The last one was having coffee at Windmill :’) sooooooooo romantic and warmmmm~

Day 3:

Ready to go back :’(

- Lam Vien square

- Train station

- Lycée Yersin

- Flower Park

- Butter Cream (I do love this cream huhuhu)

- Get on the coach back to Nha Trang

Three wonderful days were like a dream. Now it's time to wake up and get my ass back to work =.= Damn it!!!!

I miss Dalat. I miss us being as one in the city from dawn to dusk :((( I miss everything there!!!

AHHHHHHH~

Dalat waving 220616

It's my pleasure to announce that I'm leaving the town to Dalat city tomorrow morning with my man after over 15 years since the last time I went with my parents on a summer vacation when I was at the third grade. 

The memories about the city seemed blurred except the chilly grey dawn as a greeting to me in the morning back to the old days. Perhaps I was fond of the city because of the super nice weather, yeah it's absolutely freezing but it would be much better than getting through the scorching summer here in Nha Trang =.= 

This journey is for our 11th monthsary and we decided to make it more romantic and memorable in one of the most romantic cities in Vietnam. I appreciate that he was spending all day carefully making a list where to go in details. As I saw the list, I could comprehend how hard he had attempted to make me happy in a thoughtful way. 

Life is always getting easier as him being beside me like an anchor of peace. Honestly, my workload is stressing me out and I'm dreadfully worn out. No wonder he suggested this journey for our together-time and for me to relax.

Thank you, darling for everything you've done because of me :') I'm gonna pack my bag and get ready for our first journey ^^~ Can't wait to be with you on our monthsary day :*

With love,

Hal

End. Sinh viên. Tóc dài.

Hôm nay là ngày cuối cùng mình còn làm sanh ziên :)) dù đã quát tuổi rồi. 

Có một tí gì đó buồn buồn mà cũng có gì đó lại vui vui. Lớn rồi phải đi làm, kiếm tiền lo cho ba mẹ rồi gầy dựng gia đình chứ hông thể học học nữa học mãi được. 

Lần cuối cùng học bài, thuyết trình, chấm điểm.

Lần cuối cùng ai hỏi mình còn bảo mình là "sinh viên"

Lần cuối cùng cố gắng vì cái gì đó không mang tính áp lực. Thật ra thì đi làm hay đi học gì thì cũng áp lực thôi, nhưng cái áp lực đi học chỉ là điểm :)) còn đi làm thì áp lực cả con người và cả cái trách nhiệm gắn với nó nữa. Hoe hoe

Hết summer holiday 2-3 tháng các kiểu.

Hết cả giai đoạn ôn thi để ngồi luyện phim bộ rồi tới ngày vác mặt đi thi như đúng rồi. 

Hết xài hộp bút con gấu (hộp bút vẫn đầy nhóc mà cả tháng rồi ko viết chữ)

Hết viết tay. Biết đâu cũng hết thời gian gõ blog lọc cọc như này :'( Không thích đâu!

Cái blog này được mở ra từ lúc mình bước chân vào trường và đến giờ là gần tốt nghiệp rồi. Bao nhiêu cái entry chửi rủa la ó, hết khóc rồi cả vui buồn với cái trường mà mình chửi khá nặng =))) Nhưng rồi mình cũng phải học cho xong và bây giờ sắp đi rồi.

Dạo này cũng không dài hơi chửi rủa xỉ vả trẻ con về cái trường này như hồi xưa nữa. Dành hơi để dạy dỗ các bé :)) 

Ngoài lề tí là các bé dạo này khá ngoan, thương cô Hallie và thường xuyên khen cô Hallie đẹp nên cô Hallie rất thích =))) Hôm nọ lớp có trợ giảng mới, chưa gì đã kéo cô Hallie lại là hỏi "lát cô đó dạy thay cô hả, cô không dạy tụi em nữa hả?" mà cái mặt max tội :))

Thật ra hết tháng 7 mình cũng nghỉ luôn ko dạy nữa. Chả biết sao nữa. Thôi kệ.

Hôm nay đặc biệt, mình đã cut quả đầu của Song Hye Kyo trong Hậu Duệ Mặt Trời. Ngắn lắm í. 

Hơi buồn.

Mọi sự thay đổi đều đáng buồn mà.

Nhưng đẹp lắm :') siêu yêu quả tóc này :)) trẻ ra được vài tuổi heheh :p

Thế nhé, coi hài đây.

Yêu,

Hal

After Prudential interview

Today I went to an interview at Prudential insurance company regardless of my already current job. Life is getting more and more difficult to me in recent time. It stressed me out and I was lost in this world… didn’t know what to do or where I really belonged to. 

Well, it has been over one month since the last post. Writing was the best remedy for my soul because once I could possibly spread my thoughts through words, it would be much better than keep them on my mind and torture myself by those sorrows. 

Speaking of my interview today, it seemed I did a good job at answering and becoming such a cool and wise girl in front of the interviewer. Life has taught me one priceless lesson that sometimes, you have to become someone who is far from who you really are in order to be respected by others although it is not a good point at pretending to be someone else but yourself. That is called “real life”.

Your parents would teach you to become a genuine person, be frank, honest in any circumstance and never loose yourself. When you face the real life though, it will teach you another lesson and gradually transform you to an entire different person that you must have never imagined before.

