Even though it's been just 10 days since I ceased to blog here, I sense as if it was much longer than that because I find myself grown-up and altered somehow.
The thought of closing this blog for eternity in order to clear away the whole dirty fragments of the past to create a fresh one and full it with brighter memories as a new me has washed over me at times. However, something prevented me from shutting this website down for the fact that every one has their own stories and bygone eras which partly form who they are for now. Thus, it is unreasonable to hide from who I used to be and to erase the life of the pitiful sensitive girl inside me in a wink.
That's why I decided to keep on writing and typing about my story, but in a sheer new chapter with much hope and positive attitudes towards life :)
From this entry on, I guess my writing style and even the way I talk about life would become entirely different from what I once wrote. Obviously for good!
From this entry on, I guess my writing style and even the way I talk about life would become entirely different from what I once wrote. Obviously for good!
I'm still me being childish sometimes but behaving seriously and maturely in some certain cases that potentially lead me to problems. J'essayais juste de ne pas avoir de problèmes ;)
Take things easy and breathe!
Take things easy and breathe!
With love,
~ Hal
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It's 01:30 am...I'm laying awake because this day one year ago was the most terrible one to me. My precious friend Mike got in a crash and passed away for becoming stiff with cold in Ohio, US. His death was to me such a horrid obsession of which I've not yet found out the way to get rid...
It was so sudden and tragic! He was too young to die. But yes, it happened...
Well, I might have wept thinking about how happily we'd spent our time together but I didn't let any teardrops falling from my eyes. It was morose and painful but I've learned to control my sentiments and shift emotions to a more practical state of mind. You may find me quite indifferent and cold right now :) Sentiment is just a chemical defect found in the losing side and I'm not going to repeat the same failures!
I keep this heart with those emotions inside but no longer let them rule my head.
It's 01:30 am...I'm laying awake because this day one year ago was the most terrible one to me. My precious friend Mike got in a crash and passed away for becoming stiff with cold in Ohio, US. His death was to me such a horrid obsession of which I've not yet found out the way to get rid...
It was so sudden and tragic! He was too young to die. But yes, it happened...
Well, I might have wept thinking about how happily we'd spent our time together but I didn't let any teardrops falling from my eyes. It was morose and painful but I've learned to control my sentiments and shift emotions to a more practical state of mind. You may find me quite indifferent and cold right now :) Sentiment is just a chemical defect found in the losing side and I'm not going to repeat the same failures!
I keep this heart with those emotions inside but no longer let them rule my head.
I miss him...miss Mike a lot and wish him happily up there in the arms of God. Please protect and love him! Amen!
Rest in peace, my nice guy <3 Still love you much and miss you tonight...
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