Coming and leaving

It's like when I start to adore or get familiar with people, they always seem to leave me sooner or later by their ways. Either the death or the abandonment. Never had before in my life, I feel so insecure and frightened like this time.

First comes my buddy's death

Second comes soeur's abandonment without a word

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I must learn to get used to this lyric "People come, people go. Some grow old and some grow cold..."; yet somehow deep down in my heart, I'm truly craving for something eternal existing on the Earth even if there is only one thing...

To make it worse, I'm afraid of loving someone by all my heart because it will hurt me so badly that I'm unable to bounce back after the pains like these.

Soeur Nhu - the greastest nun that I completely respected and cherished during the time I learnt piano and a pocket of valuable lessons from. 

However, the way she silently left in order to carry on her mission at another church really made me upset and cry for not yet telling her my farewell.

I bet she didn't want to see the vision of farewell and touching moment before leaving. What a nun's life! 

Wherever she goes, I wish her the best wishes, appreciating what she's done for me after months, eps piano :)

I'm not sure who would come out of my life next, but I've already learnt how to accept and be brave to face it by all means. Although it hurts, c'est la vie!

From now on, I shall dream of neither endless love nor undying friendship. The thought "once it's mine, it's there forever." is just in fairy tale. If you can't learn how to treasure and fight for what's yours, they'd belong to someone else's or leave you soon.

Don't cry, babe x)

Hal