It hurt me so badly as I decided to leave him...Yup, we're over!
The distance came between us like a knife that cut me through. I'm not afraid of the distance of geography but the gap between our hearts.
In recent times, I've recognized that we are not that much compatible anymore. The more I try to match him, the less he understands me.
Because of missing him, I always wish to talk to him as much as possible which causes me to bother his business all the time. He's annoyed and (unintentionally?) speaks some cruel things to me regardless of my sensation and agony that I may bear.
To me, he plays a major part in my life that even though I've told myself countless times "He hurts you. He doesn't love you. He is the reason for this painful heart. He doesn't deserve your love."; in the end I still fail to give up on him.
But this time, I determined to carry on my decision no matter what. Honestly, I'd rather hurt myself than let him feel tired and pissed off because of me all the time like that.
Our memories, the love that we shared is real and forever stays in my heart. After those years, my love for him remains here solidly and it will last for the rest of my life. Though I'd better leave :)
Willian, have you ever really loved me? If you do, why do you constantly tear me down like this?
I love you. I always do. But it's over my limit, I can't keep holding on!
Am I wrong? Why does my heart get so fucking painful like this?
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Goodbye, anh.
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