Bye bye June!

This quote is meaningful enough  for today :)

I'm totally okay.

The last day of June...

... July, please be awesome to me!

SUMMER TIME!!!

[...]

 mình thật sự mong muốn mọi thứ sẽ khác đi.

nhưng chắc có lẽ là không được rồi.

mình không muốn trở thành friend for benefits cả ai nữa.

tốt nhất nên quy về một mối là acquaintanceship đi cho dễ hiểu.

ai đã thân thì sẽ mãi là thân. ai đã thương mình thì sẽ mãi là thương mình. ai không hiểu sẽ vẫn là không hiểu. ai hời hợt suốt đời sẽ vẫn là hời hợt.

ừ, mình trẻ con đấy. rồi sao nào?!

mình bị buồn. mình khóc vì cảm thấy quá ư là tủi thân và thất vọng, hụt hẫng. nhưng giờ thì xong rồi đấy. nghĩ tới nghĩ lui từ bé tới lớn chẳng biết làm gì nên tội toàn gặp những chuyện như này.

hông đáng hông đáng :P cứ cho là luật nhân quả với bù trừ đi rồi lại lạc quan lên mà sống nhé nhé nhé :D

ừa ^^~ hì hì

đấy!

bài học "sao cũng được" của bé tới đây là kết thúc :')

vài tiếng nữa trời lại tươi sáng đáng yêu. ngủ đi, thức dậy lại thấy chân lý ngay í mà :x

yêu,

Hal

Depression

For a moment, I supposed today would be a great day after taking the last examination and I would be totally free and happy since then. However I was absolutely wrong for it was the worst day I had ever had in June.

I do not deny that I'm weeping while typing these lines, yet I certainly declare that this is the last time my tears drop for someone else. People in the world are so ridiculous, they ask from me too much but never tend to pay me back for nuts. 

You may consider me such a shallow selfish bitch. If my love and kindness are free to give, I also expect the same thing from others as well. I am also a human being. I am neither angel nor superman that only gives and never needs to get.

God..I am tired. So tired that I do not want to say anything but smile to let it go easily. It hurts me. Yes, I'm kind of needy. I need love from my friends, from beloved people and I'm not ready to see them changing so fast this way.

They say to me that I'm immature. Although I have been in twenties, my behaviours and emtions always involve those of a mere kid with an impulsive heart. I'm stubborn. I'm selfish. I'm sensitive. I'm angry. I cry for little things and smile again if someone comforts me by sweet words. I'm childish. I'm silly. I'm naive. I'm stupid. My attitude is wrong. I have never done anything right. I'm talkative. I complain. I'm crazy. I make others tired and bored. I hate people. I love people. I care people. I set my heart too much on people. I treat them so nice as if I'm such a fool. 

What's wrong with this 20-year-old kid? Ain't it bad if I'm still a kid? A kid is always a good creature. However, the thing is he ain't capable of perceiving how ugly the big world out there is; therefore, he fails to control his attitude to fix some fake manners that all the people in adult world already know. Then is this the point?

I feel so sorry if I do not understand your world, guys. Yup, I'm really childish :) But this is who I am. No matter how hard I have been attempting to adapt your adult world, it turns out to be so strange and fake to me that I feel out of it. 

Dearies, I can't be serious. I love making jokes and cracking others up. Sometimes I have manners dictated by feeling and only care about my emotions. Things would always be a beautiful mess if I touch them. Even though everything I do is wrong at all, I'm proud of myself. At least I do not lead a life of vice and there is nothing as a big shame on me so far.

I don't cheat on people. I don't betray them. I'm harmless.

Let's see what they have done to me. I can't bear it.

From now on, I will be different :) Offically I've turned off my emotions *beep beep*

Whatever =] I don't care. Laugh and laugh like who cares :))

Be strong and don't let anyone else see this weak side, ok?! ^^~ Smile and this too shall pass. I think from this moment on, I'm not gonna be scared anything else again.

Peace,

~Hal

June 30th, 2012 : I cried for friends because I thought I didn't deserve it after everything I'd prepared for their birthday party.

June 30th, 2013: I cried for friends because they were not like what I had expected :)

... but June 30th, 2014: no more tears. I swear.

