To love a busy man

Should I still keep the statement of staying by his side no matter how much busy he is?

Since he had come back to Vietnam, I supposed he would take a rest here during this summer break. However, everything does not seem to change in the least because he is still on the go with something so damn crazy with Boeing company :)

When he was still a student in MIT, he was so fucking busy.

Now he works, he still keeps being busy all the time.

Maybe it's the only matter between us. Well, I have no right to say so because I'm no longer his gf, but I partly want to worry and care for him as much as I can. I'm scared that his health would be influenced, that he wouldn't spend enough time with his own life, that he wouldn't be happy, that he wouldn't take time for getting another girlfriend, that he wouldn't know nothing out of his work, that he would become a workaholic.

Do you think it's so awesome to have such a bf like that? Yes, I used to be proud of him, yet it's not that what I want. Sometimes I wish he could be a normal person, then everything wouldn't be out of my reach :)

Basically we share no common things. 

I hate busy people. I hate people working and working round the clock. What if they neglect their family and simple a real life one day that he's got?

Ambition is a precious key to open the door of dreams. I have one, too :) My family is always the first thing in my list nevertheless. I can throw everything at once if my family need me, even it would exchange my efforts in my whole life for I bet I can't do anything without them.

Such a busy man like that, would he give up his work for his wife and children's sake? would he try taking a few days off to stay at home with his family? would he make the most of his leisure to fly back home immediately to see his beloved people? would he...?

Am I selfish?

I had to be PATIENT and SYMPATHETIC :D I had been learning to understand him for more than four years, ain't it enough? Has he ever thought of me in his mind? Or only business is the most important thing?

Yup, I'm deducing. I'm sensitive. I'm crazy. I'm such a fool. I'm a grumbler. I'm messing around his life. I'm a meddler.

I'm really sorry, dear!

Although I'm not his gf anymore, I've still been getting anxious about his health and life for I have no right to ask "are you ok today?" as usual.

This is the last time I mention him in this blog. I'm done. Need to have a clear-cut stand :D If he loves me enough, I believe he would change somewhat :) Anw, I doubt it :p

=] Btw tomorrow is Sunday, and I'm gonna take a writing exam la la la~ Okay, I'm off to take a rest right now.

Love,

- Hal