Ngày đầu tiên đi làm :')

Viết tiếng Việt cho còn biết khả năng ngôn ngữ của mình còn tốt nha nha!

Hôm nay là ngày đầu tiên đi làm, nhưng vì nãy giờ nói nhiều quá rồi nên mình chỉ biết tóm tắt để sau này có đọc còn nhớ được hihi

- Địa điểm: Hal làm việc ở tầng 34 phòng số 01 (cộng lại là số 8 đó - ảo diệu chưa) nên view cực cực đẹp. Ngồi làm việc mà không thể nào không thỉnh thoảng liếc ra cửa một cái để nhìn toàn thành phố. Mà cửa kính full luôn nên thôi khỏi bàn nha.

- Rèm cửa: đừng trách... rèm cửa màu xanh - là MÀU XANH DA TRỜI THẦN THÁNH của Hal đó chời ơi là chời~

- Sếp: sếp Hal là người Anh nhưng ở vùng khác không phải London nên accent hơi khó nghe tí. Sếp là người cực cực tốt, quan tâm, phóng khoáng, hào phóng và rất là open-minded (không biết tiếng Việt và lười tra từ điển) và sếp cũng buồn cười. Sếp có những cái mindset (hình như là tư tưởng) rất giống mình, kiểu bắt nhân viên mỗi sáng phải tập họp lại xong mỗi người tự chia sẻ hoặc kể câu chuyện gì đó hạnh phúc của bản thân. Đây là việc mình làm mỗi sáng và mỗi tốt luôn nè. 

À trưa thì sếp dắt chúng mình đi ăn trưa thiệt no, xong dắt đi Highland mua trà sữa rồi về office vừa nhâm nhi vừa làm. Dạ mới 3h đã muốn đuổi Hal về rồi vì lí do... về nghỉ đi, ngày đầu có việc gì nhiều đâu ngồi chi mệt =))) Xong bonus luôn là mai mốt có việc gì muốn về sớm cứ việc về ko có bắt ngồi 8 tiếng một ngày ở office hoài đâu nha :))

Chuyện buồn cười của vị này là vị này muốn đọc tên Hallie của Hal chuẩn. Vì Hal nói là tên tao đọc là Hal-lee nha mậy. Xong sếp kêu ủa ko phải Ha-lee hả? Hal kêu hông Hal-lee nha. Xong nguyên chiều cứ đọc tên Hal như niệm thần chú xong lúc về ôm đầu kêu "Sao mà điên quá vậy nè". Hal thấy buồn cười nên kêu ò mày đọc Ha-lee cũng được sao cũng được mà chời ơi =))) Rồi xong lúc về ráng mò lên mạng search video phim "The parent trap" có khúc giới thiệu Hallie là Ha-lee rồi gửi nó cho đồng nghiệp Hal kêu nè nè thấy chưa Ha-lee mà @.@ Hal bị buồn cười ko chịu được luôn í =)) Mình đã very cheap cái vụ rèm cửa màu xanh rồi mà sếp còn cheap hơn mình nữa :))

- Công ty: mục tiêu và những gì công ty hướng tới hoàn toàn là những gì mình hướng tới. Nói chung mình biết lâu rồi, thật ra người Việt hay đi lên bằng đường tắt, chiêu trò hoặc gian lận, trốn thuế này nọ nói chung là mánh khóe thì giàu. Nhưng người nước ngoài mấy doanh nhân giàu thật sự mà mình biết thì toàn đi bằng con đường chân chính và họ toàn kiểu "honest" (chân thành hả?!) và chăm chỉ nên họ giàu rất bền. Mình cảm thấy phù hợp với tính cách của mình vì mình không muốn "bị ép" hoặc "vì công việc" hay "business phải thế" mà phải lừa lọc khách hàng hoặc sử dụng chiêu trò này nọ để tiếp tay với cái chuyện không đúng lương tâm đó. Mình không đánh đồng nhưng mà mình thật sự thấy may mắn vì công ty này có định hướng đúng với con đường mình muốn đi. Vậy thôi.

- Đồng nghiệp: dạ đầu tiên là đồng nghiệp Hal cũng siêu siêu cuồng màu xanh da trời giống Hal cho nên là cái rèm cửa ở trên mới màu xanh và vì biết Hallie mới vào nên bạn đồng nghiệp đã suggest anh sếp mua thêm 1 đôi dép mang trong nhà màu xanh cho Hallie =)) Đồng nghiệp của Hal toàn những người dễ thương, đáng yêu, tốt bụng và cũng nói nhiều như Hal nên vui lắm.

Thật ra bị đuổi về từ sớm rồi mà ham vui quá với lại muốn ngắm cảnh thành phố về đêm nên ở lại 7h mấy mới về. Chiều mai là được nghỉ làm sớm để cả cty đi coi phim với nhau đó.

