Mudbath w Ellie

(Hallie & Ellie)

Haha I bought a couple of pastel blue and white stripe bandeau bikini sets with Ellie today for mudbath at Thap Ba hotspring center to spend the weekend just relaxing and enjoying. It was the first time I'd taken on a two-piece swimsuit lolz~ How embarrassed of me to have the swimsuit while I never possess such a hot bod like most of celebrities on TV series. A perfect abdomen is the only part that makes me most confident about out of the whole body ha ha~ 

Surprisingly, I was mistaken for a Korean or Chinese tourist again :)) Almost staff I encountered on the way from mudbath to hot mineral water pool, they often exchanged information with us by their little English while we were rather startled for not comprehending the reason why they spoke English to us instead of Vietnamese. And when we elaborated our true identities, a men also asked if we were overseas Vietnamese -_- What's on Earth!

Is this because only foreigners wearing two-piece swimsuit and sunglasses? We did the same then they thought we were tourists, didn't they? I must admit that virtually everyone born in Nha Trang as local people rarely has two-piece bikini either on the beach or in public pools due to their stereotype saying that a traditional Vietnamese woman must always be in an unobstrusive way all the time, particularly in clothes. 

Well, I'm honestly such a traditional Asian woman but more than willing to open new ideas from European conception of how a modern woman may power her own life instead of being resigned. Ha~ I would like to make a combination of Asia and Europe to create someone halicious that is me lol Just kidding!

I only have a few days left of liberty before the imminent months of work and study. The restaurant to which I'm applying is about to launched at the beginning of March with an attractive salary. A friend introduced me to work at the restaurant as a part-time job since I desire to increase my family expense so as to weight down the burden on parents. Beyond all, I'm doing to prove Willian that I'm already mature and getting to know how to take care of myself without him. Excuse me, the slightest mention of anything relative to him always seems to overpower me in instant for some reason and I guess that all of my future plans always include him even though the fact that we're parted that's true!

Out of the point again. Sorry! All in all, today was nice enough to feel cheerful and delighted. Thanks, Ellie!

With love,

xoxo

Hal

A meeting of minds

Long as they were, the passing seven years were presumably the certain excuse for a fully grow-up person to elaborate his alteration whether or not in a good way. Virtually every former friend since my secondary school and even high school has come to the points where mark their maturity by not only their perception but also adulthood stuff. 

Today I had an appointment with a close secondary-school friend to whom I have not spoken in ages. For the moment she caught me, she immediately posed the same statement which I had heard at times back then from others. That how skinny I am. That how young I look after years as if my outward appearance has never changed in the least. That how childish I am. That I am still Hallie whom they once knew at secondary school. That they're glad for having me as the former little shool girl who has simplicity and possitive thoughts. 

Me in silence for concentration on her continuously monologue regarding her friends, ex boyfriend and campus life was my condition during the meeting, but I was pleased to listen to her stories rather than start our conversation by my lamentation. She told me that she was under the impression that we were as close as how we'd be on days back to our secondary school, becoming naive pupils whose daily dialogues were primarily about friends around us, study stuff or simply the content of a book or of a movie that we had watched on the TV previous night. To me, it was cute and plain things that I'm conscious of how difficult to rewind the tape of those memorable moments due to the fact that most of my friends nowadays have been reformed into pragmatism and more complicated conception of life.

The same goes to me. I personally also found myself living in the gone days of childhood while talking to her. Perhaps it was because we shared the same points of view and basically were closest friends, we must have been compatible in some ways. No monetary subjects. No complex relationships. No jobs. We merely retold about best friends, exchanged light-hearted memories occurring in our lives during those years and even discussed Zodiac stuff lolz~ the subjects that all of other current friends has no more mentioned. To them, it makes no sense to talk about issues rather than career, finance, love affairs and how instable the society and surrounding relationships engaged in their lives. Well, but I may find some vital sense to discuss immature subjects with her since we're living to enjoy this life not to suffocate ourselves by stressful elements in order to upgrade our levels to the point that majority of people out there are pursuing. It's indeed frustrating!

Thanks to her, I'm aware of the fact not everybody has changed in a not-congenial-for me way. Honestly, she has too changed. More mature. More serious. More straightforward. But still being the classmate I once knew :) I love it! :x 

*phew* what a long note! I'mma to write essay for Johnny right now ~ His deadline is coming on the way ha ha 

Nice week-end everyone and btw, Happy Polar Bear Day!!!!

Another good new, I'm going to have the mud bath tmr afternoon with my friend since she's got a couple of V.I.P tickets so asked me to go with her =))) What a fortune! ha ha merci merci....

Off to write essay now :')

Bye

Hal

25/02/15

Anne and I consulted a fortune-teller this morning on the subject of career, health and love. Yeah, girly stories always! 