June 28th

Coolah~ I'm gonna take the last exam of this tern tmr morning. Summer break, here I come!!!

I've already got an amazing plans in July. Hopefully everything will run well :') I'm so excited to greet this summer wholeheartedly.

Well, just wanna sigh a bit because I'm seriously ill lately :( I used to spend tough years during childhood with pills, doctors and endless sleep. Therefore, I'm really afraid of taking any pill into my body at the present.

Last night, mom forced me to take some despite myself, and the consequence of it was that I slept 'till 10 am this morning. Felt so dead tired and worn out that I nearly wished to lie in my bed forever.

God bless me!

It's better just now. Luckly my strength has come back to me for a while, and I guess I'd be sound of mind during more few hours to cram enough lessons into the dull brain for the exam tmr.

Fighting, babe :*

Hal

Kệ đi :D

Okay, khó khăn lắm mình mới quyết định được là hông có đi gặp bản nữa.

Chắc gặp hay không đối với mình quan trọng nhưng đối với người ta thì hơm có ý nghĩa gì.

Chắc mình cũng quen rồi kiểu mấy năm trời không có gặp ớ.

Chắc mình cũng quen rồi kiểu cứ bị bản làm tổn thương nhiều như này ớ.

Chắc mình cũng kiểu sợ bị này nọ ớ.

Ôi thà là cứ chẳng biết gì chuyện bản về rồi kệ xác mọi thứ thì chắc vấn đề sẽ được đẹp đẽ sáng sủa hơn nhiều lắm đó.

Thôi cứ kệ!

Bị trêu đùa lần này nữa cũng có có sao đâu. Khóc lóc làm gì. Vô lý quá.

Kệ!

Ừ thì mình kệ :))

Uổng công mình lúc nào cũng đặt bản vào cái vị trí quan trọng đối với mình =]

Thấy bản toàn cứ quan trọng ai đâu, còn mình thì như nào?

Như nào thì liên quan gì mình.

Kệ!

:)

Chẳng cần gặp nữa...

Sunday, June 23rd, '13

Mình hơi bị buồn một vài người với cả buồn và thất vọng bản thân mình nhiều quá.

Hôm nay mình thi tốt. ~ Vậy là còn đúng một môn nữa là xong kì thi luôn rồi :) Háo hức vô SG dễ sợ luôn í :p

Hôm nay mình lại làm mất đồ. Lúc nào cũng hậu đậu, vụng về lại mắc cái bệnh mau quên nữa. Bữa giờ mất cũng cả đống thứ rồi :(

Hồi chiều sang nhà bff mà khóc một trận nên thân luôn. Xong rồi được ăn kem sầu riêng cho bớt sầu cả được ăn bánh nữa.

Nói chung là sau trận hôm nay đã nhận ra được vài thứ hay ho.

Thôi, hôm nay cho mình relax một xíu đã. Bây giờ đi học tiếng Pháp xong rồi coi hoạt hình giải tỏa :D Hông có bị buồn gì nữa nhé!

Ngoan,

*ôm ôm*

To love a busy man

Should I still keep the statement of staying by his side no matter how much busy he is?

Since he had come back to Vietnam, I supposed he would take a rest here during this summer break. However, everything does not seem to change in the least because he is still on the go with something so damn crazy with Boeing company :)

When he was still a student in MIT, he was so fucking busy.

Now he works, he still keeps being busy all the time.

Maybe it's the only matter between us. Well, I have no right to say so because I'm no longer his gf, but I partly want to worry and care for him as much as I can. I'm scared that his health would be influenced, that he wouldn't spend enough time with his own life, that he wouldn't be happy, that he wouldn't take time for getting another girlfriend, that he wouldn't know nothing out of his work, that he would become a workaholic.

Do you think it's so awesome to have such a bf like that? Yes, I used to be proud of him, yet it's not that what I want. Sometimes I wish he could be a normal person, then everything wouldn't be out of my reach :)

Basically we share no common things. 

I hate busy people. I hate people working and working round the clock. What if they neglect their family and simple a real life one day that he's got?

