Nightmare

I had a bloody awful nightmare last night. As I started out of my sleep, I could see my body trembling with fear and suddenly I burst into sobs.

Then I made a grab at my pillow and blanket to enter my parents' room :'( It's like the day I was merely a little girl, I was so fond of laying between them and hugging maman.

Papa talked to me about the difference between fantasy and reality, he proved me that there was no ghosts in this house on account to Buddha. Thanks to them, I was able to fall back asleep more easily and safely.

Actually I never think I'm afraid of ghosts or something that much even they show up in front of my eyes. But the fact that they wished me evil in the nightmare, I barely breathe. It's like there was some incorporeal power trying to choke the life out of me out of nowhere.

Whatever. Now it's over! 

Gosh, I was unconscious of how ghosts would harm me even just in my dreams. Honestly I was so exceptionally brave that I went to haunted classrooms on my own when my friends had dared me to do at midnight, that I was interested in watching horror movies at night or home alone. It's Okay! 

Babies ain't terrified anything until they have been educated about everything or they themselves have gone through those fears.

Somehow it begins to build something called nocturnal fear in my mind at the moment which drives my heart to race and not be in want of sleeping anymore.

As a matter of fact, I can't sleep alone in my double bed; that's why there are many "huggy puppy" toys, pillows and a doll in my bed. Moreover they might stop me from falling out of bed at night. Sounds like a toddler, eh?! :'(

Eps, my closest bedmate is little bear named Willy :'( I often bring him everywhere I go in spite of being blame that how can I keep the fucking childish habit so far -.- Tho he clearly couldn't say anything to courage me when I'm in the stupidest and most frightening situations like these.

*sigh* Maman forbids me to watch sorta horror movies any longer, yet I still prefer them to love or romantic movies @.@ I always feel so damn excited each time I play some horror movie :'( That's weird by all means. Who knows *shrug my shoulders*

Anw, I'm bound to keep doing this despite maman. Yup, I'm stubborn all the time and this is not an exception *tongue*

Dear my little Willy, I love you so much but if only you could speak something to me instead of just lying next to me quietly for me to hug at night.

Hal