Pissed off

I'm up to run for a project since next week. It means that I'm going to throw myself to a hectic period for a few weeks ahead without any second to breathe and sleep as much as I have done in recent times.

Today was the first period, though my lecturer asked us to divide into ten groups which combines either two or three students in each one. Unfortunately, I was the student from another class registering this utter strange class to make my timetable flexible and logical; therefore, nobody was so out of the class like me and hoped to invite me to their groups even when I asked them.

Well, I'm confident to accomplish this project very well if I'm permitted to work it all on my own. I'd rather make a format, set up a plan in details and carry on without having to await someone else's speed as if I must put up another burden on my shoulder. 

The last semester, I did every assignment which was supposed to be the group's responsibility. However, none of them likely noticed of what they had to do as if completing those assignments had been my responsibility not theirs and they regarded it naturally that I did and they took the mark. 

They seemed unconscious of what I was making anything for their higher scores all alone like a fool, and untroubled to appreciate that. Damn it! This is the reason why I ONLY want to work individually and take the prize that I entirely deserve it.

*sigh*

Sometimes I wonder whether my parents have ever tried to sympathize with what I'm suffering in this kind of environment, struggling to deal with those students who appear so useless and lazy T_T Urgh...

I aslo hate the lecturer :((( I hate this fucking school. I hate EVERYTHING and EVERY ONE belonging to it :(((( Why? What mistakes I made in the previous life so that I must take a such freaking terrible present life like this? T_T

I desire to work with human-beings who have brain, not with puppets under the cover of a human >.< Otherwise, please let me do it alone and don't consider it as if I'm showing off!