According to the fortune-teller, I'm still into Willian and seem to hardly get him out of my mind no matter how much I feign a sense of detachment before others and even lie to myself that he is none of my business for now. We are likely bound by an invisible heartstrings that it's quite difficult to get over completely. Maybe it's a silent separation without certain time, yet like a flame stamped out would blaze up again as a whirlwind comes and fans the burnt ashes away, the flame of love in my heart still keeps smouldering...how dumb I am! :)) 

We after went to Dam market for shopping within hours. I got myself a super cute bear shaped travel pillow, in addition to the great bear collection that I've possessed so far, and a tight red crop-top for the tmr Yoga class. 

Tet's over and I'm about to get back to work and study. The most hateful thing is returning to the shietty university which lets me down all the time for greeting hypocrites and evil ones at school with big smiles and pleasing attitudes. I'm sick of doing it but must deal with them professionally for the "surviving" purpose. What a "little society" minimized surrounding me in the uni -_-  Ma vie est une grande merde!!!

*sigh* that's all for today. I'm not in a good mood for blogging :( Gotta hang out w Anne to have flans and go around the beach to take some fresh air!

Bye!

HaL

Photoshoot at Stone Church

With the severe lack of sleep last night, I went for the photoshoot at Stone Church together with Tammy this morning in a dizzy and drowsy mood after taking about mere four hours of sleep due to the fact that I had burned my night in order to both write an essay for a friend in the states and talk to another friend in UK for his experience after a mugging. 

Problems simultaneously flowed to me as a flood washing away any smart neuron left in my brain at that time. Anyway, I learned to deal with them despite staying up until 4 am.

Speaking of the photoshoot this morning, we encountered several interesting tourists who deliberately took our furtive photographs while we were busy posing for our own photos and capturing some scenes of the church. By chance I was aware of a couple of Chinese tourists having our furtive photographs taken, the girl exchanged a bright smile with me and she then came to ask if his brother (or boyfriend? I dunno) could take us a few photos by their digital DSLR and they would send those photos to us via email later :)) 

We were speechless for having no idea to figure out what was the point of others' attention as we were just one among many people there taking photos. Having been taken may photos, we and they had a little talk about something nice around our city and exchanged email addresses. More surprisingly, they signed up Facebook accounts...you know, in China they don't used Facebook but what they did makes me touched for we are the only two ones in their friendlist lolz~ What a marvelous encounter!

Okay, my brother is falling in love with a Vietnamese girl and has lately been telling me his stories in all excitement and confusion that I have seen him in such state of mind for the first time. Well, my hot-boy brother has ended up desperately chasing a girl. I believe he is seriously in love for now, thus I'm glad that he's made it after countless instant relationships which led him to nowhere =.= Hope he will make this one last long...*sigh*

All of my close friends and best brothers have settled for either their love affairs or marriages, except me. They are pretty anxious about me for being alone so long, but I'm fine with this decision because I'd rather stay single than force myself endure more pains from heart :) 

Today is 23rd and nothing bad occurred at all :p

Tet holiday has already gone! Time back to work :3

Peace,

Hal

Mồng 2 Tết

Mới vừa đi chơi với Tammy về...

Hôm nay mồng 2 Tết nguyên buổi sáng lăn đùng ra nằm ngủ quay nướng đến gần 9h30 sáng mới thức dậy. Sau đó ăn mì gói với ba rồi onl lên học tiếng Pháp rồi nhăn nhở chat chit chụt choẹt với ông anh mình, Danielle và Kay Béo một lát. 

Buổi chiều mát mẻ xinh tươi gặp gỡ hẹn hò với anh James vì cũng dễ đến cả mấy tháng anh em mình mới gặp được nhau. Ngồi nói tiếng Pháp mà buồn cười kiểu cứ bí từ là automatically chuyển sang tiếng Anh ngay. Thật sự tiếng Pháp mình từ vụng rất kém, nói mà phải suy nghĩ nhiều rồi còn cả bị vấn đề về nghe nữa nên có hơi buồn cười =))) Xong rồi mình được lì xì :')

Tối thì mặc váy xinh đẹp mà Tammy cho mình trước Tết í. 2 đứa đi lên Nha Trang Center chụp ảnh đầu năm rồi cùng đi ăn bánh căng, uống sinh tố các kiểu. Bỗng dưng nó lại lì xì cho mình =))) Mình chẳng hiểu vì sao nữa nhưng mà cũng thấy dễ thương chết được.

Năm nay già đầu cả rồi, chẳng ai lì xì cho mình nữa nên tự nhiên được thương thế này thấy vô cùng cảm động í. 

