Expectations and Disappointments

I'm about to arrive in HCMC next week. Actually I've made many plans with my friends but I don't dare to put too many expectations in it because I don't wanna get disappointed or something.

It's the high time to change myself a lil bit.

The more I have expectations, the more I invite disappointments. Hence, I'd better let it be and it's gonna be surprising or amazing in its ways. Who knows.

Last night, I reckon I'm done with someone and I don't foresee I would waste my time on him any longer since he considered me nothing but a big zero from the start :)) 

I don't wanna blame him after everything for the person I should blame is myself. 

Why am I so stupid and silly all the time? 

Why are my patience and altruism so great like that?

Because I'm stupid :D After now, I won't again. I've woken up already and I'm not in the pink and vague dream anymore.

Ok, it hurts but there is no more tears to cry after weeping a river so many times that I'm under the impression that it'd take me a thousand years =]

Felt blank now. Don't worry, tmr is another day and I believe my optimistic attitude will heal this pain soon once it's not the first time :-j

I have no idea whoever I shall fall in love or at least he'll love me more than I will in the future, yet he'll be in troubles with me =] 

coz I'm not like the old Hallie in the past with a burning and passionate heart of love :))

Yep, I'm different...maybe in a bad way :)

PS: hopefully bro.James will catch me in time on Wednesday :)) Of course, I shall be able to fetch him from Tan Son Nhat airport if he lands there from Jan 09th to Jan 12th.

Btw, I'm not sure if my tetched teacher will let me finish my last period on Tues, otherwise my plan to HCMC would be canceled on purpose. 

Dammit! What the hell with him >.<