Loved ones

My bedroom is such a well-organized space after hours with him tidying up and putting things in order yesterday :') Doing household chores together is always the best moment we share, on and off I take break, he would clutch me in a hug or tickle me that cracks me up.

The more I'm with him, the more the hole of emptiness in me gets filled with much love, concern and happiness. It is blessing to encounter and fall in love with this man. For the second time, there is someone else, rather than Ralph, capable of bringing me the sense of serenity and entire happiness, giving me more reason to believe in true love, in any other fated reunion as long as we are meant to be. Yeah, they both are Cancer men lolz~ Warmth and Tenderness :') 

Although his guards are always up when it comes to his emotions, I myself regard this behaviours show how much his love towards me and protect me from other possible negative outcomes, particularly in case that I'm frequently surrounded a huge circle of male friends for years prior to him. 

I wish this relationship could last for eternity since my love is growing day by day :') Argh.... Peace, please stay with me longer and don't force me to pay any cost for this because each time I've come close to the definition of "peace and happiness", it would definitely occur something gloomy and disappointing immediately to wash away the instant bliss that God has just granted me for a moment. 

That's why sometimes I'm afraid of being too peaceful and too happy like this... :( Sr for being overwhelmingly sensitive and vulnerable again but it's truly too happy to be true :))) It's like I've never thought I deserve to have this state of mind: I'm blissed out ='D

By the way, my bedroom previously was littered with papers and pieces of furniture since I had graduated my high school. Well, it's been years lolz~ bf must have been astonished at the first sight of my messy room and then he decided to help me clean up right away. Yeah, a shame on me!

Had I not got him, the room would have been disordered for a few more years with stuff and materials for the university entrance examination haha

Oh lah~ Just got home from a pagoda :') Today is Buddhist holiday for people to express their gratefulness and appreciation to their mother. I went to the pagoda to pray for my parents' health and wish to shorten my lifetime for increasing theirs so as to serve them at their final ages. I do love them :'(

Much love,

Hal

25/08/15

Hôm nay lại cãi nhau với bạn người yêu nên vô cùng mệt mỏi. Ngày nào cũng kình nhau và có quá nhiều mâu thuẫn như này xong mệt quá cuối cùng bảo 2 ngày nữa tốt nhất không gặp nhau không nói chuyện để khỏi phảu thế này nữa. 

Xong tối chán òm, trời lại mưa to gió lạnh nhớ người yêu lắm nhưng kệ đi. Thế là lấy truyện ra đọc, nằm đọc chút hết mưa xong rồi lại đi với đám mèo đi ăn lẩu bò cho no bụng rồi về nhà. Bây giờ thì đang nằm phè phỡn trên giường skype gọi điện nói chiện với Anne cho đã đời òi lát ih ngủ. 

Cuộc đời có mấy khi :)) Sống phải vui vẻ bạn bè thương yêu thì mới hạnh phúc. Kệ ih nhan! Còn có mấy ngày nữa là đi học rồi nên phải tận hưởng cuộc sống. Mình biết bạn người yêu thương cả quan tâm mình nhiều lắm nên mới như vậy.

Đôi khi thiết nghĩ 2 đứa cứ cãi nhau nhiều như này có khi nào sẽ không yêu nhau nữa hay không :( Những lúc như này anh có nghĩ tới em hơm?!

Hôm nay Kat cho cái quần jean cả chai tinh dầu bưởi cho đẹp tóc xinh tươi :)) Yêu đương cùng cực hí hí :')

Me & Him ~ 1 month

(his pressie: our Paris xD)

Today marks one month together in love with him :') I got a long note and a pressie from him, thus I dunno what to write in this entry for I'm overwhelmed with his love rite now hihi :))) It's better to quote here one touching paragraph from his mail :') 

"Sweetheart! It's hard for me to tell you how I feel, but falling in love with you is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me, and I've never been happier in my life. I know this feeling will last permanently. Albeit we have been getting involvement in lots of minor and major conflicts at times owning to our different personal characteristics, this does not mean my love will fade away, I will love you less or I will relinquish your hand. Actually each time we are engaged in those bad moments, a sense of tiredness covers me and I do not want to say anything vulnerable towards you. One important thing I would like pinpoint is I am really scared to see our love being irreparable or on the verge of being on the rocks. I know my selfishness about protecting you or my overreaction sometimes pissed you off, hmm...all of these spring from my true love for you, my sincere concerns and my feelings of loosing you right from our early days. Phew... maybe I was like an insane or a dim-witted boyfriend at those times. H'm...words cannot express my love for you.

