Although his presents that I've bought for years are ready, I'm not supposed to carry them to HCMC this time due to the fact that he can't come back, his flight and everything has been canceled for his business in USA :)
I could feel how much I got mad at him and gave him angry words because he would never know how hard I had been suffering after years for his sake.
Luckily, I know how to control my strong emotions and put myself into others' shoes to get whatever they feel if I were them. Because I don't wanna understand amiss of others or just think of myself all the time.
Then I have no reason to blame him or something. After all, I reckon even if he comes back for real, I won't meet him but offering him my presents via another person.
Honestly I'm afraid of falling in love with him once again :)) What should I start over everything again for?
Since it couldn't be clearer that a long distant relationship never exists and lasts forever like love stories or romantic movies no matter how much both of them attempt to keep their faith and love while being separated apart.
I never fail to keep waiting and be patient with anything or anyone, even I always trust someone wholeheartedly as long as he loves me. Because I'm a Scorpio?!
However, I really hate being cheated or betrayed and I guess I was stuck in that situation not only once but many many times insomuch that my heart grows frozen and deadpan at the moment.
I feel like I was never able to forget anyone I've been with because each person had their own qualities. You can't replace anyone. What is lost is lost. Each relationship, when it ends, really damages me. I never fully recover. That's why I'm very careful with getting involved because it hurts too much.
It's like I don't believe in anything that relates to love. Maybe love wasn't for me :)) Besides, I've been heartbroken too many times and the I recovered. So now, from the starts, I make no efforts because I know it's gonna work out.
Hal
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