There are a few more weeks until I quit the teacher life to look for another suitable one which provides better environment and boots my English as my wish.
It has been months since I applied to this English centre, experienced many tests and tough training days to offically become a teacher for children as who I am at the present.
Time flies quickly and everything has to alter in some way. Take me as an obvious example, I am no longer the same old girl who would spend hours writing entries almost daily in this blog, express her emotions freely through the words in order to let herself feel easier right away. Yes, it was that simple.
That girl was like a care-free soul with a childish mind. People would judge her. Some supposed she was pretending to be younger than her real age in order to look nicer and cuter while she seemed to be artificial in fact. She was annoying. Yet, she was completely untroubled with those kinds of negative thoughts because she was quite conscious who she was and what kind of person she would like to become.
The little Hallie has turned out to be artificial for now. People expect from her such a mature lady who would put on makeup layer, pretty dress, high heels, smile at anyone she meets and pay attention on every manner and gesture she may do. It is no longer her :) The girl would cry her heart out loud if somebody let her down and laugh out loud when she achieved into which she had been putting all her efforts.
Dear God, I am willing to trade anything for that light-hearted smile again. Yes, I'm absolutely aware of the necessity to step into this adulthood sooner or later since life is continuing even if I want to hold it back for a little while to take a breath and immerse myself in the serene world that I has created for only me.
Be strong girl! You will be fine :) Please, take care.
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