Hugging you tightly, kissing you gently and squeezing your hand give me a sense of serenity and deep contentment that I always wanna stay close to you and keep these prolonged spine-timing feelings for the rest of my life. I hope we will be more harmonious and gradually recede the degree of rows in the imminent periods of time because I do love you and you are the One in my heart and my everlasting company to the end of this road."

How cheesy it was! Haha touché :)) 

Much love,

Hal

PS: Đọc văn của bf mình tự nhiên thấy tự ti lạ thường :((((

Why I wanna leave?!

I am feeling a bit pessimistic as summer is approaching an end in a few days, exactly 8 days on. Neither energy nor enthusiasm runs into me at the thought of coming back to that shitty school since I have not been much fond of it for intense hatred within over three years. My current bf is the only highlight of the whole doom atmosphere I have to bear at the school.

There are plenty of contentious issues between both of us in recent time, triggering cold wars and dead silence that is stressfully tiresome and depressing to me. The more we are together, the more I find out dissent and entire different perceptions of life at minds. Vietnamese education system for instance was compared to trash by me, leading to his vehement anger due to the fact that his parents are teachers and my harassing words seem offensive to them as well as other good teachers in my friendlist on Facebook. 

What’s more, I perpetually emphasise how much I am eager to flee to settle in a country belonging to the Northern Europe subsequent to enduring ages in tears and deeply resent in this country and certainly for my next generations’ sake. In a mean while, he merely wishes to remain his living here, dedicating his efforts and ability to the fatherland. 

Excuse me, don’t lambaste my patriotism :) My native Vietnam used to be one of the most precious thing of which I am perfectly proud when talking to foreigners about my country, drawing in them good impression about not only Vietnamese local people but also beautiful cultures scattered along the destinations within the country. However, “flowers” I shower mean nothing compared with “shits” others make. From scary robbery, homicide, internal organ trade to corruptive ministry of education and training and other matters-which-you-must-not-mention in public or you’d remain in custody for life :) 

To be honest, I am not a saint. Although I have a deep love for my country where all the lovely childhood memories belong, most my best friends are leaving and not longer looking forward to the day of comeback. Have you ever wondered why Vietnamese overseas students never hope to return to develop their motherland regardless of their massive patriotism? Because they are horrified and indeed depressed about the future of Vietnam, clearly predicting the vision of corruption going from bad to worse over a few years :) 

I am so sorry for drawing the picture with those stark facts in details but it is reality and that you turn your face away and ignore doesn’t change anything. When you are on the streets, you must heighten your vigilance for scary inevitable robberies that may cost your life. The society becomes a hunger game where only villains exist. I am dreadfully scared to dead!

Well, whatever. Hopefully my bf and I will make it square tomorrow because I’m missing now. It’s been a while since I’ve been in a relationship with him, there are no more frequent updated posts as usual. My world seems to shuffle around him :’) even my leisure time for chit chats with besties and for favourite habits such as writing blog, reading book, watching movies is also cut off heaps *frown*

I am going to be a senior within 8 days with a mood of melancholy for the beginning of fresh semester. Aha the final year as a student. Hallie, fighting!!!!

*sigh* Perhaps, no call tonight with him *frown again*

Love,

Hal

Nhật kí mấy ngày ốm!

Từ hôm bữa đến giờ vẫn ốm la liệt mà vẫn chưa khỏi gì cả. Sáng hôm qua bf sang chở đi ăn sáng rồi ngồi quán cafe nói chuyện với nhau xong về nhà, bảo mua thuốc cho mình nhưng cứ bướng bỉnh không chịu do mình ghét thuốc. Xong tối đi cafe Mèo với Kat và đồng bọn, giấu bf vì sợ bản lo lắng nhiều.

