I suddenly feel refreshed again after watching the movie “The jungle book” with my man today. It sounds weird but when difficulties turn me down or drive me crazy, the best method for me to calm me down is spending my leisure time in hanging around with him or sticking on the double seats in a movie box to share our movie-time. Somehow, time always seems to get frozen through the duration of the movie since the whole world outside is no longer troubled to us but the scenes on screen and we do get into the movie.
Speaking of the movie, by the way, it is a good one which is worth every penny you spend because of not only its content but also the message hidden in the final scene that almost moved me into tears.
Finally, after nearly two months of distress and tedious lesson plans, I am so glad to be certain to say that now I’m going to catch up the space for my life. I can hang out with bf, talk to him, share intimate time with him, begin to write down my thoughts, read books, learn and equip myself with what really inspires me.
However, it is not implied that teaching kids is tedious or something, in case you get me wrong. I actually applied for the English teacher position at the first place in excitement and much enthusiasm. Within the first two weeks, I fell in love with those little cute and tiny faces looking at me and keeping say “Goodbye, teacher Hallie” which sowed the seeds of sheer happiness at the thought that I would love to become a good teacher and make them the good citizens in the future. Well, it sounds great, isn’t it?!
*sigh*
Then came other uneasy elements and even the work environment that kicked me in the butt to help me aware of who I was and what kind of person I should become to please others. It is no longer as simple as a good and honest teacher would be. The increase workload, the deadlines, the colleagues, the lack of ideas, the white nights, the pressure :) Well, I literally went out of my mind and if I couldn’t have got my bf beside me to hold me back and calm me down, I would have been mad :))
Seriously I was capable of working under pressure, though I would never put me in a situation that is overly detrimental to my mental state of mind unless it is indeed necessary. Especially, in the work environment that I couldn’t find myself at easy to work, I would cease to struggle.
I perfectly comprehend the necessity of work, experience and certainly the monthly salary. The fact that I am such a weirdo in reality, it is obviously in the best form when I’m interested in something. In this case, I am ready to do my utmost!! Otherwise, oh NO! I’d rather take a nap and go to sleep right now lolz~
Yesterday was our 9th monthsary, he offered a book named “The art of calm” :’) He is really the anchor of my life :x Save me and stand with me even in the worst storm. I’m going to pore over the book right now.
Much love,
Hal
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