Ambition is a precious key to open the door of dreams. I have one, too :) My family is always the first thing in my list nevertheless. I can throw everything at once if my family need me, even it would exchange my efforts in my whole life for I bet I can't do anything without them.

Such a busy man like that, would he give up his work for his wife and children's sake? would he try taking a few days off to stay at home with his family? would he make the most of his leisure to fly back home immediately to see his beloved people? would he...?

Am I selfish?

I had to be PATIENT and SYMPATHETIC :D I had been learning to understand him for more than four years, ain't it enough? Has he ever thought of me in his mind? Or only business is the most important thing?

Yup, I'm deducing. I'm sensitive. I'm crazy. I'm such a fool. I'm a grumbler. I'm messing around his life. I'm a meddler.

I'm really sorry, dear!

Although I'm not his gf anymore, I've still been getting anxious about his health and life for I have no right to ask "are you ok today?" as usual.

This is the last time I mention him in this blog. I'm done. Need to have a clear-cut stand :D If he loves me enough, I believe he would change somewhat :) Anw, I doubt it :p

=] Btw tomorrow is Sunday, and I'm gonna take a writing exam la la la~ Okay, I'm off to take a rest right now.

Love,

- Hal

Sick enough to die

(love this photo from Cherry babe :x )

I found the way to let you leave.

I never really had it coming.

I can't believe the sign of you.

I want you to stay away from my heart.

Là là lá la la là lá la ~

Upside down

If only I could own a heart made by stone :)

I have no idea what's wrong with my feelings at the moment, yet it's certainly not right at all for the sake of my ex bf's coming back. 

My gut tells me that he's just a gigantic obsession which I've been carrying on for such a long period of time. 

We loved

We broke up

We kept silence for months

We came back together

We pended

We waited

We believe in fate

We lost

:)

And now?

I feel so blank...

God, he's been back. How can't I cool it down and meet him as old friends?

Half of me asks me to do. Another stops me from those thoughts with fears.

What if I would fall in love with that guy again? The guy who dares to leave in me some endless scars and pains :)

I dunno...

How much different between him of the present and him of the past???

More than four years!

It's just short for someone growing up and acknowledging the world. But it's too long for someone hiding everything in her heart and waiting for another's return.

Anw, it was over. Thus I will try to balance it and for this time, I'm not gonna run away but facing it instead.

:)) 

I'm strong atm :D but I'm not sure that I can keep calm and stay strong like this way when seeing his face lolz~

Boy, you're turning me upside down LOL

Something not right!!!

Mai mình đi thi đó nha. Tự nhiên giờ lại biết tin Gấu mặp đã về Việt Nam, mọi thứ bây giờ hoang mang tè lè hết cả ra rồi.

Hồi Tết là đã về hụt, mình cũng bị hụt hẫng trong vô vọng các thứ :))

Mình bị buồn cười cực í. Dù gì giờ mình với bạn ấy cũng chỉ là ex cả nhau, nhưng sao tự nhiên nghe cái tin này thấy tin gan phèo phổi lẫn lộn trăm mối các thứ, tay chân cũng tê cóng lạnh ngắt. Nói chung là não bộ hông có phát triển tập trung gì được nữa.

Mình bị sao ấy =]

Chắc kiểu như cái khoảng thời gian mình đợi bạn ấy tính bằng năm, nó quá ư là dài. Bao nhiêu là thứ, bao nhiêu là vui buồn rồi đắng với chả ngọt, tự nhiên bây giờ sắp gặp bạn ấy bằng xương bằng thịt thì bị xốn xang, lúng túng, confused abc các thứ mà mình cũng không biết nói sao nữa.

Nói chung là mình bị run cmnr =] Như chuẩn bị lên xe bông về nhà chồng hay là ra mắt nhạc phụ đại nhân các kiểu.

Ừ mình bị khùng. Mình biết là không có nên như thế này.

Mình nửa muốn gặp, nửa muốn trốn tránh.

Mình muốn gặp vì tim mình nó bảo thế.

Mình không muốn gặp vì mình sợ đủ thứ.

