What a friend should be

There are many friends who are always willing to spend hours to listen to my troubles and sorrows with no complaints. I do appreciate them highly :)

But they never tell me anything about them which makes me guilty about that. It's like I'm just someone putting my burden on their backs and disturbing them all the time by my bullshits which causes me to hesitate each time I want to talk about my stories again. 

Actually I don't wanna be a troublemaker to anyone.

There are many friends who always find me to confide in and pour their heart on me. It's fine to give them advice and anything they want from me for I think I'm good at listening and giving good advice.

But they don't seem to listen to me :p As I find them to talk about my troubles, they are pretty untroubled by what the hell I'm saying to them. All of they care is just themselves and their troubles are important while mine ain't. 

Well, I don't wanna ruin anyone's day by my things :p

There are very few true friends who are always with them when I'm in need and of course they need me too. I love this, including both of things above. We have our own secrets but sometimes we just need a big hugs and compassion from each other. Or even just listen carefully and keep quiet. Those things mean a world to me.

I have lots of friends, yet almost anyone in my friend-list is sort of only-want-to-know and only-want-to-be-listened. 

I think I can deal with them, staying there and being a good friend. Though I sometimes feel tired and just wanna vanish right away to fling myself in a corner, take a little time for me to recover everything before turning back to a social girl.

And dear my real friends :) I bet you all are reading these lines because you do care for me and always stay by my side even if I'm in the stupidest or craziest situations. Because you love me enough, you often spend your time on reading my silly entries and know that "well, she's in troubles again".

I'm glad that I've got some amazing friends like you. 

Not many, but enough for me to love and treat as nicely as possible for you're worth my attention and heart. 

Thanks for your messages and missed-calls. Don't worry about me and I swear I'm gonna be up soon. This is all that I can say now.

At least, real friends are still there for me no matter what happens.

Be happy, Hal!