Hết mồng 2..Tết là như thế này đây! Haiz...bây giờ nằm chat với Cherry một lát rồi ngủ và mai là ngày cuối của Tết. Vèo vèo thế là mình ngày càng già đi mà trông đi trông lại vẫn chưa làm gì được :)

Chả trách sư phụ gần đây lo lắng cứ nhắc nhở mình mãi :(

Mồng 1 tết

Hôm qua thức đến gần 3h sáng mới ngủ nên sáng nay dậy sớm để đi tảo mộ mà đầu óc không thể nào minh mẫn nổi, ngồi trên xe mắt cứ lim dim kiểu ong ong hết cả đầu. 

Xong rồi khoảng trưa mới về đến nhà ăn uống một tí rồi online chat với anh mình hơn một tiếng sau đấy anh mình ngủ tối còn mình nằm vật ra ngủ trưa một giấc đến chiều.

Lịch trình buổi chiều là về nhà ngoại chúc tết ông bà cô dì cậu mợ các thể loại theo nghĩa vụ. Sau đấy về nhà đi chùa với Anne rồi kết thúc mồng 1 kiệt sức muốn xỉu!

Năm nay chắc mình lớn rồi, già mất rồi nên thấy Tết cũng chẳng vui vẻ náo nức như xưa nữa. Hoặc có khi là do cuộc sống bây giờ không còn chất lượng được như xưa nữa chứ không phải do mình lớn nên suy nghĩ khác.

Mấy đứa cháu mình bây giờ chắc chẳng bao giờ biết đến cái cảnh trước Tết mấy đứa nhỏ trong nhà sẽ cùng nhau hái lá cây mai. Hồi bé năm nào trước Tết mình cũng mấy anh chị em họ lặt lá cho ba cây mai trước nhà. Người thì bắt ghế đứng lặt, còn mình thì trèo cây lặt lá...vui cực. 

Giao thừa cả nhà cùng nhau đốt pháo "lén" vì thời đấy có lệnh cấm đốt pháo mà. Sau đấy thì mồng 1 như hôm nay nhà mình sẽ ngập tràn hoa mai vàng trước cổng. Mình sẽ lon ton mặc đồ thật đẹp chúc Tết mọi người trong nhà và nhận rất nhiều tiền lì xì. Tối tối cả nhà sẽ cùng nhau đánh bài ăn tiền...

Bây giờ thì những cây mai vẫn ở đó, nhưng cũng không còn ra hoa nữa mà cũng chẳng ai buồn lặt lá nữa. Vẫn mọi người trong gia đình đó nhưng Tết cũng chẳng vui và cười nhiều như xưa nữa. 

Mình không biết những đứa cháu mình có vẫn cảm thấy vui vì Tết như mình ngày xưa không, có thể chúng nó vẫn thấy Tết vui theo cách riêng của chúng nó. Nhưng những cái Tết vui vẻ như hồi bé mình đã trải qua thì đảm bảo chúng nó sẽ không bao giờ có được nữa :)

Ai rồi cũng khác!

Mới mồng một mà suy nghĩ nhiều quá :')

Yêu,

Hal

Resolutions 2015

Unlike other years in an excited anticipation of the New Year on the beach with my dear gang by the spectacular fireworks performance, I'm writing the note of resolutions at the New Year's Eve 2015 at home on my own and about to have a tight sleep after completing it. 

Without further ado, here is what I need to do:

1. Take off the cloak of a big child to put on the coat of a genuine mature lady! It is not halicious at all of remaining the former thinking as long as immature attitudes towards life and others. A transformation is a must to better the quality of my life for good.

2. Live up to the promises to sifu Li! Success in fluency in English and French is the first thing I must ensure. Another one is forming a solid bod and maintain good health because of "A healthy mind in a healthy body".

3. Parlez Francais! I find it dreadfully difficult to speak French since it is an uncommon language at my local and even on social media. Fortunately, I still keep in touch with Micheal and Kien so that helps with the written a bit. In actuality, I am unable to keep a blog in French like this one due to my very horrible inefficient and limited French. I am attempting to enrich my French vocab. little by little with the hope of fluency in spoken French someday. In the short term, chatting in French is beneficial to me for now. Keep move on!

4. Let go of needless drama and those who create it! Life is too short to spend time with people who suck the happiness out of me.

5. Store positive thoughts and cease lamentations to upgrade my mind to the higher level beyond other general ones to touch the true serenity and paradise within my heart.

