Have a check

The fact that I am going to undergo minor surgery next Monday after having an ultrasound scan this evening with mommy scares my hell out because I'm such a chickenheart as dealing with both physical and mental pains since birth. 

If only I could be as half brave as how I would be back to my childhood. The more I grow, the more I'm all aware of the exact pains each time I'm confronted them despite myself and of course it leads to my dreadful obsession with what may hurt me even in the least. 

Perhaps some pains ain't that terrible but "mental illness" does matter in this case and drives the pains more awful than they should be... Yeah, I'm the source of problems :'( Anw, fighting Hallie :(( Everything is gonna be okay...

Speaking of fighting, I had a serious quarrel with bf this afternoon again =.= What a day!!!

*sigh*

[movie] The scorch trials

Well, it was the second watch tonight not only because of the appealing way that the movie had brought to me since the first time but also the ticket was entirely free thanks to bro.Phuong's generous offer for me and Kat at the very second time. We both caught the chance to feast our eyes upon the supporting actor Minho who seemed to be more important and attractive to us than the leading one - Thomas lolz~

Honestly, I have no the intention of reading the trilogy "The maze runner" since they say you'd better either watch adaptations or read the books :') You are bound to become content only with one of them and disappointed at the other one. That's why I'd often rather choose films over books, except special books that would become my preference such as ones in romantic, psychological or thriller, horror genres.

If I'm making a comparison of "Hunger Game" and "The maze runner", I seem to grow biased towards the second choice because of not the practical content but also its good investment that totally convinced me :')

*sigh* It's been a while I have frequently not read any book :( I gotta turn back to my previous habit before everything good made for years would vanish in the blink of an eye :(

Love,

Hal

PS: I'm crazy over Minho :((((((((((

Mid-autumn festival '15

This is the very first Mid-autumn festival together with someone special in my lifetime. Tonight we celebrated the day on the beach, under the moonlight, in a romantic scene :’) Well, it was rather cheesy as we both gazed at the masses of cloud in the night sky and started to imagine what shape each mass looked like. Then we tickled, teased and cracked up as if we had been back to the childhood.

To make the night more “mid-autumn”, we tasted a couple of moon cakes sent from Saigon that Icecloud had made me a few days ago, and a few Oreo cookies as well.

His promise made according to the meaning of the ring that he had offered me on Monday was the freaking highlight, under the full moon implying our love would forever become as full and bright as the moon tonight.

Regardless of my deep sob at the beginning over his entire dead silence heartlessly cutting through my heart, he soon wiped my tears away and planted a kiss on my lips, and held my hand tightly. How foolish of me to remind the past without even the least thinking of what consequences I would trigger, particularly to such a sensitive and vulnerable as him, I should have been more careful each time uttering something that potentially hurts him.

All in all, we made it square and spent the rest time of the night together cheerfully and happily. Nothing terrible happened :) Wish that we could hold hands that tight and love each other until the end of our path as his promise.

Thank you for coming to my life and blooming it with your love, dear!

Love,

Hal

24/09

Regardless of our monthsary today, I couldn't possibly meet him at least for a moment to give him a big hug and tell him that I love him as I had expected due to the fact that I was too occupied with ss Sarah to spend a little time either calling him or hanging out with him.

It couldn't be clearer that he must have been upset, particularly subsequent to having a fleeting read on our blog tonight. Well, even though we celebrated the day last Monday earlier, he'd still like to be with me on this offical day ~

Today, I had myself filled with food from Vietnamese crêpes, mini pancakes, varied snails and clams to papaya salad with shredded beef Jerky, then taiyaki with Kat lol All of them in my stomach within the night :'( I predict it would get ache tomorrow morning for sure ah~

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Nói chung là vui vì lâu lắm mới được gặp tỷ tỷ rồi chở đi chơi nhiều như này, còn được yêu thương cho bao nhiêu là thứ nữa. Có điều buồn vì nhớ bạn người yêu lắm, kỉ niệm lại không đi được với nhau ...

Thôi giờ đi gọi bản vậy :'(

Yêu

My promise ring

On the occasion of our monthsary according to the relationship count up timer, it's been 30 days...well, not exactly 2 months but we decided to pick the day for celebration :') 

He offered me a heart-shaped box put a couple of bunny and piglet (it was supposed to be a dinosaur), happily hand in hand, and a love long love letter in three pages showering me with his deepest affection and much emotions towards me that almost made me weep for being indeed touched. 

More importantly, the promise ring that I'm wearing means a world to me from now on. The ring goes with his vow and obviously defines that I belong to him for enternity. It was quite difficult to buy me the ring for my fingers seem always smaller than available rings at the stores, yet we eventually got the silver ring in the evening hehe

I wish he will become not only the first but also the last one who puts the next rings into my fingers. The engagement ring and wedding ring. 'cause for the first time, I've reached to this sense of entire faith and serenity beside a man. It's love!

I love him.

Hal

Reunion with Andie

Well, these are little gifts that Andie bought me subsequent to her 3-month voyage in Europe in the summer.

Meeting and talking to her always bring me the best moments since we are quite compatible at a variety of subjects, particularly ones involved in Western life.

She has already achieved the European dream while I haven't. It's a bit sad that I seem to cease the notion of taking off and settling there, ending up with a white guy lol because I have got my man right now and am in a stable life that I yearned for.