Cuối cùng tối bf gọi điện nc thì hoá ra bf cũng biết là mình dù ốm vẫn nhổng đi chơi với đám mèo :') Nhưng buồn lắm bf bị ốm mất tiêu (chắc lo mình lây rồi =.= )...

Hôm qua tặng cho bf bình uống nước mình đặt, khá là dễ thương :)) Đang vui vẻ cuối cùng lại cãi nhau :)) Dạo này tần suất cãi vãi hơi bị nhiều í nhỉ, đến mức bây giờ bf có giận mình cũng chẳng buồn pm hỏi như nào như nào luôn =))) 

Hông phải mình hông yêu bf như nào nhưng mà kiểu đang ốm, mệt quá nên chỉ muốn ngủ rồi chẳng bận tâm gì với lại bf cứ kiểu trẻ con với mình quá không chịu được. Ngốc xít! Yêu mình nhưng lại cứ cảm thấy insecure đủ thứ cả lên :p Nên thấy dễ thương chứ không giận lâu được haha 

Vâng và hôm nay em vẫn ốm, thậm chí ho còn nhiều hơn 2 ngày trước dù không còn nhức đầu nữa nhưng chuyển qua thể loại ho liên hoàn như này cũng không khá hơn tí nào đâu :'( 

Hi vọng mai khoẻ :( Sắp đi học lại rồi nên thật sự mình đang cảm thấy rất chán :((((

Better on my own

I have caught a chill and suffered the dreadful combination of nasal congestion and a splitting headache since yesterday, causing me feel pretty much uneasy and exhausted but my bf still seems to get pissed off and untroubled of talking to ask if I am all right today.

Since we are in a relationship, I figure I wouldn't have written anything on the blog for he must be the one that I'll come as things go wrong in my life, unfortunately I am eventually on my own fighting for disordered emotions, troubles and even sickness as usual. 

The atmosphere between us was awfully tense last night after a serious quarrel, I felt so headache that I could possibly answer nothing but remaining my silence, bidding him good night and hanging up the phone. If only he could text me a message this morning for my current health assurance :)

There is no difference between me before and after in a relationship :)) How bitter it is! I'm quite disappointed and hopeless at awaiting a person who would take care of me, comfort me and always concern me as his whole world. I'd rather learn how to stand on my own feet, love and treat myself the best because none of people but parents will unconditionally love me no matter what. 

My throat is sore now and nose is stuffed up...Br, this state is bloody unpleasant *frown* I gotta take a rest rite now for recovering as soon as possible. 

Gosh, bless me!

Hal

Sat, August 15, 15

The new semester is going to begin at the end of this month while I am still such a lazy ass and coach potato by the way because I have got so used to the habit of sticking my ass around the house all day for learning, reading, talking to my friends and outings on and off with either my friends or boyfriend. 

Honestly I wish I could be able to maintain the summer break as long as possible in order to use my time in an effective way of studying instead of bringing my ass to school and suffering like crazy with a bunch of bullshits from absurd lecturers. Gosh!

Today I participated in a "Wedding fair" at Michelia hotel of which the theme is love by the ocean :') I am indeed fond of romantic things, particularly which involved in wedding stuff like snowy bridal gowns and unique ideas hihi I wrote a note on the Lovebyte app for him to read my thoughts on the day, therefore it's quite weird to type them down again here :')

We meant to create a blog for both of us on Internet to save our memories together :') I miss him like crazy after three days for not hanging out with him :((( Argh...

*sigh* I have no motive to get ready for the school :((( I hate that university >.< I just wanna take off to Western life and settle down there ahaaaaaaaa~

"A is revealed"

As for the five-year time jump I have been waiting for, it finally came to the episode of "Pretty little liars" which eventually revealed who "A" is and rendered the whole stories through the series although the final scene still opened another plot twist with Alison's last name being Rollins and someone coming after her, announced by the Girls.

To my dismay, the purpose of torturing the Girls for years was absurd and weird because I had expected there was some interesting and deep reasons within the truth, yet the fact that Cece was pissed off for the Girls' delight as Ali had gone triggered the game. Cece manipulated the Girls, including Alison, and treated them as her own dolls for the whole time due to that fucking silly motive?! Seriously? 

