Upside down

If only I could own a heart made by stone :)

I have no idea what's wrong with my feelings at the moment, yet it's certainly not right at all for the sake of my ex bf's coming back. 

My gut tells me that he's just a gigantic obsession which I've been carrying on for such a long period of time. 

We loved

We broke up

We kept silence for months

We came back together

We pended

We waited

We believe in fate

We lost

:)

And now?

I feel so blank...

God, he's been back. How can't I cool it down and meet him as old friends?

Half of me asks me to do. Another stops me from those thoughts with fears.

What if I would fall in love with that guy again? The guy who dares to leave in me some endless scars and pains :)

I dunno...

How much different between him of the present and him of the past???

More than four years!

It's just short for someone growing up and acknowledging the world. But it's too long for someone hiding everything in her heart and waiting for another's return.

Anw, it was over. Thus I will try to balance it and for this time, I'm not gonna run away but facing it instead.

:)) 

I'm strong atm :D but I'm not sure that I can keep calm and stay strong like this way when seeing his face lolz~

Boy, you're turning me upside down LOL