perhaps it's right that i love you because you doesn't treat me like i'm ordinary :) am i so special to you? so special that i'm never proud of it. because you hate me when i'm childish and the way you treat me so differently is simply for a little girl.
you treat others girls like ladies with respects. though it is quite strange and weird to me, to only me-myself-and-I.
have you ever wondered why? the truth...?
why do i love asking you everything from the littlest to the biggest problem time to time even i may find out the answers from another?
why do i want you to help me something that i can do it by myself?
why don't i stop bothering you although you are busy?
why do i always share happiness and sorrows, tell you stories that are nothing to do with you?
why are you forever the first one i'd like to announce every single change of my life?
why....why and why?
because i want you to know that i am completely not all right when i do not have you anymore. my life will not go right without you. everything is not going to be okay if i'm not with you.
i'm still a little girl, sensitive and weak. no matter how much i conceal it from others, i only want to be myself when i'm with you. particularly, i covet to be timid and comforted, always need to have someone's arms to fall into, a shoulder to lean on and break into tears each time i feel this life is to hard to take any more breath. it's all right to demand those things, i tell myself that " be sensitive, be vulnerable, be weak and do whatever crazy lame and childish things" because, yup, that's me. no masks. no fake attitude. no hallow things. only pure and innocent heart to you.
hm..i'm maybe not old enough inside to behave like a lady or to know how i should be when i'm in love. but i believe in my heart which never lies to me, i believe in my emotions and i do believe in destiny.
therefore, do you still accept someone loving you even she has not yet grown up?
thanks for not treating me like i'm ordinary (in the both literal and figurative sense) *laugh out loud*. yup, i myself, every now and then, grow pretty crazy and weird to drive you quite irritated because i'm not ordinary, either.
be up and come back soon, love! i'm forever yours and shall await your return. don't force me to take on the "adult t-shirt" which has fitted me not yet *frown* i must take it off, love *shaking my head to refuse* because i'm still a little girl, eh?!
i'm sorry for being a burden to you day by day like this. i don't mean to get you out of your own peaceful world; though the reason is simply because i want you to know that: I DO NEED YOU IN MY LIFE...
with love,
- Hal
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