By the way, what the fucking gender of the big A also matters much to me. The young A was a guy named Charles, experiencing years in a mental institution with such a weird interest in dressing like a girl and then after an escape, for some unknown points, the mature A emerged as Charlotte under the appearance of a girl whose name was shortened as Cece @.@ What should I talk about her/him/whatever? =.="

Does A ever visit Thailand for the transgender issues? I wonder! Well, the truth doesn't satisfy me in the least for I have been awaiting another thrilling and interesting mystery hidden in the long-run. Damn it, my five years turns out to be wasted for this lame consequence huh?!

I'm listening to Bustle's PPL Podcast in order to gain more clues about the TV series on Soundcloud. The episode 11 season 6 will be aired around the first month of next year. I wonder if I should follow the show further for the answer "who is A" sucked to me, indeed. What's the point of making the season 7? I dunno :(((

My mind is a mess now. Yes, Cece is A and he/she *what the hell the person is* plays the game just because of getting addicted to the feeling of thrill while toying and torturing mentally and physically with those Girls regarding as dolls, and to get attention from the most favourite one - Alison.

Okay, I'm done with the show!

Bye,

Hal

Gimbap của bạn Hal :3

Hôm nay sang khách bạn của Kat cùng nhau làm Gimbap, trừa một phần ra cho bạn người yêu với cả maman xong rồi cứ thế mà ăn...ăn no tới mức muốn lăn đùng ra luôn. Từ hôm nay tới vài tháng sau chắc chẳng dám động vào seaweed nữa cho xem :))

Sáng nay vừa đăng cái entry về ngày hôm qua, xong onl lên lovebytes thấy bạn người yêu viết một cái note cho mình mà "tình" gì đâu xong tự nhiên cảm động chả biết nói làm sao. Buổi chiều có mang Gimbap sang nhà cho bạn người yêu, gặp nhau có một tí mà kiểu phải kìm chế kinh khủng mới ko ôm một phát rồi mới về =))) Thương cả nhớ bạn người yêu nhiều kinh khủng ih~

Đôi khi cảm giác mọi thứ cứ như thế này là đủ, là hạnh phúc rồi. Mình chỉ ước sao mọi chuyện có thể bình thường mãi thì đã là hạnh phúc rồi. Có ba mẹ yêu thương mình nhiều, có bạn người yêu luôn chiều chuộng mình, có bạn Miu xinh xắn dễ thương, có 3 con bạn thân dù ở xa nhưng cũng hay chat với mình và quan tâm mình, có thằng bạn thân tít vùng trời kia luôn nhớ nhung mình, có ông anh hai dù có bận rộn thế nào lâu lâu vẫn bảo "Nhớ con quỷ này quá đi" :)

Lần đầu tiên định nghĩa "hạnh phúc" của mình lại đơn giản và bình thường đến vậy. Với mình thế này là đủ :) Dạo này toàn những thứ hạnh phúc, huhu hạnh phúc quá đi :((((

Vui lắm,

Hal

PS: Lâu lắm rồi hông làm lại món này, có hơi mất công một tẹo nhưng ăn cho đã đời luôn với cả sẵn mang cho bạn người yêu được ăn ké hí hí :)) Má cũng bảo ngon =)))

8/8/15

Yesterday was the eight of August (8/8) which reminded me of “infinity times infinity” symbol in my most favourite TV series “Revenge”, meaning forever and always :x

My boyfriend picked me up in the morning to have thick noodles together and then drop by Tiny cafeteria for a while. We talked about various things involving in our spoiled stories back to the rebellious youth lolz~ It was pretty cosy and nice to have ice blended matcha with him, playing his fingers and pinching his chubby cheeks every now and then to fondle him like a puppy haha 

In the evening, he took me to the big C supermarket with bestie Kat and her mommy :)) Later, I had him and Kat drinking smoothie at a refreshment bar nearby her house. It was blissful to get two “lovers” both with me simultaneously on the very day hihu 

Prior to bedtime, I called bf to say goodnight but we did have a conversation lasting for almost an hour. Eventually I demanded him to listen to fairy tales before falling asleep because his English voice perpetually sounds like a narrator for animated movies =))) I wonder how further he would be able to indulge me with my unreasonable requests, yet for his unlimited and unconditional love towards me, I believe that it may become infinite xD 

