The second monthsary of our relationship is approaching in all excitement and happiness for we both sense the period that we have been through lasting more than a couple of months, well precisely as if it has been gone two years since the day we belong to each other.
I have been spending the most delightful and incredibly joyful days together with him regardless of some squabbles on and off, though it doesn't matter because we never get pissed off beyond one day. In the end of the day, either he or I shall actively make it up and happily talk again :')
This initial state of euphoria along with much romance and touching moments that we share hopefully will last in enternal. I'm obviously conscious of the fact that someday we must cross over the early stage of full happiness and romance in order to step into the more realistic and mature one. Challenges. Difficulties. And importantly a long distance relationship for a couple years.
It seems we always pretend not to imagine the vision of us splitting up temporarily and moving on our paths on our own for a short term. He at times has told me that he would like to give up on the idea of leaving this country for his further education in US so as to stay here with me, probably figuring out another direction to follow but my insistence on keeping his previous plan prior to our relationship successfully persuaded him in spite of my aching heart yearning for his staying here with me.
Although I am dreadfully terrified of losing someone I truly love again, it is unreasonable to get selfish and keep entirely untroubled with his chosen future. Especially, I'm incapable of pulling him back and giving him every reason to regret if one day things run no longer on the right track :) I must put him in a condition of scarifying nothing for me.
How painful it is to think of the day! That's why I seem to cease writing blog and pouring my thoughts too much in words because the more I write, the more I over-think and gradually get sunk in the depth of frustration made by pent-up sorrows that I'm going to confront in the near future. Instead, I am attempting to cherish each moment beside him, be mindful of his life in the least,wholeheartedly love him and become his source of happiness and peace like the way he does.
God, please tie us tightly together and give us more strength to overcome any storm ahead, reach the day we officially become spouse :) I'm more than willing to engage the rest of my life with this man!
I pray!
Love,
Hal
Aucun commentaire:
Enregistrer un commentaire