6. Get rid of myopic glasses for all eternity! I've been practicing vision therapies in order to look at everything by my bare eyes regardless of the high degree of myopia, in addition to oriental medicines. *sigh* I wish to heal my near-sighted eyes as soon as possible :'(

7. Read books and newspaper! I obviously favour English novels and also enjoy writing in this language. However, I seriously lack of enthusiasm and patience for self help genre of books or updated information around the world on newspaper :') I usually devote my time to fiction genre of books instead because it's remarkably stimulating to me and has my imagination fly up higher and further from the ruthless reality from which I desire to run away. Anyway, this year I'm going to try reading some self help books so as to not only reform my thoughts in a good way but also improve my own life stuck sometimes for unnecessary dramas that I created. Besides, I would like to follow a reliable newspaper everyday to update my mind with the latest alternation in the world so that prevents me from infantilism and the backwardness. Knowledge is power!

8. Set a strict boundary for leisure time wandering on Facebook, watching YouTube channels or following freaking-long episodes of a TV series from dawn to dusk. Sifu complained me for an hour ago before the moment of New Year's Eve to remind me of how much I was wasting my time for crap.

9. Smile more and more each day! Someone said "Smiles are the best medicines in the world" to encourage me smile away sorrows and worries that were out of my control. Take positive energy from the universe and make my life happy. Happiness is a choice, not a goal of life :)

10. Target Ielts 6.5 ~ 7! Well, I have no ideal where I presently stand on the band of Ielts scores but all I can possibly do is making endless efforts to achieve the goal. That's what I'm capable of!

A set of 10 things for resolutions 2015 sounds transparent, easy and simple for me to follow on the total fresh run. You know, easier said than done, though. I wonder when the set of 10 things would become blurrier as the year throws its fist at me.

Bonne anneé 2015 tout le monde! Que vos souhaits se réalisent dans le nouvel an lunaire qu'il est la fête traditionnelle dans mon pays et est célébrée chaque année avec beaucoup de ferveur ='D

(the fireworks performance tonight in Nha Trang city- 2015)

Bisous

xoxo

Hallie

Love and liars

Is his love for me that shallow? :)) He said that he would be waiting for me and patient with me no matter how many times I refused to love him back. His promise to love me whatever was just a thin line of sweet words that any man in the world has done to me :3

It was not out of my prediction lol He is just one of them - those men who are interested in chasing, conquering the heart of a girl and flirting with a mass of airy promises and pretentiousness. Once he failed to get her approval, he became aggressive and blame on her for narcissism :') 

Whatever! It doesn't matter to me at all...

I just wonder whether or not there is such mr.Right for me out there rather than those kinds of men surrounding me. At first they comes with a burning heart with passion of love like a flame, gets determined to conquer my heart and tries to prove their truly-deeply-and-madly love for me as if they are willing to sacrifice their lives for my sake. Promises following serious vows. Then they withdraw their efforts, turn their backs on me and even despite me as soon as they find no signal of approval from me :') 

Is this something they call "love"? Is this the kind of "unrequited love" they often remind me? Is this how they are attempting to prove me wrong since I don't believe in "true love"? 

They are not patient enough with me...

They don't love me enough to remain their position and figure out who I really am...

All they need is just an instant relationship, don't they? An easy-come-easy-go relationship seems common and so freaking simple to make them get out of the state of loneliness. Some short conversations, a few times of dates with me are likely sufficient for them to ensure their love :)) 

They don't know me at all. They don't understand the least of me, either! How come they say the word that easily? 

Ha ha~

I'm such an unattainable goal for men which makes me more attractive, mysterious and worth their chasing. Love is that much shallow and easy :) Well, it is genuinely a big illusion for someone who trusts it. I personally have no faith in that kind of thing. Never!

Goodbye, another hunter :) Who's next?!

The last days of the lunar year 2014

Dec 26th:

I caught a bus to Lương Sơn and remain my habitation at Danielle's house for a few day. My Valentine turned out to be more interesting and delightful than I had expected previous days. For God's sake, I barely remembered that day was Valentine which was supposed to be the 6th anniversary of the instant long distance relationship causing me a lot of grieves and regrets. Magically, I could forget the day and get through it more easily somehow...perhaps thanks to spending the whole day at my dear friend and a incredibly hilarious conversation with my brother on facebook. They were genuinely the best medicine in the world to heal the pains he had left in me little by little by cracking me up and distracting me with a ton of other appealing subjects lolz~

Dec 27th:

Danielle drove me back to Nha Trang today for hanging out with some friends. Since the termination of our party was rather late, she decided to get over-night at my place. 

Dec 28th:

This morning Tammy called for me to visit her house :') She is one of the best female friends I've ever had. The one who is willing to do anything for me, who usually buys me dresses for no reasons, who confides in me various stories about her life which she barely does to others, who often reprimands me for her intense anxiety over me being acutely naive and easily mistreated by people. Comprehending her unconditional love towards me, I'm grateful to her deeply. You know, she offered me a new dress today and I wondered what it was for again =)) 

My house celebrated the New Year's Eve party tonight with an invitation to my friends. Anne came to have the meal with me :') We talked lot about our own stories for long-time-no-see-each-other reunion. 