She laughed and told me it was weird as listening to my love story since bf is entirely opposite to my previous taste. He's a way too good natured and foolish to win my heart that easily. Hah~ who knows what reasons love has (>^ω^<)

Agrh...no matter what, I gotta fly to the Europe sky someday in the future asap. Those little things are urging me to make it work at any cost. H'm I'm still looking forward to getting the post card from Paris sent a month ago since my guy was still in France on his holiday.

Damn! Too many friends have arrived in Europe but me (*^﹏^*) a sense of self-pity is washing over me and raising my enviousness, to be honest.  Huhu when will I make my dream come true?!

Gotta call my bf now. Good night the world (>^ω^<) Texting on the phone is pretty unfamiliar to me, thus I can't type much information hehe.

Love,

Hal

Random thoughts of the future

The second monthsary of our relationship is approaching in all excitement and happiness for we both sense the period that we have been through lasting more than a couple of months, well precisely as if it has been gone two years since the day we belong to each other.  

I have been spending the most delightful and incredibly joyful days together with him regardless of some squabbles on and off, though it doesn't matter because we never get pissed off beyond one day. In the end of the day, either he or I shall actively make it up and happily talk again :')

This initial state of euphoria along with much romance and touching moments that we share hopefully will last in enternal. I'm obviously conscious of the fact that someday we must cross over the early stage of full happiness and romance in order to step into the more realistic and mature one. Challenges. Difficulties. And importantly a long distance relationship for a couple years. 

It seems we always pretend not to imagine the vision of us splitting up temporarily and moving on our paths on our own for a short term. He at times has told me that he would like to give up on the idea of leaving this country for his further education in US so as to stay here with me, probably figuring out another direction to follow but my insistence on keeping his previous plan prior to our relationship successfully persuaded him in spite of my aching heart yearning for his staying here with me.

Although I am dreadfully terrified of losing someone I truly love again, it is unreasonable to get selfish and keep entirely untroubled with his chosen future. Especially, I'm incapable of pulling him back and giving him every reason to regret if one day things run no longer on the right track  :) I must put him in a condition of scarifying nothing for me. 

How painful it is to think of the day! That's why I seem to cease writing blog and pouring my thoughts too much in words because the more I write, the more I over-think and gradually get sunk in the depth of frustration made by pent-up sorrows that I'm going to confront in the near future. Instead, I am attempting to cherish each moment beside him, be mindful of his life in the least,wholeheartedly love him and become his source of happiness and peace like the way he does. 

God, please tie us tightly together and give us more strength to overcome any storm ahead, reach the day we officially become spouse :) I'm more than willing to engage the rest of my life with this man!

I pray!

Love,

Hal

07/09/15

Kat returned to Nha Trang this morning with her pressie, and of course some other cute stuffs I had asked her to take :') Tadah here is the "cool cat" couple bags of Hal & Kat:

The reunion with Aki just came all in sudden due to the fact that I guess it must have taken considerable time to meet him again for his hectic life in Japan, along with plenty of other matters that blocked his convenient ways to get back to Vietnam. Though, this time he's already here over one year away :') 

Aileen, Aki and I had a date at Owl cafeteria :)) We talked a lot about Japan and people there with their lifestyles and the way they dare to quit education at school to pursuit dreams with giving no shit about how others regard them as long as they prove their path they have chosen is right by producing more and more individual achievements further than the majority of people who waste their time at school and follow others' steps and end up their lives in the same tedious circle. 

We discussed much and had fun together :') Perhaps we will sing karaoke someday soon before he gets back to Japan. Oh lah~ wish to visit Japan in the future coz I overheard that it is such a beautiful country with a sort of multicultural society combined Asian and Western nature.

Thôi đi ngủ =))) Buồn ngủ quá rồi!

Love,

Hal

03/09/15

The fact that I'm deeply in a relationship with mah bf seems to change everything from the smallest to the biggest habits while I was single lolz~ 

No more updating blogs daily. No more checking facebook most of time. No more reading books for hours until mid night. No more following Tv series from dawn to dusk. No more chatting to friends for hours. No more sense of craziness when nobody is there for me to talk. No more pouring emotions or any kind of absurd thoughts for thousand pages. 

In contrast, I have become such a smiley and totally happy girl at the moment, thinking less and never feeling lonely in the big world without someone special to get mindful of my emotions and love me all the time. The more I'm with him, the more my love intensively grows :') 

It is blessing to have someone like him by my side. Sometimes I wonder if I traded virtually 23 years in agony for this final reward which is the man whose heart entirely belongs to me now. If so, I'm grateful for this...Just one wish, please keep him stay with me for eternity and don't take him away from me!

This month is quite promising for reunions with several close friends for their trips to Nha Trang city, albeit within only few days. I am looking forward to hooking up with them again for it has been so long since the last time we met. Distance is indeed a matter. We are not capable of hanging out together each time something goes wrong while other relationships in reality along with hectic life are barriers for us to have heart-to-heart conversations as we did previously because it is impossible to sit before the laptop all day so as to talk to someone across the sea, particularly the different timezone makes it more difficult.

Nevertheless, as long as whenever we inbox, there is barely awkward moment at first like "H'm...how are you lately?" It's usually like "Hey, got a sec :)) Hv smt interesting 2 tell ya hehe" Yay, these close friends are good ones to me. Always. So excited to see them here :') 

Erm.. not much to say! Well, my writing skill seems "blunt" =.= I see.. *haiz* 

Bye,

Hal