What a relief! I have already completed my training course to become an official teacher after almost two months. The period of time offers me such priceless lessons about real life and experience in working with many kinds of people whose characters are also totally different.
Okay, the point is that I requested to work as a teaching assistant instead of becoming a teacher as my first intention despite spending a considerable amount of time for the training course. Some people may suppose that I have wasted my time for no reasons, yet the consequence is opposite. In my opinion, I have gained much more than mere basic teaching skills or experience in classroom control and teachers' matters.
To be perfectly honest, I was sunk in the email and multi-tasks day by day which seriously drove me crazy. I had several white nights to tackle all of the issues, make arrangements with a burning head :)) As a result, today my request for teaching assistant position was granted because my fly symptoms gave me every appropriate reason to withdraw from the position that manager was pushing me to take.
She expressed her regret at my decision this afternoon. It is indeed such a relief to me, though. Perhaps, I am not a workaholic at all. My health is the top priority, then comes time for my own life, I mean my family, boyfriend and myself, and finally the salary.
Back to the time I applied for the job, I got tremendously enthusiastic and excited to become the one who would be able to inspire and help the pupils get interested in the language like I do. Well, at least, they are just the little seeds of this generation. However, things are getting tiring and stressful day by day. Not only the pressure from work but also the negative mindset about colleagues has gradually made me step back and guard up.
I used to hear from my close friends about the work environment, where I would be not easy to find out a genuine friend as I could do at schools. People might be friendly but rarely honest as who they appeared to be. I didn't believe in it until the truth fell down and hit me that hard.
Whatever! They are always colleagues. Just colleagues. Not the type of people I can call "friends".
The more I'm growing up, the lonelier I'm feeling :') Time to take a break and take care of myself. Be me again ^^
Bless me!
Hal
PS: It's so great when I do not have to hear the "tink tink" from my email alert tone, "Dear Hallie,...." "Hallie, do this!" "Hallie, do that!" "Hallie, this week you have to work at..." "Teacher Hallie, you should do...." =)))) Oh man, my day-and-night mare! Seriously =.="
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