Here is the plan for a final double days of this year:

Dec 29th:

Cleanse my room, tidy up living room, washing blankets and clothes, making my nails, cutting my hair blah blah blah~ then have a party at my grandparents' in the evening.

Dec 30th:

The New Year's Eve party at Anne's and get ready for the firework performance on the beach with her and some other friends. Be present at home around 01:00 am to arrive in a pagoda with maman and pray for a good health and prosperity in the new year.

That Tet is approaching means Tet is passing by :)) It's flying quickly like an arrow!! Now I believe that time can change everything, particularly people's minds. I'm not astonished and not disappointed either because I have learned how to depend my emotions and happiness on nobody :) I'm really okay on my own!

The worst Tet ever,

Hal

Good news on Friday 13rd (25 Tet)

Papa m'a offert un très jolis lunettes de soleil blanches :)) nous sommes allés à un supermarché pour faire les courses. Alors, il m'a achéte les lunettes de soleil avec la crème glacée vanille. Papa est souvent le meilleur père au monde :') Je l'aime bcp!

My brother signed a very significant contract in the previous morning (his timezone) and immediately sent me a message around oo:o1 am (my timezone)  for announcing me the good news with a promise of a larger present for me as his homecoming to Vietnam. I'm glad that he made it and quite happy for his promotion :')  I never expect much from him since gifts mean nothing without his presence right here beside me when I'm in need. You know, our paths may change as life goes along but the bond between us remains ever strong. Sometimes I wish he could be my brother by birth :3 he he~

I've lately chatted to Michel in French :)) At the first stage I often cheated on him by using Google translation because it took me a huge amount of time looking up on dictionary since my French vocabulary is seriously limited and I don't use French as much frequently as English :( For some reasons, he figured it out and scolded me in dismay for his purpose of aiding me in my improvement turned out to be a waste of time. I did apologise and make up for my mistakes lolz~ I'm extremely patient to reply each message no matter how many minutes for a message I may spend! I believe it's worth! :)) My speaking and writing skills are getting better and better everyday. Well, to be honest, I'm not quite confident in French like when I use English. I must say English is the most comfortable language that I've ever experienced. Even in Vietnamese, I often meet some troubles to deal with it...yes, my mother tongue itself!

The scores of my final subjects were revealed :) Out of my expectation, it was sufficient for me to gain the certificate of excellent student in this semester with the scholarship of my university. Ha ha I don't take pride in this success in the least because all I desire is the money of scholarship. I personally despise this school, thus never feel proud of being a student of it :) Sorry for my bitter words, but I don't exaggerate anything here!

Annie is returning to Vietnam in May :') There is a big sale off in states right now, so I asked her to buy me some skin care products and sunscreen, by the way take many free samples back for me as well =))) Can't wait to meet her :3

That's all for the news lolz~ Gotta watch TV series after taking a shower!

Bon week-end, 

xoxo

Hal

PS: buồn cười lắm =))) Hôm nay Canada âm 40 độ thế là mình đã dụ khị ông anh mình ở nhà chơi đừng đi làm :v :))) Nghe lời đấy mới sợ =)))) Thua ha ha

Lười đi chơi lắm đa!

Vừa mới bị bạn bè gọi điện mắng chửi xối xả vì cái tội không chịu vác xác ra khỏi nhà =)) Chèn ơi em nó lười lắm, dạo này chỉ thích nằm ườn ở nhà ôm lappie xem phim ảnh hoặc xong thì học tiếng Pháp rồi đấy lại lăn và ôm truyện đọc chứ chẳng muốn nhổm mông dậy thay đồ đi đâu cả.

Chiều nay mới là chịu xách xe chạy qua nhà bạn chơi bời tí. Thấy đường phố nhộn nhịp xinh đẹp lắm vậy mà bây giờ mình mới biết. Thôi cho cô bé lười hết tuần chớ lười chết mất thôi =))

Valentine năm nay chắc cũng vuôi lung lắm tại hai anh em mình sẽ Skype với nhau cả ngày :)) Mình bảo ông ấy quen bạn gái Tây đi mà, đừng dây vào con gái Việt chán òm lắm với lại chả xinh nên mình hông thích :') Chị dâu của Hallie thì phải xinh đẹp lung lắm mới được đa ='D 

Nói thật mình hông có thích mấy chuyện ghen tuông của người yêu anh mình vì anh mình cưng cả thương mình lắm đa. Mà con gái Việt thì hay thế nên ứ thích :))

Lạc đề... thôi tóm lại là lười nốt tuần này rồi tuần sau sẽ ra đường =)) Nói thiệt!

