Chủ nhật mưa...

Hôm nay Chủ nhật mà trời mưa to quá, phát ốm với loại thời tiết như này vì khiến con người uể oải chậm chạp và chỉ muốn nằm ườn trong phòng quấn chăn ngủ thôi chứ chẳng buồn ra đường nữa.

Nhưng cuối cùng mình vẫn phải ra đường để mua vé xem phim Dr.Strange cho ngày mai đi cùng papa. Bản thân mình không thích thể loại siêu anh hùng hay kỹ xảo ảo lòi bao giờ, nhưng vì anh Ben thương yêu của trái tim đóng vai chính nên không thể không đi xem được :")

Lúc mua về thì người ướt sũng vì mắc mưa nhưng vẫn vui vì đã mua được 2 vé do ngày mai là ngày khuyến mãi nên người ta mua khá nhiều í. Cầm hai vé mà lòng sung sướng vì mua được chỗ không phải là tồi nên vui.

Hôm nay nhà mình mới mang về một em chó xù khá xinh xẻo tên Bên =)) Ôi đau đầu quá đi vi sao lai lay ten Ben dat cho cho the nay co chu :') Hi vong no khong hung du va dang so nhu con cho den cu =.=

Chủ Nhật như này ảm đạm quá đi mất... lại còn nghe nhạc Adele thì thôi rồi :( Bf đã bay vào SG với mẹ để đi thăm gia đình anh trai, còn mình ở đây chóc ngóc chơ vơ nghe tiếng mưa rơi.

Thôi đi đọc truyện đây cho thấm.

Rainy day,

Hal

Birthday girl at 24

Twenty four years ago, I was born on the Earth and soon became the only light of happiness to my parents due to the fact that they have only one child who is me so far. Since then, it was such a tough and difficult time for them to foster me as a weak and skinny child being in pain and sickness most of the time back to my childhood. They took me to the doctor so usually that he remembered my name – the frequent little patient crying in fear for pills and injection. 

Days turn to weeks, weeks turn to months, months turn to years and now here I am – at the beginning of my 24th year of lifetime. I am grateful for having strength to move on despite those bad previous episodes that I struggled to get through in each bitter period.

Looking back to my sweet twenty three, my graduation from university and a full time job with high salary are the remarkable achievements in which I fully take pride for it has not been a rosy path leading to the success if you ever know about my history and how I struggle to overcome obstacles and pains in order to become this indestructible me today.

I celebrated my birthday party with my family and beloved one. Four of us dined out at a family-run restaurant, then returned to our house to lighten the candles on a fresh cream cake for me to blow out and make a wish, actually I made three wishes. Finally we took photographs to save those memories as the mark of another chapter in my life.

As a birthday girl, I promise to become more mature and reasonable in each consideration that I may make!

Happy birthday to me!!

Love,

Hal

Goodbye my 23rd

Đôi dòng tạm biệt tuổi 23 nhé!

Vậy là tôi chuẩn bị già đi một tuổi nữa rồi vì chỉ còn chưa đầy 2 tiếng nữa là sẽ sang tuổi 24. Chưa bao giờ tôi cảm giác rằng mình lớn lên nhiều đến thế, trưởng thành đến thế, trầm tĩnh và chững chạc đến thế này,

Có lẽ tuổi 23 chính là con số đánh dấu cho sự trưởng thành thật sự của tôi. Tôi đã trở thành một quý cô thật sự. Tôi biết điệu, biết nói chuyện khéo léo, biết cái gì nên và không nên nói, biết khi nào nên thành thật và khi nào buộc lòng phải sử dụng một tí xã giao.

Tôi đã lớn rồi. Chốn công sở phức tạp, xã hội hỗn loạn thì việc giữ mãi bản chất hiền lương vô tư thì tôi sẽ chẳng khác gì con ngốc cả, họ sẽ coi thường tôi và sẵn sàng dẫm đạp lên tôi mà bước tới.

Bây giờ tôi không phiền muộn nhiều, không nói nhiều, không tâm sự thổ lộ nỗi niềm nhiều mà tôi chỉ cười thật nhiều. Tôi bị đối xử không tốt, tôi cười vì tôi chẳng còn quan tâm lắm đến điều đó hay bận tâm suy nghĩ tôi đã làm gì sai để người khác làm vậy với tôi. Tôi cười vì bây giờ tôi bình yên nhiều lắm, tôi không còn sân hận hay làm gì hại đến tinh thần của tôi. Tôi được đối xử tốt, tôi cười vì tôi đã đúng khi tin rằng cuộc đời này vẫn còn nhiều lắm những người tốt và tôi vẫn còn lòng tin vào con người.

Đi làm dạy tôi được nhiều thứ dù đây không phải là công việc mà tôi thật sự yêu thích. Nhưng nhờ nó, tôi có thể thực hiện được những điều mà tôi yêu thích trong thời gian ngắn hơn nếu tôi chuyển sang một câu việc mới. 