Nói chung hông biết phàn nàn về bất cứ điều gì dù là nhỏ nhất luôn :)) Cho nên ráng kím chuyện nhỏ xíu để phàn nàn là... máy lạnh lạnh quá đi haha

Xong một ngày rất đẹp. Mỗi ngày đi làm chắc là một niềm vui quá :") Ai cũng bảo mình may mắn. Mình cũng biết mình may mắn mà trời ơi =))) Đi thiền rồi đọc sách xong ngủ đây.

Ngủ ngon mơ đẹp,

Hal

PS: Tại cả ngày căng não ra listening rồi nên giờ được viết tiếng Việt mừng lắm. Tiếng Anh Hal trước giờ không tệ lắm mà tại toàn là Anh-Mỹ nên giờ gặp Anh-Anh thành ra cái accent không quen với nói cũng tốc độ ánh sáng quá nên nhiều khi cũng đơ vài giây :") Nhưng kệ. Từ quen!!!

Happy life!!!

I should write this post yesterday because it was the turning point of my life, I mean it was one of the best day of my lifetime so I’d better mark it to remember. Yesterday, I was too busy sharing my happiness with my friends and beloved ones to have free time for blogging. Besides, today was not less wonderful comparing to yesterday. Hence, here I am to combine them together, rite?

If you do not believe in the law of attraction, you should consider my instance. I used to be unemployed for beyond one month while looking for the right job which must conclude enough points of my standard. Others may think it is impossible to look for a perfect job in this society, yet I somehow had that great belief in what I set because I defined exactly what I wanted. Days after days, I was frustrating to go for interviews at many companies, refused, delayed and even canceled within a few hours before the appointment because it was not what I wanted.

Then one day, BINGO I found the job with all the standards I had set before. It was whatever I had been looking for years since graduating from the university. Of course, I had to get through many tests and take time to pass anything they requested. So yeah, my about-to colleagues are friendly, kind, funny and nice to me even I did not start my first working day. They promised to treat me the lunch on Monday and asked me out for the movie haha Sounds cool. Most of them are foreigners and even Vietnamese must speak in English. Ain’t it perfect for me ha? :) ‘cause the tone and the way I express my opinions in Vietnamese often cause misunderstandings and my Vietnamese colleagues do not love me for this *frown* 

From the lovely joy, I decided to hang out today with Hara. We went to the movie “Crazy Rich Asians” and hung out until night. 

Something about the movie… excuse my language was not as good as I used to be, thus I am about to just write short random thoughts after watching the movie hah!

As I am also a typical Asian, the movie was so easy going through my mind. It was the fairytale as Cinderella meeting the Prince Charming and their ending was happy ever after as usual. However, the different thing here is Rachel Chu was not just a mediocre Cinderella sitting on a dusty cellar waiting for her prince to recuse. She controlled over her life and was a brave fighter.

I was impressed most at the scene when Rachel talked to Nick’s mother, she would be back to New York city not because she was afraid or thought she was not enough.

For a time, I was told to be not enough and I did believe in that. I hated myself and embraced a lot of negative thoughts, carried them like a burden on my shoulder and wondered why I was born on the Earth. Well, I must know that when I start to doubt about myself, at the right moment I am a loser and I make another’s judgment about me become true. My self-esteem was low :) How foolish I was!

You are the only person in this world defines who you are and how your value is. If you are easily influenced by others’ judgments and become exactly what they consider you, it is your problem, not theirs. You control your life, thoughts, mindset, standards and goals. 

Okay back on the point, the movie was interesting and inspiring me heaps. You must learn to love myself, respect yourself and become the best version of you first, mr.Right would find his way to you and fall for you because no one loves a person who does not love herself. Rachel is strong, smart and can fight for what she loves. I do admire her personal characteristics. When life gave her lemon, she would make lemonade. She was not kind of girl who would call her boyfriend starting to cry and asking him to help her out lolz~ That was so attracting lah!

To conclude, the movie was worth your time and I hope it would inspire you somehow to become better.

In the evening, Hara and I had milk tea drinks at a coffee shop nearby my house. We talked for hours about life, relationships, values, friends, happiness, families and self-esteem. It was a good conversation and we learned from each other. There were no gossips, dramas, bad news, negative stories or sorrows. The quality of our conversation was high and beyond common ones nowadays. 

I was under the impression as if I had received a medal when she said to me “Hallie, you have changed completely. I am so glad to know the new you. Always smile, think positively and be happy with every thing.”

This confirmation made my day. Seriously. I could not believe that I would be able to alter this much ^^~ I do appreciate what I have been through :3

I deserve the best, so don't settle for less!

Love

Hal

The process is tough but interesting

Dear diary,

I apologize to cease writing for years since I officially started to step into the adulthood. I must admit that I have tremendously altered to become a part of this society despite myself. To be honest, it is unfair if I confirm that I dislike the version I become today because she is not me although this version is supposed to be good and suitable if I would like to survive and be “normal” in this environment.