Iêu,

Hal

24/12 (Lunar Cal.)

I have been getting hooked on a Vietnamese drama named "Remorse" (Lời Sám Hối) whose background was circa the 16 or 17 century, when the woman condition was always disregarded and manipulated by the role of men, pushed down to the bottom of society and locked in a cage called "house". 

It has taken me such a very long time since I followed any kind of Vietnamese entertainment, though I must admit that the drama is so great and impressive that causes my recent addiction :') It's worth my time for its interesting pilot as well as valuable lessons within. Honestly, I love it :x

None of my close friends, even my brothers have got a chance to keep in touch with me lately for my entire disappearance on social medias lol

Fortunately bro.Kien texted me a message this morning with the desire to talk with me on time when I had just finished 43 episodes of the drama previous night. Thus, my mood was high for a little talk with him about his complex love story.

Well, Valentine is approaching. Most of people must have been longing for the occasion to bare their love towards lovers in much excitement while I'm feeling totally blank and rather floating...you know, it's hard to tell!

By the way, I'm quite occupied in assisting mom with tidying up my house, preparing ceremonial offerings such as preparing a grand farewell for three Deities on their journey to the Heavens yesterday. Though, I still handle to spare a little time for movies, French and English ='D

I'm considering whether I should either close this blog and commence another one with new identity or remain and make a change in this blog itself. There are a countless number of bitter and sweet memories included in this blog. From love stories, grieves, weakness, pains, scars, tears to happiness, laughter, pleasure, delight and uplifted mood :) All of them are my past which I partly want to conceal from those who I will encounter in the future because I'm ashamed of me being silly, stupid and weak despite of their existence only in the past.  The other half of me somehow pulls me back and has me remain the blog so far.

Okay, this blog is bound to continue under another shell. The former entries are saved in order to re-read someday as I get ready and confident to look back on what I have been through. It's all right!

Willian is no longer the name that I shall mention...

Love is also no longer the topic that I shall concern...

A relationship is also no longer what I'm looking for...

Because fairy tales are not real but big poisonous illusion killing me a little by little :)

Much love,

xoxo

Hal

Back from Vinpearl Luxury!

Having experienced over one day at the Vinpearl Luxury resort as a V.I.P, I am under the impression that I have not yet got out of the sumptuousness magnificence there. 

However, there was a minor Vietnamese elements of jet-sets that pissed me off for their bad attitudes towards the resort employees as if they possess great affluence so have the power to manipulate others like puppets.

I wonder whether or not I am appropriate for the major Hospitality Management because it is super difficult to me on the purpose of holding in my rage and faking a smile no matter how disgusting and annoying my guests behave -_- Merde!

Short as they were, over one day were plentiful of sefies, english conversations, self-relief, the delight of game world and ultimately food delicacies in the restaurant under the type of buffet which raised the part of food-lover in me :') 

Okay I'm fucking exhausted and sleepy now after walking miles of miles all around the island to take photographs and have fun in the game world. Need a tight sleep!

Good night,

xoxo

Hal

PS: During the time at the resort, some often mistook me for a foreigner with a few common nationalities such as Korean, Japanese, Chinese or simply a Vietnamese born elsewhere but Vietnam regardless of my "pure" Vietnamese appearance -_- Blame on my language while being there - English. Maybe. By the way, I wish so! 

Vinpearl Land trip lah lah~

Hallie is officially invited to visit Vinpearl land and stay at a luxury 6-star hotel tomorrow under the status of Miss =))) Just kidding!

The fact that I had set up to accompany some Korean friends on the trip to Bai Dai Beach, yet I must cancel in the end for incapable of driving motorbike.

How unfortunate ! I wish to go with them somewhere further than around inner Nha Trang. All of them are exchanged students from Korea dwelling in my university for a month to learn their major and fortunately their English are quite good to communicate with others :'p They are pretty, friendly and also sing well on the Opening day of my school :)) I'd love to talk with them and have fun. Indeed!

By the way, it was not that bad as I couldn't make it because I was invited to arrive in Vinpearl land for real on the same day. Certainly for free. 

It's holiday...so just have fun and rejoice! Thanks for inviting me and especially for choosing me for the slot :) I do appreciate it and feel deeply grateful for trusting me!

Gotta hang out and do shopping with Ellie rite now. 

Love,

xoxo

~ Hal 

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06.02.2015
12: 18 am

Tự nhiên đang vui vẻ xong bây giờ ngồi ấm ức chịu không nổi. Vừa cãi nhau to với ông anh của mình cũng chỉ vì chuyện yêu đương của ông í.

