Bye bye stupid days!

Ding dong~

Having been stressed out by insurmountable giantess of theories for the today examination, I have finally gone through it quite well despite some infinitesimal errors here and there residing in my current disappointment. Perhaps I'm such a little perfectionist who always tends to make the best of works, and if they ain't as perfect as I might do, I shall apparently feel upset and regret for my negligent attitude over it, of course, it's hard to forgive myself *frown*

Okay, let bygones be bygones! I'm done with school stuff and temporarily got a break until Sept 29 taking the last exam. Fortunately, I'm not about take time learning by heart a bunch of shietty theories like the former days, instead the exam requires capability of speaking and analysing some turbulence in a short time, thus it's not necessary to slave for days attempting to prepare again. Thanks, God! I'm indeed weary and exhausted now.

This evening, my classmates celebrated a little farewell party on account of Lydia who is taking off to US in October. One comes to another leave, it's quite sad but to my relief, I've got so used to farewells. Honestly, I was absent from the party and it seems like I've been dodging many parties, hookups and dates in recent times that most of classmates complain to me about my clinical detachment towards our class as well as friends, question me where the social girl named Hallie before and wonder whether or not I'm being sick or worse, getting lovelorn (damn, what the hell ==").

The truth is that, however, the first, they all are not my friends and I'm entirely not connected with semi-strangers, particularly during this mood swing period; the second, I just found myself spending too much time for insignificant hang-outs with so-called friends in order to please them, crack them up, fill them happiness regardless of how blue I am, and excuse me, none of them ever gives a damn care about my feelings, so why do I have to be nice?

I guess, I've changed for good :) From now on, I just want to take good time with true friends, goodies and besties - those who unconditionally love me and are incessantly willing to aid in my need, beside me no matter how long distance it is, no matter how long we have not talked to one another...there they are, greatest friendships that I'd definitely treasure for the rest of my life. 

Dear semi-strangers and so-called friends, other than infinite benefits you may gain from me, is there any other reason to befriend me? I'm not cynical here, yet I've learned the lesson through over two years being a genuine obliging friend to you all which only makes me appear like a fool. When I'm in trouble, stuck with tons of assignments all alone, where are you? Dates with lovers, life of pleasures huh? ft! For the mean time, my real friends halfway around the world, in spite of their extreme hectic lives, attempted to help me stuff which are your own responsibility. Then what, wait for my scores and share you all =))) 

This morning, mr.Ly asked if you all had a shame cribbing from someone's exam paper, your silence and continuing action drew a hard line on my mind that you scarcely have egos, right? 

Well, I'm not going to waste my time (again) writing about those people. I forgave but their mindset seems never changeable, and my next semester looks not bright at all. God, I shan't be a slave again =.=!  

It's high time to indulge myself first, with my favourite classic movies, novels :') Yeah, I also took a 4-week-abs-workout-challenge together with goodie Joyce. I'mma start next week =))) Just doing a squat, push-ups and sit-ups these days virtually brings me to heaven ha ha I wonder how I'm gonna deal with the abs workout challenge, I doubt it :))

Okay, make it clear...I AM NOT AUSTISTIC HAK!!! =.=" Gotta back to read "The Great Gatsby" rite off :* bye bye :'3

With love,

~ Hal