Bff

Dear my little sweet goofier,

I'm pretty sure that you're the very first one who pays all attention on this blog as soon as I show its link because you advised me to make it up again, rememeber eh?!

You want me to open myself if I truly wish others would understand me more though you know what, showing the truth seems to be the hardest thing I must force myself to allow. It's not the right thing I don't need anybody around me, I'm also a little girl with a very small heart inside, then I'm sensitive and emotional enough to need to be loved, to be cared and to be some important parts within others's hearts. However, I'm scared, as the more that fear grows, the less I wanna be so small beneath their eyes and I hate them whenever they feel so sorry for me.

You may judge that I'm so in contradiction with my internal life as usual, yes you complain thus but you're willing to listen to me whenever I'd like to be whining and tell you a bunch of those complicated things to ask your ideas. Haha I swear not less than two times, you just want to shout at me and hang up the phone at once because of being waken up at night for nonsense lolz~

Hm...when nobody cares me, I start to feel sensitive, upset and get many many horrifying things dancing around my head. However, when people truly wanna ask "How are you, Hal?" or "anything wrong?" or that kind of questions. I answer that I'm all right and good enough not to complain anything. Yup, I refuse their consolation even I'm in the worst situation and I'd throw all the troubles which should share others into you, only you, my lovely buddy. Sorry, babe!

Since I called you bff, I've put you first of all my friends or exactly I think that I love you enough to call you best friend forever. Whatever this "love" means lolz~  Being beside me ain't lucky in fact, coz I'm not such a good girl to treat you as well as you do to me but I'm ready to do anything for you when you're in need. Frankly babe, sorry for calling you too late that night (again) because I couldn't sleep...and I wanted to bother you =))) How cruel I was!!!!

You know what, I swear nobody in the world may understand you much more than me, even your parents or some gf(s), I'm proud of it. You're kind of person who is very stupid and silly at express your meaning and heart clearly on face and actions, nomarlly it turns totally different from your first thoughts which causes ppl misunderstand your good will from time to time. But in fact, whoever would be your gf or even wife is gonna be the luckiest girl on the planet due to the fact that you truly care your beloved people by all your heart and never really put anyone beyond others to treat that one specially :) You're even-handed, babe and I love you the most by this way =)))

Ehem, I don't flatter you here for Hello Kitty or Bear stuffs to add into my collections hak. Sometimes I wonder why don't you always stop asking me "How old are you, Hal?" while keeping buying me those childish-stuffs to pamper me? huh? haha you're complicated, too!!!!

Those insane words would have been written personally in email but I guess it's not neccessary anymore once I'm sure those words have been sent to the right person that they should be, it's good *laugh*

With love,

- Hal