Nổi điên nhất là ông í bảo "Sao em lúc nào cũng trẻ con thế nhỉ? Đừng có lằng nhằng hoài. Lớn rồi" khiến mình kiểu tức nghẹn mà nước mắt nước mũi ở đâu chảy ròng ròng ra xong mình kiểu "sau này em sẽ ko có bao giờ can thiệp chuyện yêu đương của anh nữa đâu" =.=

Nổi điên nổi khùng gì đâu. Sau đấy cũng dỗ mình nhưng mà kiểu bực hông chịu đựng được >.<  Thôi đi ngủ, chả thèm nc cả nhau nữa. Mai đi chơi khỏi online khỏi nói chuyện cho biết. Anh với chả em, động tí cữ mắng mỏ con nhỏ làm tức hộc máu!

Ngủ!

2:06 am

Bây giờ mới đi ngủ nà =))) Bó tay 2 anh em nhà tui chửi nhau như chó với mèo. Xong rồi hòa lại tiếp tục nói chuyện cho đến lúc anh "xong việc" :)) Vừa làm vừa nc với mình thì tập trung kiểu gì mà cũng không hiểu nổi.

Giờ ngủ thiệt. Mai đi sớm mà 2 anh em nói chuyện tới giờ này mới xong =)) Ông í chắc giờ đi tập gym còn con em này thì đi ngủ mai đi chơi :)) Há há :3 Xa nhau cả nửa vòng trái đất mà thân cả iu nhao như giè íh:))

Bonne nuit!

Not to be a traditional bride

Deeply influenced by the notion of Asian tradition, I was raised to be an ideal woman with the four attributes: industry, appearance, speech and behavior as coming to my future in-laws. Most of Asian women, including my mother and further past generations, have a tendency to praise the role of husband as the powerful Lord taking control of the family and serve the in-laws as if you are officially “sold” to devote not only your youth but also the rest of your life to both the in-laws and your own little family. 

It means that you have to work all daytime in society like other men and in the nightfall, you must also be responsible for cooking the dinner, washing dishes, doing household, taking care of the children, husband and his parents. The interminable routine will haunt your life until the last breath and you will find yourself getting more and more despondent which potentially culminates in another devastating drama – your husband’s mistress.

Through countless cases of broken marriage in reality, I have learned that the whole life of Asian women has still been bound by the outdated and unequal concept for centuries but none of us dares to stand up and make a campaign for new era of feminism. Given that Western and American women are indeed strong and independent enough to take the wheel of their lives better than Asian ones, this causes me to have a sudden impulse to change and choose happiness instead of remaining in a rut. 

Speaking of my case, I am such a typical daddy’s little girl in family due to being the only child. Neither father nor mother asks me to do anything at home, from cooking to do the chores. Others often suppose that my parents overindulge me without the least idea that I would probably soon get spoilt and useless when live with in-laws.

My parents fully comprehend the fact indeed but also believe that their little girl is more precious than she seems to be. She is actually a good chef, quite capable of handling everything and taking care of herself pretty well. Though it is solely for the purpose of self-reliance and happiness on her own, and she did prove it during the first difficult time away from home for a couple years in Saigon. 

Yup, I really can manage to deal with various kinds of the chores if get engaged in a new life with in-laws, but don’t ever think for one second I shall become a traditional devoted woman who is more than willing to sacrifice herself, serve her in-laws as a housemaid and rot there. In my opinion, family is a combination of unconditional love and harmony among family members. If we truly concern and love one another, we may share the chores and make it work together rather than depending on only one person and taking it for granted that it is her duty. 

Most of husband after a long day at work give themselves the right to rest on a couch, reading newspapers or watching TV while awaiting the ready-made meals. Meanwhile, their wives also carry the same tiresome and exhausting day, though they must prepare for a dinner as soon as get home and spent the rest day doing the chores continuously without any help from their men – yes, the men who are said to love those women and wished to bring happiness to them. So, is this happiness? Or just a commitment under the cover of a hell on Earth?

Someday in the future, whether or not I would get married and step in a marriage life, I always still choose to be happy. I do not let the war with in-laws erode my marriage and let no man rule my life in a false direction either. The point is how to make it easy and feel free to live. Live the way that makes me happy, not the way that the vast majority follows and expects from you. Difference is not weird, it is the way you define yourself and decide the quality of your life. :)

I believe what comes from heart goes to heart. It is not easy to build a bridge to someone’s heart and make things in order once you live with in-laws, yet try balancing and achieve harmony in your new family. There comes peace and happiness! My parents brought me up to marry their little girl to a man ensuring her tranquil and happiness, not for slaving in distress :) If I gulp back my tears for those strangers, it will disappoint my parents’ expectation. That’s why once I know what the best for me, I choose it and go for it!