Mình sợ mình sẽ fall for him again. Mình sợ mình sẽ ko dứt khoát với bản thân mình được nữa. Mình sợ mình sẽ lại hậu đậu vụng về, làm loạn lên mọi thứ. Mình sợ mình với bạn ấy xa quá, lúc bạn ấy đi mình với bản chỉ là học sinh bây giờ bạn ấy về bạn ấy là kĩ sư còn mình vẫn chẳng là gì cả. Mình sợ mình sẽ không biết phải nói gì, phải làm gì. Mình sợ mọi chuyện sẽ rối lên rồi mình không có làm gì được =]

Nói chung thì mình chỉ định hè là vào SG gặp gỡ các tình yêu của mình thôi, do hè này nhiều tình yêu về nước lắm lựng. Nhưng kiểu như mình không có bao giờ để ý gì bề ngoài cả =]

Giờ thì mụn rồi tóc mới sởn cụt ngủn gớm òm như con tua tủa :((

Thôi kệ! Mình bị vô lý vãi chưởng =)) Mắc mới gì mình bị như vậy... Tự nhiên đi đâm đầu lo chuyện thế này thế kia.

Vớ vẩn!

Lâu rồi Hallie không có đụng vào chuyện con tim nên bây giờ đâm ra dở hơi cực :D

Mai thi tốt nhóe cưng,

jub jub jub 

Hal

Flu

Bless me...

Dammit! I suppose I can't bear with this kind of climate anymore.

Argh....I've caught a cold due to a sudden change in the weather outside these days. It's extremely hot in the morning, the temperature rises to 33*C while dropping below 25*C in the evening as if there were a storm approaching to the city.

Like it's summer in the morning and winter in the evening that lasts until the midnight. Well, I'm the type of person adapting harsh evironment very quickly, but this time it's out of my ability.

My temperature is increasing to 39*C, and there is no sign of decreasing a little bit since this afternoon *frown* Getting lazy on my bed ain't sound good at all for I have a ton of other lessons to cram for my exams ahead.

What should I do now? I can't breathe or do anything wait for a miracle *sigh* Hix...

Oh my dear Lord, please help me to get better tmr...

My head is ache!!!! ARGH....my brain is frozen. How can I study with this blank brain?

Okay, calm down and take a deep breath :( It's gonna be fine :(

Take care,

Hal

Father's day, '13

A father is someone that...

holds your hand at the fair

makes sure you do what your mother says

holds back your hair when you are sick

brushes that hair when it is tangled because mother is too busy

lets you eat ice cream for breakfast

but only when mother is away

he walks you down the aisle and tells you everythings gonna be ok.

~*~*~*~

Happy Father's day :x

Even though you never say much, I know deep down inside you are the one who cares me the most and always watches me on every step of my life.

Sometimes we fight because I'm also stubborn like you are :') It's called "heredity", right?!  But I want to say to you that "I'm so obliged for having you in my life, papa. No matter how much I grow, I'm still your little princess in your eyes, nah?! Don't worry, I'm gonna become a better daughter that you're proud of. I promise" :D

Love,

~ Hal

06/15/13

Mau thật, quay qua quay lại đã vèo hết nửa tháng 6. Còn vài hôm nữa là đóng gói vào HCM nhún nhẩy với các tình yêu rồi. Hôm nay nghe ngóng đã biết có vài tình yêu to đùng đang trên đường bay về Việt Nam :') Vui thật!

Bữa giờ mới thi có 2 môn thôi. Nói chung là thi tốt =] Phải thừa nhận là vậy, không thì lại bảo mình làm màu các thứ. Kiểu như tốt thì nói tốt, chứ cái mặt ra lúc nào cũng nhăn nheo bảo không làm bài được mà phát ra điểm lại ở đâu đâu trên cao thì thiên hạ lại nói :3

Bữa giờ vui. Vui quá nên không có thời gian viết blog luôn. Dù trời mưa suốt ngày cứ như bão tố phong ba ở đâu ra ấy, nhưng mình vẫn sắp xếp đi hẹn hò với Heo Mọi được do nó mới về. Suốt ngày cứ than ôi sau này nhỡ mày đi nước ngoài luôn thì về tao chơi với ai rồi mày có quên tao không huhu =]

Sáng nay 2 con xách nhau đi chợ mua quần áo các thể loại. Mua được biết bao nhiêu là thứ xinh đẹp. 