As I experienced the interview today, what I said was not exactly the flow of thoughts running in my head. I must choose words and think of a clever way to deliver the kind of person that others expect from you. It is tiresome, right?! Haha c’est la vie, hal!

*phew*

Long time no write lolz My writing ain’t as good as it used to be :’) I’d better write and read again… Even I have changed a lot, yeah more mature, wise but at least, I ought to keep my old habit for nourishing my soul and remain the good parts left in me. Hey, I am still a good girl anyway. Don’t misjudge me here! This should be called “adaption” time. 

See ya,

Hal

Whatever!

Chưa có một giai đoạn nào mà bản thân mình phải trải qua vài tuần liên tiếp mà tinh thần lẫn thể chất đều down xuống mức báo động như này. Ngày nào cũng có chuyện buồn, ngày nào cũng có thứ để lo lắng, ngày nào mở mắt dậy cũng thấy toàn áp lực và mệt mỏi.

Đôi lúc cũng nghĩ than thở nhiều làm gì cũng chẳng giải quyết được, nên thôi cứ ngậm miệng mà im lặng rồi ra sao thì ra.

Mình có một cái tánh kì, đó là mình còn la còn hét còn cãi còn bực bội túm lại là còn thể hiện một cái gì đó là mình còn quan tâm. Còn nói mà cái mặt mình dửng dưng, không buồn nói, không buồn thắc mắc giải thích hay cãi gì nữa thì nghĩa là mình không còn để tâm nữa :)) và lúc đấy thì thế nào thì cũng cứ là thế đấy chứ chẳng ảnh hưởng lắm đến mình nữa.

Dạo này mọi người làm mình buồn lắm :)) Lúc nào cũng đòi hỏi mình phải thế này, phải thế kia, bắt mình hiểu cho mọi người nhưng mà chẳng ai hiểu cho mình cả. Xong rồi lại bảo mình ích kỉ, không quan tâm đến cảm nhận của ai, sống kiểu gì mà này này nọ nọ. Rồi mình cũng cười nhạt cho qua chuyện. 

Bây giờ mình sống không ích kỉ với mọi người thì thành ra mọi người đều sống ích kỉ với mình à? Và mình là đứa sống không ích kỉ quá lâu rồi, nên thôi bây giờ mình sống cho mình trước đã :) Ai muốn phật lòng hay thế nào thì xin lỗi mình cũng không còn buồn nữa. 

Đôi khi cứ cố gắng sống cho người khác nhiều quá, rồi bản thân mình lại chẳng ai nghĩ cho cả :)) Nên thôi. Whatever!

PS: Đang định nằm nhà đợi anh người yêu tối rủ đi chơi, nhưng rồi cảm thấy ở nhà hiện tại không chịu nổi với cả chắc anh người yêu cũng bận với gia đình nên rồi thôi sẵn nhỏ em rủ đi chơi nên nào thay đồ và đi :)) Trời nóng, người nào cũng nóng nhưng lòng mình thì lạnh tanh =)))

25/04/16

I suddenly feel refreshed again after watching the movie “The jungle book” with my man today. It sounds weird but when difficulties turn me down or drive me crazy, the best method for me to calm me down is spending my leisure time in hanging around with him or sticking on the double seats in a movie box to share our movie-time. Somehow, time always seems to get frozen through the duration of the movie since the whole world outside is no longer troubled to us but the scenes on screen and we do get into the movie. 

Speaking of the movie, by the way, it is a good one which is worth every penny you spend because of not only its content but also the message hidden in the final scene that almost moved me into tears.

Finally, after nearly two months of distress and tedious lesson plans, I am so glad to be certain to say that now I’m going to catch up the space for my life. I can hang out with bf, talk to him, share intimate time with him, begin to write down my thoughts, read books, learn and equip myself with what really inspires me. 

However, it is not implied that teaching kids is tedious or something, in case you get me wrong. I actually applied for the English teacher position at the first place in excitement and much enthusiasm. Within the first two weeks, I fell in love with those little cute and tiny faces looking at me and keeping say “Goodbye, teacher Hallie” which sowed the seeds of sheer happiness at the thought that I would love to become a good teacher and make them the good citizens in the future. Well, it sounds great, isn’t it?!

*sigh*

Then came other uneasy elements and even the work environment that kicked me in the butt to help me aware of who I was and what kind of person I should become to please others. It is no longer as simple as a good and honest teacher would be. The increase workload, the deadlines, the colleagues, the lack of ideas, the white nights, the pressure :) Well, I literally went out of my mind and if I couldn’t have got my bf beside me to hold me back and calm me down, I would have been mad :)) 

Seriously I was capable of working under pressure, though I would never put me in a situation that is overly detrimental to my mental state of mind unless it is indeed necessary. Especially, in the work environment that I couldn’t find myself at easy to work, I would cease to struggle. 

I perfectly comprehend the necessity of work, experience and certainly the monthly salary. The fact that I am such a weirdo in reality, it is obviously in the best form when I’m interested in something. In this case, I am ready to do my utmost!! Otherwise, oh NO! I’d rather take a nap and go to sleep right now lolz~

Yesterday was our 9th monthsary, he offered a book named “The art of calm” :’) He is really the anchor of my life :x Save me and stand with me even in the worst storm. I’m going to pore over the book right now.

Much love,

Hal