Tuổi 23 tôi mới bắt đầu nghiêm túc với những phím đàn piano từ những nốt Do Re Mi Fah Sol dù trước đây tôi cũng đã từng được các sơ chỉ dẫn tận tình. Tôi đã cho rằng mình quá tuổi học nhưng rồi tôi nhận ra rằng ước mơ không phân biệt tuổi tác, chỉ cần có đủ kiên trì thì tôi đều có thể học được.

Tôi bây giờ sống nhẹ nhàng, thanh thản và điềm nhiên nhiều. Chính tôi đôi khi cũng ngạc nhiên với điều đó cơ mà. Cuộc sống của tôi bây giờ bình thường, theo lời dạy của ba tôi thì bình thường chính là hạnh phúc rồi. Vì vậy tôi không tham cầu gì thêm cho cuộc sống nữa. Tôi đang cảm thấy đủ ='D

Gửi đến cô gái Hallie tuổi 24 xinh đẹp,

Hãy sống thật tốt và hạnh phúc thật sự nhé... tuổi xuân sắp qua đi rồi. Đời có bao nhiêu cái sinh nhật đâu để mà hững hờ.

Hôm nay tôi chỉ viết đến đây, mai tôi sẽ viết thật nhiều cho bản thân cô gái 24 nhé ^^~

Yêu cô,

Hal

PS: Sáng sớm mới đi làm đã được tặng một cái bánh kem thật xinh :") tôi quả là một cô gái may mắn :x

[Horro film] Ouija 2

My birthday is coming in two days but nobody seems to care about it. A few days ago, I received an early birthday gift from ss Sarah who always loves me no matter how far and how long we have been parted. That was the only sign of birthday coming all the way to me.

Each time when people are bound up to prepare for Halloween, it also means that my birthday is very near and horror films are waiting for me to enjoy the taste…all alone in an interesting way. I swear I have been out at times for horror movies especially in October as this is just a nice treat for me and I love it.

Two years ago, I went to the movie for “Ouija”. As far as I remember, of course I took a look on this blog too, this movie was good enough and caused me to get curious at the end, particularly regarding the history of haunted house where Debbie found the spirit board as known as Ouija. 

And now, to my pleasure, I was off for the “Ouija 2” tonight all alone again. I bet you may assume I am such a weirdo who would feel delightful and enjoy each moment watching an horror films by herself regardless of the surroundings with strangers. 

Due to the cardiovascular disease, my bf couldn’t go out with me for the movie and the absences of my best friends in this city are reasonable to explain my solitary. 

Well, I’m going to tell something briefly about the “Ouija 2”. There are many negative comments about it on Internet, though I hardly believe in those things. No standards would be set for a movie; it depends on each person’s taste of film. To some, it is mediocre and to others, it is extraordinary. If I had faith in those comments, I would have missed hundreds of good films so far. 

In comparison to the first part, I still prefer the first to the second. It often occurs to “sequel”, I guess. “Ouija 2” was exactly the answer for the first one in term of history of the haunted house. The whole story was just around the house: in the kitchen, the basement, the bedroom, the living room and on the side wall of staircase. Doris, overtaken by a merciless spirit, appeared to be indeed creepy. With her cold starting eyes on others, I was scared to dead haha just kidding!~ But I must admit the little young lady who casted the character Doris is really talented. There were a few impressing jumpscares sometimes which caused strange girls beside me to scream and start to weep for nothing. I was bothered by their noise =.=

*sigh* long time no write… my writing skill is worse than ever!!!

Gotta hit the hay now,

Lovely night!!!

Hal

Europe - The goal

Another hiatus since I started to work at an office like other adults would do after the graduation, though deep down inside me, there is always an appositive flow of thoughts that is urging me to change and live the life I’m yearning for. A life of journeys, discovery and freedom. A life that I can both make the best of me and earn savings from what I am genuinely good at in an interesting way. But at the end of the day, I’m still just an ordinary girl surrounded by those who would sit there for hours telling me what I am supposed to do, how fortunate I am to get the current job while millions of unemployed people are miserably searching for such a stable job with high salary like me, how entirely insane I would be if I leave this job to harbor these illusions which may potentially crash out my future. 

Sometimes I practically find it make sense for my life at the present is quite stable and would be permanently if I keep up this job for the rest of my life haha It means when I grow old, my hair turns grey, my eyes get blurred, I would sit in a room like a jail, live on a pension, have a lot of money that I have spent my whole life to save it and feeling dreadfully regretful for the passing youth that I didn’t dare to live to the fullest, the dream that I would never ever be able to catch even if I’m capable of “buying” the dream now. Yeah, it’s too late!! You only have one life to live and you can’t live twice, may be yes, albeit in my next incarnation, you would forget what you have missed in this life and continue to repeat that miserable circle. Who knows?!