Chắc mình cho nó luôn đôi cao gót của mình:-< Mình chả bao giờ đi cao gót được cả. Đôi đó mang được đúng 1 lần lượn trong nhà rồi thôi vĩnh biệt luôn chẳng mang nữa. Đôi đầu tiên cũng là đôi cuối cùng mình tậu về, ăn theo bạn bè í.

Chắc mình chỉ hợp cả dép xẹp, giày búp bê với các loại giày thể thao thôi, dạo này còn đam mê giày Oxford ghê. Vầy mới tự tin ra đường được.

Sắp được tặng Binkini 2 mảnh, màu đỏ choe choét =))) Vác sang nước ngoài mặc được chứ mặc ở đây thể nào cũng nghe dị nghị :)) Mà mình nói nghe như kiểu sắp đi thật ấy nhỉ haha~

Hôm nay thứ bảy, trời đẹp. Sáng có mưa lất phất một tí nhưng giờ thì yên ắng rồi. Hy vọng lát tốt trời không mưa nữa cho mình đi ăn kem với bạn Minh :D

Tinh thần của một con nhỏ lạc quan =] Tinh thần của Choco Pie :D 

Yêu,

Hal

Rainny mood

It's been raining since the aftertoon...

I destest rain. Each time it's rain, my mood always switches off and gets wet anyhow; thefore, I'm just in want of staying at home, curling up in my warm and comfortable blanket, listening to piano instrumental music, reading Jane Austen's books and falling into sleep.

Maman often complains that I seem brimful of vitality no more. Talking like a machine, doing something wisely, hanging out with friends etc. - those activities can not possibly involve me in the least on rainy days. In other words, I only stay at home and do nothing like a lazy kitten...How useless I am!

Today was not an exception. It's rainning...then I canceled the date with my friends tonight for disliking getting wet from the first steps outside. 

*sneeze* bless me!!!

Br...what's wrong with this kind of odd climate? It's summertime, not winter @.@ Why does it rain? Why not snow instead? I hate getting wet or being trapped such a wet mood like this *sigh*

Okay, ask God and stop these stupid questions! Kinda outta my mind...blame it on the rain *sigh again*

At least, maman bought me a chocolate pie on the way home from work :') I'm abt to have full of it right away he he~ 

My beloved people always understand me that much. When I'm in a bad mood, cake or ice-cream would be the best medicine to blow my sorrows away. Ain't this easy?! well, sounds like a child, eh?...but it works magically I swear :D

With no warning, I miss my best friend so much :p As I bursted into tears for my stolen mobile phone on the street, he left me there and drive around the city to buy me an ice-cream  despite the midnight =] I couldn't believe that he could use ice-cream to make me forget the mobile phone lolz~ Anw, it was a nice memory, nah!

Yummy yummy~

Have fun,

Hal

PS: I wish to behold a double rainbows once more time...*sneeze* It's extremely magnificent!!! *sneeze part 3* Doctors are likely calling me to have a health check for sure =.=

my country - my pride (?)

It came to my despair as reading the news on fb unintentionally about a sign in Japan for forbidding only Vietnamese in a threatening tone.

Actually I have no idea how badly Vietnamese people have behaved in other countries so that several places get these negative preconceptions about Vietnamese like this.

Sometimes I'm proud of being a Vietnamese - with more thousand years of history and diversified cultures. Deep down in my heart, I do appreciate traditional Vietnamese women with the great personalities: diligence, three subjections and four virtues of a woman.

Even though I have European lifestyle strongly in my mind, I always remind myself to take pride in possessing an Asian heart  with Vietnamese traditional qualifications of a woman as well.

However, the more I'm confronted with many problems by a small number of young people nowadays, the more I feel disappointed and I just want to hide the truth that I'm Vietnamese as well for the fear of suffering racial discrimination.

Well, foreigners do not certainly discriminate us for the country's sake but our bad behaviours in their nations.

Foreigners, as a matter of fact,  admire Vietnamese for some fascinating reasons that my country brings to their knownledge of the depth of glorious history throughout wars. Besides, they also get sick of negative manners while dealing with Vietnamese.

