It has been a while since I was qualified for becoming an English teacher at a language center in the city. I have experienced the training course, worked and been confronted with many kinds of people there. Some are nice. Some are hypocrites. However, the real matter beyond all is the pressure of the work that I have to complete.
It seems to become such a damn nightmare which really depresses and dreadfully stresses me out. From dawn to dusk, that the very only thing crosses on my mind is my work. It haunts me like a ghost while the wage is not worth the effort.
Hence, it came to my final decision as I asked to quit the job within a few previous days, but my manager refused to accept it. Instead, she offered me any good conditions to keep it up because she had high expectations for me on the first days during my training course.
Well, I actually appreciated it but attempting to not hurt someone else means I have to hurt myself first. As still being a senior in the university, it is tough to work and study simultaneously in the best form. Besides, I have hardly spared a little time for myself doing my favourite things as I used to do, even the time to hang out with my bf has been limited sometimes.
I wonder how worse everything would become without help from him. He is like an anchor that calms me down, gives me an embrace to make sure that no matter what may happen, he will always be here for me. Oh God, I was almost lost and got out of my mind because of getting overwhelmed and worn-out.
Okay, my heart and mind are awfully heavy and tiring. It is uneasy to bear the same thing, same circle, same boring routine that I have to see every day. I need time to take a rest with bf, hold his hand tight, and feel relieved. Of course, I need time to write blog, read a book, listen to my playlist and feel free~
Nothing is worth if I am not happy :’(
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