Maintenant, I'm stuck in a such a beautiful mess called French although I have already determined to end up with this language a few previous weeks for being completely aware of how difficult to remain too many languages simultaneously.
It is impossible to keep an utter sound mind as learning for hours at school, another hours at Japanese class, revising French grammar that pisses me off, drawing up French wall newspaper, memorizing Japanese vocabulary and yeah certainly English practise with enough four skills for the Ielts test that I have no idea when I shall take lolz~ but it's essential to get ready always.
What caused me to beam up brightly and seemingly get charged more energy today was Will's comeback. Honestly, things are still the same...his silence as usual and me suffering the detachment of his presence :) I've got so used to it! Though, thanks to the hectic period that I'm in, there is no much space for me to sink in thoughts and the river of emotions.
Although virtually everyone would suppose me such a blind girl following the former mistakes that I made, I trust him and at least I do believe in destiny which has occured more than twice throughout my life. I'm clueless of what the future may hold and whether or not he is going to hurt me again, but it's okay to get through it because the heart has its reasons of which reason knows nothing.
He has been always the only man in my heart for almost seven years no matter how much he made me suffer. Idiot! Well, I'm dumb and have no sense to think more deeply about this matter since other issues of study are occupying nearly the whole of my head at the moment. Argh....
All in all, I'm blissful and grateful for the fate has bound us together again despite the fact that the meaning of our current relationship is nothing more than...just semi strangers, I guess. It's sad! Okay I indeed have no idea about this situation. If only he could post a message to tell me something or at least to ask me "how have you been lately?", it would have been much much easier and more comfortable to me than the atmosphere for now.
Oh dear, I'm half delighted and half filled with fear :)) Gotta learn Japanese vocabulary now.
Love,
Hal
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