For one moment, I could see a thief snatching a visitor on the street and running while nobody likely intended to care about that. At that time, a reasonable idea flashed in my mind to figure out the weird manner that Stephanie - my Germany friend had showed me at our first meeting. She said to me that there were so many people warning her to be viligant while visiting Vietnam for they would act like these and those blah blah bad things ~

I smiled bitterly and explained that not everyone in Vietnam has to be exactly the same ways that people have marked. There's a fly in the ointment, one rotten apple spoils the barrel :)

Vietnam is so famous in the world, neh?! But what sort of reputation is it supposed to establish? What  Vietnamese people have achieved so far in other countries will be ruined by some minor elements due to the fact that ill fame often speards more and more widely than good fame, as I know.

*sigh* I can see some Vietnamese swear like a trooper on Internet or even on the streets and brutally criticize thoughts or ideas that, if not following their minds, would be something wrong, weird and disgusting.

Okay, I'm done with this.

Vietnam is my native soil. I swear I'd think of sticking my ass to this country in order to aid in building it as one of the best places in the world. Sadly, my ideal and enthusiasm have gone already since I'm just an useless element with neither weapon nor spirit no longer.

I gave up. Totally I do. Hopeless! lolz~

With love,

- Hal

Obstacle of life

People really seem to change their characters when they are going to reach for the stage between childhood and adulthood.

Actually I have no idea if my friends and even myself are so different from the old ones because of living apart from home or simply when people grow up, they think and do differently.

Meeting again the old friends since high school, each has their own lives; yet they are kinda weird and get lots of difficult matters in fact.

So do I. However, I've took a long time to control everything...in the mean time, my friends tend to run away instead of dealing with it. And since they do thus, they will definitely face others.

What if we must run away over and over again? How much longer will you hide and leave troubles behind your back?

My choice is always making clear troubles up, balancing my life by smiles. Well, smiles are the best medicine in the world to soothe my head each time all the damn things are over of my suffering.

Hope it will be easy to them and to me!

The Sea Festival '13

*phew* I've just got home from the beach after joining the huge crowd due to the opening ceremony of The Sea Festival 2013. These days, my classmates and I were so excited to celebrate this event with not only the locals but also foreigners.

Actually I meant to become a volunteer for this event a few days ago, but I stopped the thoughts for being on the go like crazy. In addition, I still have upcoming final examinations ahead; then I'd better not prove myself as a superman anymore hak.

Hihi there are numberless festivals and traditional games included: exhibitions, fairs, Asia hot balloons, Vespa march, poetry festival, culinary festival, street festival, competitions of cuisine, floral art, press award and blah blah things~ 

On the way to school, I could see a lot of activities happening on the beach, yet I just ignored them for the sake of my study.

Anyway, I've eventually been settled at the stage of revising for my exam within a double weeks :') That's why I could spend my spare time today on the biggest festival of my city. He he ~ I'm so proud of it.

It was such an amazing night as I could stare at fireworks again after months since New Year's Eve. For some reasons, my heart always races each time I see fireworks like this. 

People say fireworks that only shines brightly for a moment and fade away...it's just like our lives. However, in my opinion, life is really short. Why don't we just shine brightly once for ever? Even though it's for a shor time, it will remain in our heart eternally. Ain't it good, eh?!

Fortunately, I could see fireworks more than twice tonight that made me completely happy inly anyhow. At that time, I made a wish that life would get easier to me for I'm looking for something really peaceful and safe during the summer break. 

By the way, I can smell the scent of summer today ='p it's so delicate and...infinite!

PS: Why "sea festival" not "beach festival"????

Pains and the past

No one could ever forget their wounds from the past, but we have to learn to live with them without feeling any pain.

Just let the wounds be our teachers to teach us to have conscience. All kind of problems could be solved if only we have conscience :)

Other could only screech just a wound or two into our lives. However, if we choose to keep remembering and think about them always, it'll be us that keep screeching the same wound over and over. And finally, we'll die along with them.

Just choose between staying with the past or walk across it because no one could help us if we don't help ourselves.

"If you don't fight by yourself, nobody's gonna help you"

06/06/13

Bữa nay học xong là được nghỉ ngơi nằm nhà ôn thi :') Sướng vật vã.

