Turn my humanity off

 

Don't cry! Don't cry! Don't cry!

 

I promised myself that I would never ever let any teardrop fall from my eyes; thus I must shed those tears at any rate. If someone sees me in this way, I'd definitely appear like a pitiful kitten under the rain.

 

I'm such an emotional-driven and sensitive girl. I hate the truth. It gives me nothing good but a bunch of shiet in life.

 

I don't need to put myself into anyone's shoes, love and care others, put their lives beyond mine. Why do I have to think of others first while people neglect how I feel? Why don't I have any right to be selfish like them? I was born as a human-being, too. I don't wanna act like a saint on the Earth to please people.

 

Fuck this life!
 

If I had one wish, I would rather never be born in this way. In other words, my existence is so damn tough and tiring that I wish to vanish permantly like bubbles.

 

:))

 

It's worse when I don't cry, but the tears are still falling down continuously. At the moment, I only feel numb with shock.

 

That's all. No pains at all.

 

:)

 

Whatever.

 

Throw my emotions away and live as a doll in the middle of nowhere =))

 

Be a bad girl, honey! You gotta be good no longer.