Mom's home. Safe and sound

I was quite glad to make sure that my mom was safe and sound after the trip to Cambodia this early morning since I had heard about her quasi-accident on the way home previous night which caused my overwhelmingly anxiety. 

Since the day she left, I had been praying every night for her safe and sound trip...and thank God, she's unscathed now...in this cozy house with both my father and me. Honestly, I'm grateful for having enough parents beside me so far. Otherwise, my life would be dreadfully miserable and sunk deeply in eternal pains. After the passing of my former paramour in Paris, came another death of my bestie in Ohio, all of the experience has reinforced my sense of loss so well that I'm indeed frightened of confronting any kind of agony once more time. It was awful...was just...nah, I never want to think about the bitter memories again.

Mom's here, right in the kitchen, cooking us delicious dinner as usual. At least, everything is fine now. I'm indebted to Goddess of mercy :) Nam-myoho-renge-kyo!!

Unfortunately, I've caught a slight cold at the moment =.=" The combination of a sore throat and runny nose is freaking unbearable. I can't either talk or get in a good form to do anything, rather than staying in my bed like a coach potato reading books, listening to music and yeah, blogging now >.< 

Okay, let me be useless and wandering for a while since I've finished a ton of things by myself. It's time to take a rest, lil Hal :p

I deactivated my facebook accounts this afternoon and attempted to bottle myself up for a while. Well, I need time to slip back into its old groove...Most of my close friends have already got lovers and seemed to neglect me lolz~ Sorry, I'm just melodramatic a bit :p Kinda feel so out of everyone ha ha

Ain't I the one who is pretty good at keeping myself busy in order to distract the sense of how lonesome I am? It's okay to be alone because this is exactly the way I'm going to commit for a few more years. I should get accustomed to survive on my own, be a good one who leads the best life that any married woman ever dreams of :)) No complains here.

I shall earn a high income, serve my parents to the fullest and then adopt an orphan until he'd grow up and learn to take care of me back in the last days of my life. Needless to get married to some man, devote myself to the thing called "delusive love" and depressingly pull it back each time it seems to vanish. I no longer need it! 

"Love" is to me a luxurious word and I'm done with it :) 

It's raining outside, like other evenings. Great time for reading "Sense and Sensibility" - Jane Austen and sipping a cup of milk right away. Remember? I'm a milkaholic! God, how to stop this runny nose ==" how irritated!

Bless me,

~ Hallie

PS: Much love with mom and dad on the weekend :') merci :X