Don’t gasp! I have already planned out the “route” to my beloved Europe within a month sooner or later regardless of any arguments that may occur with this decision. I am more than willing to tear out the cocoon as my safe zone for years due to my parents’ overprotective instincts and become a strong butterfly spreading its wing, flying straight to the European sky and indeed immersing its self into the infinite happiness that it has always been yearning for. 

I am fully aware of how dangerous it is and this must be the risk that I have to take, but I’d rather take the risk and see more of the world than tie my ass on the chair behind the wall and imagine how big this world out there would be. Basically I am a destiny believer, anything happens for a reason. If I was born to become an introvert, bound by the destiny to put myself “in jail” for life to lead such a normal and simple life like others, my 6th sense wouldn’t urge me this much and obviously I couldn’t encounter many interesting people and amazing friends telling me fairy tales about life in “the wonderful life”. I believe universe has brought to me these magical encounters to light up in me the idea of voyages. I comprehend neither the term fairy tales nor the wonderful life in Europe is true but it is beautiful in its way or at least, my guts tell me that I belong to that place where I should feel like duck in water.

Dear me, if you have faith in your dream, it will become true someday! Yes, someday..

Okay, get my ass back to work and keep on the uninspired work for now *frown* 

Love,

Hal

Keep it up, girl!

At times, I decided to shut down this blog and create a new one to make something fresh as changes for me but I finally casted the idea away. This blog has been my dearest invisible friend for years that would keep all the ups and downs in my previous life. From tears, fear, shame to happiness, sorrows. These must be the best also the worst memories carrying with me since I was that innocent little lady.

You know, I am no longer the old me – that dreamy girl who would spend hours looking at the sky, elbows on the windowsill, thinking about the Europe where there are endless green fields of flowers, cool air getting through my hair giving such a sense of paradise, where there are imposing mountains and impressive deep blue lakes that I could stand motionlessly and gaze at them to let myself immersed in the beauty of nature, where there are ancient buildings across the streets I could find myself travel to the past to which my soul always belong, as I said, I must have been born in the wrong era, where the weather is so damn freezing that I need to put on thick coats to keep warm. Yay, warmth is my favourite! 

The little dreamy girl is not here anymore, but instead there is a strong and mature lady who would put her efforts to make her dreams come true. She chose an inappropriate job to work and has been completed her probationary period. She keeps dealing with this tedious life without complaining because she is certain that this job and what she is doing will help her to carry on the plan to Europe. She learns how to accept what she doesn’t really love and how to treasure the present so that she may find the genuine happiness in life, in any period that she is.

She talks less but thinks more. The friend zone is limited because her time for herself is shortened too. Sometimes she finds herself in the middle of nowhere and too lonesome to bear it even though she has her boyfriend and family beside her all the time. Perhaps she has lost the value of time and unintentionally fallen into the rough circle that everybody is following. Working, going home, having dinner, sleeping and starting another the same day. Life is nothing but the same routine daily. 

She used to have fun with friends, real friends at parties but at the end of the day, she was still herself lonesome in the bedroom pouring down the thoughts on this blog because there would be nobody understanding or at least trying to know her, otherwise she didn’t want to show herself either. Becoming dramatic, so sensitive, weak, fragile and not halicious in front of others is such a shame to her.  Yes, she was stubborn and incomprehensible!

This girl at the present is still childish, clumsy and sensitive, but stronger than ever. Sometimes she may weep or burst into tears over such a trivial or worthless issue, and then she is recovered soon. She has learnt how to forgive and forget quickly so as to let her mind clear and free from rubbish.

She accepts herself as who she is because nobody is going to love her more than she does. She keeps doing the things that seem right to her and never means to give in unless it reaches to the limit of her endurance. She believes that someday she will be happy in making her dreams come true.

Instead of indulging in illusions, let make them lucid dreams in reality!

…

I have no idea what the future may hold but deep down inside, I still believe in the magic coming from ultimate faith in oneself.      

Love,

Hal

A high fever

Oh yeah my month greeted me with a high fever of 38*C. Yesterday, I started to feel uneasy at work because I couldn't do anything but laying my head on the desk and getting my headache as hell.  

I am always supposed to be as strong as a horse for I'm capable of being daily transferred within one hour and half from home to my office. No sooner had I put my feet on the ground, I went to either yoga class or piano class right off. Then I would have "fast" dinner and hang out with bf until the night and got home around half past nine.

Day by day, the circle merely runs and runs without any symptom of this fever. One day it comes and knocks me down this badly :'( I'm fully aware of the quote "Health is better than wealth" now!!!

You wouldn't love to do anything out of the fact that covering yourself on the bed and being suffered. It was such a night mare for you to lay awake all the night with a high temperature, an awful headache and nasal congestion. :(( I have to beat myself up for this illness, dear *frown*

Okay, hope I will be fine soon and return to the active life instead of lying on the bed all day and watching movies. Anw I actually love this condition somehow :') hehe~ I'm lazy lah :*

Stay well!

Hal 

PS: It's my pleasure to be treated like a little princess when I'm sick :') haha