This is the modern period, why are we dwelling in the past? Break with tradition and live differently! It is your life and no one can live for you.

Be happy,

xoxo

Hallie

Welcome Tet holiday!

Teehee!

Despite the fact that my British and Amer literature examination was just mediocre, I decided to choose happiness over worthless lamentations about what I’m incapable of redoing again. The ultimate point of this positive attitude was that I made the best of it with all my efforts within previous days, there was no regrets or dismay right now for good because most of other classmates also surrendered the essays for the absent-mindedness of our negligent literature teacher giving us no clue about the darn exam format of this subject. 

Merci Dieu! Thanks to the little memories about the works “The adventures of Robison” and “Oliver Twist” that I read since childhood somehow still engrained in the back of my mind, I managed to complete the essay without struggling much. Hopefully the final exam will be marked high enough for me to obtain the scholarship, at least in this semester, because I am certainly not going to keep learning that much in the next term so that the amount of time devoted to Ielts and French would be able to get more functional and productive. That’s my target!

The examination has gone by, here come the days of body-rejuvenation and care-free for over a month due to the Tet holiday *mdr* It means that all of my close friends in Saigon will flock back to town and celebrate the festival with me in the delightful and much pleasant atmosphere of New Year. 

The sooner it comes to the holiday, the less trainees are likely available in Yoga class :)) Hooked up on Yoga and somewhat anxious about my health, I still have been practicing regularly and hardly find myself free elsewhere other than the class. The movements are swift and the body is released following each word very deliberately by my instructor. It is intriguingly relaxing! :p

Anyway, I am so free like a bird escaped from a long term in a cage. Honestly the passing semester was so damn tiresome and exhausting that I was about to let them be at times. Additionally, a bunch of slothful teammates only depending on me drove me crazy indeed. It has finally gone and I promise I shan't definitely stick with them in the next semester. 

These days, I have more and more leisure to enjoy a care-freed life and carry out my prolonged stagnant plans since forever =)) the first is Ielts and French the second. Sounds familiar, doesn't it? Yup, I have reminded myself of learning them for a few years but caught no time to make it work, precisely it is just a lame excuse for various other entertaining activities such as: US-UK TV series, cartoons, movies (I’m a film buff *frown*) and fictional books daily before a night’s sleep. 

Meow meow…Gotta have a little talk with my brother right now! 

Good night the world,

xoxo

Hal

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger

The last night of January turned out to be one of the most terrifying days I'd ever gone through. I bottled myself up in bedroom, crying my heart out and coming to the fleeting thought of committing suicide at times to get rid of all these uncontrollable painful matters that I was being confronted, wondering what wrongdoings I'd done in the previous incarnation so that I must endure such a deadly psychiatric disorder.

Then came my best brother and sifu (Master) Li Shimin texting me to check if I was stable and balanced. Yes, always them. The best men after my father continuously worry and take a good care of me all the time and they are also the ones to whom I always communicate the most.

They devoted their little previous time to me, encouraging me, lifting me up and delivering a bunch of advice on how to move on and live strongly and independently. They never seem to comfort me or give me soft words to console as well as promises to be my moral support for eternity but guide me how to take a wheel of my life firmly through the hurricanes.

This morning, sifu made his points out clearly to me that he would no longer willingly listen to my rantings and pessimistic attitudes which were poisoning myself little by little without knowing what the imminent harmful consequences might block my way to other better things.

I am certain he unconditionally loves me and concerns my issues so much that he takes his time and efforts, even bitter words to show me various priceless lessons in life. That's why I forever appreciate and respect him wholeheartedly to call him sifu Li for years.

If I was brutally thrown at the bottom of a downside previous night with neither hopes nor any aspiration for life, his words have led me in high spirit, determine to submit greatest inconveniences and hardships ahead. What doesn't kill me makes me stronger. I believe that after that shock and pain, I won't get afraid of any kind of detrimental elements to my mental state of mind.

According to my promises to sifu, there are a double things I'm bound to carry on without any sense of discouragement no matter what life may send my way:

The first: an outstanding achievement in becoming a bilingual.

The second: well-developed mental and physical health.

Rather than the couple things above, he would cease to talk with me again. What a strict measure due to his only pupil's breakthrough! =.=

"Final warning to you, Hallie. That your life is whether beautiful or not depends on your decisions. I shall waste no time in reminding me how to live again. Either grow up and fly high or fall and root in hell, it's up to you -_-  Gotta have lunch. Ganbatte kudasai!"

That's the whole story about the first of February :) As long as I can adjust to be my best in every situation and beam up no matter what, que sera sera!

はい、頑張ります！:)

~ Hal