Purple Valentine '13

People say life is a journey of seeking love, there is someone out there for each person. 

There are three men I love in my entire life, they are: Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow.

Yesterday - The one who created and gave me the best and sweetest memories. I used to be splendidly happy and delighted with him. Besides, he's the very first love that I cherish evermore. Everything was pretty fragile but they were not easy to be broken. If someone asks me who is the person that has the most unforgettable moments, I'd say it's my first love. I love him with a foolish and silly heart of the old days throughout my childhood. Maybe the period of time I was with him is the most wonderful and  happiest stage I've had in my life :)

Today - The one loved me by all his heart. I used to ask him "How long will you love me?". His answer was "I only love you until today ends." Tomorrow would never come because tomorrow of today is simply today after more hours. You may promise someone that you will love him many many years or even for the rest of your life. When we are in love, we tend to love being promised and sworn by sweet words that the partner would love you 100 years or so on. Why do we want to hear promises from that person? Because your love ain't strong enough to believe and you need something to relieve  your mind although deep down inside you still have doubts and fears that you may lose this love someday. Well, he didn't promise nor ensure anything while we were in love, but all that he had done for me proved how truly, deeply and madly his love was for me. And I was the only one girl that he had been loving for whole his life. What an incredible story, eh?! Even I didn't dare to believe it completely, yet it's true :) I call him Today due to the fact that he was correct, each time another day begins, I still think of him and I'm sure my heart only beats for him 'till today ends. Today of everyday...it really lasts forever.

Tomorrow - The one who always knows how to lift me up and show me the right directions to carry on when I'm blind and in the worst circumstances. Waiting, distance and time seems to be the hardest things I've ever faced with. He's tomorrow because it's like something so far and so virtual that sometimes I don't dare to hold this love in my heart anymore, sometimes I'm fed up with being alone despite the freaking long distant relationship. He builds on me faith and endless hope of another day and I believe Tomorrow is another day, maybe my optimistic attitude is thanks to him enormously. Perhaps I always feel Ok as long as he's with me, he's my vitamin K that gives me energy to conquer anything no matter how hard it is. 

Honestly, I met three men in my life.

One I love the most.

One loves me the most.

And one that I wanna spend the rest of my life with him.

Love doesn't have sort of "used to love" or "loved". I love them and my heart is forever theirs. Actually I don't like word "ex-bf" much because since you love someone, you can't say it in simple past tense after breaking up. Otherwise, it ain't your true love and you didn't really love that person.

It's just my opinion, maybe, it's me who once love someone, I shall love him wholeheartedly and wish to be with him forever. And when it's over, my heart still goes on no matter what.

Each person I love, I always love in different ways because no one deserves to be replaced by the old ones with whom I was in relationship in the past.

I love and I always love...

I was...I love Yesterday

I am... I love Today

I will be...I love Tomorrow

Anyone I may love someday, I swear I will love him with all my heart and he'd be half of me for sure. But hopefully he won't compare himself to them and force me to tell whom I love the most is because I can't give him any answer as his wish. He doesn't need to worry if I don't love him as much as I did :) To his expectation, I will love him in a different way and he's the only one in that way I swear.

Who is he?

Yesterday would come again? or Tomorrow is really my fate? Today stays here forever and nothing can change it, right? Who knows whether the circle of love is fooling me :) 

Or I will meet a stranger and begin another love story?

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I don't know. I really don't know and don't want to sit here and foresee my future. Let it be. Naturally.

My polar star...

When you rise in my dark sky, please just stay where you are and never change :) I wish you would be the last one who comes to my life and leads me through this ordinary world.

The pieces of my heart is too small to be broken once more time. 

Well, who knows if I'd stay single forever =)))

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Feb 14th: Valentine - girls offer guys chocolate boxes 

March 14th: White Valentine - guys respond 

April 14th: Black Valentine - for single people

How abt Jan 14th? =)))) 

I've come up with an idea, a very crazy idea :)))

Jan 14th: Purple Valentine - the day for Hallie to love and memorize the best memories that she's been through with my love puzzle pieces of life. Sounds great, eh? :p 

Purple means Faithfulness, I think this virtue is one of the thing I'm proud of myself :)

One month before Valentine

With love,

Hallie