In case you are wondering what this version of me at the present would be like. Maturity. You are not allowed to be who you used to be as a child. You cannot cry if you are sad and you should not laugh or express yourself too much if you are happy because you must be polite and gentle. If you are straightforward, it means you do not have the communication skill and people will judge and even hate you for this. Sometimes, if you are silent and quiet so long because you have nothing to say, you would be labeled as an unfriendly person. You are not allowed to bring your sadness or sorrows anywhere but home because you are spreading negativity all over the places you come and that influences others’ mood. You have to put others first because the rule is people always want to be listened, not to be a listener. And of course many other things to tell…

Well…all the rules are from the passing years I have experienced and just recently learned from a well-known book named “How to win friends and influence people” by Dale Carnegie. To become the best version of me for maturity, I have gone through loss, failure, love and even myself. These rules are useful and this “mature” me version is completely good enough but I cannot wonder why people always need to have tricks, put on a ton of masks, follow a million rules to be loved by others. Is it necessary in this adulthood? Sadly it is. 

Yes, I used to be too stubborn to change my attitudes, thoughts because I assume those rules are unauthentic, and I hate it. I used to keep being who I was. I talked to those I was close and stayed quiet to those I did not like or have mood to talk. I showed my options in a frank way and I thought it was real although it did hurt others’ feelings. I cried when I was sad and I laughed when I was happy as a child but I did not understand that my negative energy influenced my colleagues’ mood for the whole day and my clear satisfaction on my face did not help me much to work with my clients. 

Yesterday, my therapy asks me “Tell me which type of person you would like to talk?” Then she drew in my mind a person who had all the personal characteristics that I supposed they are authentic, and put me in another position to see “me”. If one day I came to the office and greeted a new comer, but she stayed quiet and did not even smile. She kept herself isolated because she thought she was not close to me so she did not want to talk. Do I like her? If my Monday morning was supposed to be extremely good but the girl suddenly came to the office and just cried and show her bad mood all day. Do I like her? If I wanted to help her and advised her something but she was consistent to her belief and even rejected your advice. Do I still want to work with her? If… and If… 

No, I do not like her. The true is she was authentic, did not wear masks to please people and was straightforward, as I wanted to be. Yet someone like this is unacceptable and even I cannot accept her – Of course, it means I cannot accept myself either *bitter*

That is the reason why I decided to change.

The process was not as easy as I thought. There were failures, a broken heart, skin pigmentation disorders, unemployment and losses of important things in my life. I even did not think I could go through them all because I was not trained how to stand up and face all of these obstacles knocking my doors at once. 

I was depressed and bottled up myself in my small room in order to just cry, complain and sleep all day to let the day pass by. Sometimes my mood was up a little bit after hanging out with my friend or reading a good self-help book but at the end of the day, all the negative thoughts just found their way to find me in dreams. For passing months, it was such a nightmare to me. I also wished that I would never wake up next morning *idiot*

You may laugh at my weakness but it was me. Fragile, vulnerable, emotional, sensitive and useless.

What pulls me out of the dark hole that I was falling and almost touching the hell is knowledge! Yes, it is the knowledge. I am not here to compliment self-help books or motivational quotes on the Internet. What I am mentioning here is how they really get into your mind, how they really awaken the deepest corner inside your mind and how your mind can control your thoughts to trigger your actions. I used to read many books during the period, attend to many personal development courses in hopes being more positive and finding the light at the end of tunnel. However, it did not work. It only worked at the moment I read and experienced, when I came home, all the bitter reality of how I had lost just flooded into my mind and washed everything – yes EVERYTHING- in positive vibes away *lol*

So, what changes me to become a better version of me? It was when my therapist called me over two hours for personal coaching with thousands of questions for me to answer and discover myself deeper. As I started to see my value, fortune and good conditions that I possess, I no longer focused on what I lost and how unfortunate I was. Then all the knowledge that I read, watched and learned from those courses became so powerful to easily flow into my mind and magically control my thoughts in a positive vibe. 

I am learning from my mistakes, forgiving myself to become better, focusing on good things and especially holding a journal to express my gratitude to the universe for not leaving me alone to fight on this battle. As destiny, I always encounter good people in the worst situation no matter what.

Being mature is tough, yet the process to change is interesting and memorable. Some day I will look back and feel proud of how strong I was to get through all of it. 

Today, to be perfectly honest, my phone screen was broken and it takes 2 million VND to have it fixed. The amazing news was I did not stay there to cry and feel bad about my situation but focused only on what I had so far. I feel blessed! No matter how many more shits this life would throw at my face, I will be grateful to collect them all in order to fertilize my beautiful flowers in the garden of soul. 

"Everything always get worst before it becomes better." :)

Love,

Hal