Bé nó đã nộp quyển tiểu luận "Tư Tưởng Hồ Chí Minh" chép tay 10 mấy trang rồi cũng có điểm kiểm tra roài. Nói chung là 9đ lận nên cũng có hi vọng môn này giựt nổi Tiếng Việt với Cơ sở văn hóa VN lên được một tẹo. 

Xong rồi chạy qua đi kiểm tra môn Writing. Con người nhiều chuyện sao thì bài viết nó thể hiện vậy. Đề cho em nó khoảng 180 từ mà viết gần 300 từ, thế nào cũng bị trừ bớt điểm. Nhục chưa :-<

Chẳng hiểu lúc đó như nào mà lắm chữ lắm ý tưởng thế, viết mãi vẫn thấy chưa đủ ý nên cứ muốn viết tiếp mãi. Trong khi hôm nọ đi kiểm tra Cơ sở văn hóa Việt Nam viết tiếng Việt đó thì nặn mãi chẳng biết phải viết như nào.

Mình bị khùng. Càng ngày càng không hiểu nổi đầu óc mình bị sao nữa, kiểu dở hơi như nào í. Mà vấn đề cứ loanh quoanh cái chiện tiếng Anh với tiếng Việt rạch ròi thế nhỉ???

Uả mà mình viết vầy là sao? :|

Thôi nói chung là giờ cứ thư thả đong đưa đi, thời gian ôn thi cũng sẽ là thời gian được rì lắc một tí cho não nó thông.

Ngày mai quay lại con đường nhạc nhẽo :') Piano piano là lá la~

Viet and Eng writing

I did two final tests today: one in Eng and another in Vietnamese. Obviously the English test was better than Vietnamese one thousand times anyhow. 

You can compare the high sky above and the deep abyss because my English test nearly reached the peak while the subject "Basic Vietnamese culture" was such a beautiful mess that no words could possibly describe how terrible it was.

However, I'm still glad with what I've achieved so far. All my continuing efforts for English will surely  go along with poor Vietnamese stuff blah blah~ 

Well, I intended to study hard "Basic Vietnamese culture" subject last night which brought me sufficient knowledge to write an essay as the final test this morning.

But the fact that I couldn't explain my thoughts in Vietnamese smoothly as my wish. From my sentences to each words within, I used it so fucking awkwardly and badly that it gave me a fright as reviewing what I'd written =]

In reality, my capacity to explain really sucks. Thus I often have to explain and tell people twice what I mean for it's hard to get me at first.

Yup, it's my shortcoming.

According to the way of expression in Vietnamese, I must need equivocation before jumping to the main point that contribute to my hardship.

Perhaps it's the reason why I regularly use English to confide or discuss something serious with my best friends; and I think it's quite good to run my thoughts out of my mind :)

Sadly, it's become a severe problem to me while I'm still studying and living in Vietnamese environment.

I love Vietnamese when I'm about to write fiction or something; yet it would be the worst disater if I use them to explain or describe something in a formal essay -.-

Gosh... tell me what to do?!

These Vietnamese subjects are dragging my outcome to hell *sigh* I'm truly scared :( Dunno what's gonna happen next with my upcoming examinations in this month *palming my face*

Okie, grumble enough. It's the balance of life, so just smile and everything will go :D

I gotta head back to Ho Chi Minh's thought essay (omg 14 pages totally) :') Hopefully the lovely teacher will understand what I tried to write about him - a great man.

Nice week,

~ Hal

Gift from Macro book

(The "gift" of International Children's Day from my friend on her Macro book lolz~)

Although there was some little problems with my mom this morning, at the moment I'm feeling completely happy and smiling brightly as ever. 

Perhaps this result came from a few funny and awesome presents that I've got from my beloved people today :') bear stuff from my A2, a song by bro.James as singer, a super cute hat from bff and two pictures from Kim's book lolz~

Actually my friend and I are playing around the status "we've got married" on facebook based on our favorite Thai movie "Yes or No, So I love you". She is Kim and I'm Pie ~ The couple - Tina & Aom's chemistry in the movie not only did melt our heart away but aslo fill our mind so sweetly that causes us to go so fucking crazy towards it ='p 

Last night, we both watched the very movie together again (at the same time, we pushed the button play). It was like we shouted as each scene Kim and Pie did something romantic blah blah~ 

Basically I had fun and felt good because my beloved people still remembered me today no matter how much busy they were :x Presents ain't important but their concern about me, eh?!