He told me that no matter what the future might hold, please hold his hand this tight and overcome the storm together because he did love me :) Well, I love him too :’) The feeling of being wrapped in his warm arm is like the feeling of heaven on Earth Tadah~ Thanks for making me feel the love once again...the thing I thought that I had already lost forever :)

Love,

Hal

06/08/15

Okay, my excuse for another hiatus :') Virtually recent nights are all devoted to dates with either my boyfriend or Kat, otherwise talking to best male friends via skype or viber. Writing is no longer my daily habit as it used to be when I was single because there is someone for me patiently listening to everything about my life, feeling the dept of my emotions and also becoming the source of my happiness always at the present which triggers my loss of motive for pouring my thoughts out on blog.

Last night, we in hands walked along on the beach, discussing whether the idea of leaving this country to settle down in Europe still remained in my mind once I had already got someone I loved that was him. I could possibly feel the urge to clasp my fingers into his tightly to let him know that I would never wish to leave him behind, chasing my dream and just keeping on the path I had chosen in selfishness without the least notions of how much his love was for me. Yet silence was my answer inasmuch as I barely figured out which was more important to me at that time.

It has been a freaking long journey of my lifetime waiting for a miracle that has its own way incredibly to kick my ass to Europe since I'm longing for the time so long until I encounter him and happen to love the man this much. A part of me always yearns for the day I achieve my long-life dream while another runs straight to him which is holding me back into his arm, giving me every right reason to pursue the genuine value of life that is happiness existing merely around him. 

The more I'm with him, the more my love grows in an unpredictable way although most of the time together we usually stay quiet with me being hold in his warm embrace on the sand, feeling the peace very near :') Each time when my moods turn blue and depressing, things would become relived and balanced with mere a little hug from him. Well, so cheesy ah~

By the way, I'm on the first pages of the book "The Kite Runner" by Khaled Hosseini. The book was quite appeal to me at first due to the plot regarding childhood memories of the author (?). After the book "How to kill a mocking bird", I tend to prefer stories referring to childhood to romance genre for I have already possessed a love story for my own :)

Honestly there is nothing new or special to update lately out of the fact that I'm blissfully in love with a nice guy and having good friends who are always there for me when I'm in need. I'm more than enough :x Nothing to complain or feel low lolz~ 

Just bought a lip balm labello and a pair of slip-on shoes today :)) My budget is running out but I'd better enjoy this life to the fullest rather than saving up money until the day I pass away without spending a penny in my pocket. It would suck!

That's all for today. Time to have a night read now!

Love,

Hal

Cãi nhau nhảm nhí :(

Mở đầu tháng 8 bằng một cuộc cãi vã với anh người yêu vì cái beloved male friendship circle của mình quá bự. Thật sự thì không hẳn là cãi vã vì anh người yêu chẳng mắng gì mình, đơn giản là im lặng với cả chỉ có mình là gào thét làm đủ trò thôi. 

Xong buổi tối mới nói chuyện với nhau thì mới biết anh người yêu cả ngày buồn mình tới mức chả ăn uống gì... Tâm trạng không tốt xong kiểu đủ thứ. Nói chung là thương anh người yêu của mình lắm :(

Mình cả ngày có buồn thật, buồn nhiều nhưng vẫn ăn uống đầy đủ tốt lành :') Buổi chiều còn nhởn sang chỗ Kat ngồi tâm sự, nói chuyện giỡn hớt vui vẻ các kiểu như chẳng có gì xảy ra. 

Lúc nào cũng có cảm giác là anh người yêu yêu cả thương mình nhiều hơn mình yêu anh í. Đôi khi mình kiểu không để ý, nói chung là trẻ con vô tâm với cả mình cũng chẳng phải kiểu biết là những lúc mình đùa giỡn với những người khác lại khiến anh người yêu không thoải mái như vậy.

Mọi chuyện đã ổn rồi. Mình sau này cũng sẽ cố gắng ngoan hơn để không làm bạn người yêu buồn phiền gì vì mình nữa =))) Tháng 8 dễ thương :x xém nữa lại không vui :*

Hello August!!!

Yêu,

Hal