Bonus: 

In "Yes or No, So I love you" movie, there is a touching quote like this "If we love someone, we'll feel like there are hundred of butterflies flying in our stomach." However, my friend and I decided to make our story thanks to dolphin, not butterflies. Then our story would begin from the symbol of dolphin and the sea lolz~ just kidding =]

It took us hours to come up with those sentences " One day, the ocean brought us love above the dolphin's fin. Our story began..." Another one from the picture dolphin in Macroeconomic book was my friend "work" =] my Kim :3

A couple pictures in her book and our just-for-laugh relationship status on fb today really made my day *flying heart* It's funny and awesome.

Anw, hopefully the movie will carry on the next part because I believe there are a bunch of fans out there in Asia counting down each day to long for this "Yes or No" part 3. It's super super cute movie I've ever watched *jub jub*

Honestly, I can't stop laughing and rolling on the floor because of those pictures in her books. While studying, she must have missed me so much that wrote something so freaking "romantic" like that ha ha ha ha

Love ya all,

~ Hal a.k.a the second Pie he he

Tired :))

Nhiều khi thật sự là cũng hông biết muốn cái gì nữa luôn =]

Cả tuần lễ toàn ở ngoài đường, chạy tới chạy lui cả ngày chẳng bao giờ ló mặt về nhà. Được ngày cuối tuần ở nhà thì toàn bị nói này nói nọ.

Ok, mình vừa làm mất đồ. Nên bị chửi là bất cẩn, đầu óc để đâu đâu blah blah các thứ~

Mình bị đau đầu ghê. Nói chung là nguyên ngày hôm qua tới giờ mình thiệt sự quá quá mệt rồi, chẳng muốn phải suy nghĩ hay phải ngồi nghe toàn lời trách mắng của maman.

Thứ gì vào tay mình mà chẳng mất. Người mình còn giữ không được thì huống gì đồ đạc các thứ =] Ừ, trước giờ mình chẳng giữ được cái gì cả :-j

Thật sự thì dạo này mình cứ như đang phiêu, người lâng lâng bềnh bồng chả hiểu cái quái gì đang xảy ra nữa. Kiểu như đừ quá í, làm việc gì cũng lượn lờ các thứ chứ không còn sức lực nào để mà nghĩ nữa. Thành ra mất đồ gì mất khi nào mình cũng chẳng biết, tới lúc maman hỏi thì ngơ ra chẳng biết trả lời như nào.

Sao mệt quá.

Tóm lại là nhiều khi có cái suy nghĩ phi thường là bỏ tất cả mọi thứ vào chùa tu cho rồi :) Khỏi phải lo cả ai, khỏi phải làm siêu nhơn cho ai, khỏi phải nghĩ ngợi nhiều, khỏi phải làm mất đồ, khỏi phải lâu lâu bị stress như này.

Ước gì có ai làm siêu nhơn cho mình. Ước gì có đứa hiểu là mình mệt đến thế nào. Ừ mà hiểu mình rồi sao? Làm gì được cho mình đâu? Tốt nhất là đừng lèm bèm cả ai vì vấn đề của mình cũng chẳng ai giải quyết dùm mình được. Thôi vậy.

Hì hì

Con người thật mâu thuẫn. Lúc nào cũng tha thứ nhân ái các kiểu, nhưng đụng chuyện gì kiểu gì cũng lôi toàn bộ những chuyện xưa như quả đất ra lại bắt đầu làm khổ nhai. Mình không phủ nhận là khi mình tha thứ cho ai, mình cũng sẽ không bao giờ quên chuyện cũ. Nhưng chỉ là không quên thôi, chứ không phải lúc có gì không vừa ý thì sẽ lại lôi chuyện cũ ra nhắc :) Đã bỏ qua thì sẽ không nhắc nữa.

Nhưng đâu phải ai cũng nghĩ giống mình =]