Need to gain more weight!!!

27 jours avant Noel

Merde!!! A close fellow just reminded me of how bad I am beneath a guy's eyes. From the terrible immature bod to the childish and super cheap personal characteristics in reality. It means that it is impossible to attract any kind of opposite gender =.=

The fact did turn me down :(((((( I couldn't figure out the reason why nobody ever recognises my maturity sometimes although it is not shown all the time. At least, I do try to be sensitive, serious and deep in thinking sometimes when writing or working. 

Argh...out of the point! I need to gain more weight for the ideal hot bod that looks attractive to men, as a mature woman =)))) Just kidding~ 

Actually my mother can't help yelling multiple times at me for skipping meals and eating less than usual. I've lost my weight so quickly that she's about to take me to have a check at hospital T_T 

Gosh, I'm still healthy and strong despite the fact that my appearance looks as skinny as a beanpole. Don't judge a book by its cover, okay? Anyhooo, I must force myself to gain more weight for good :( and I wanna meet him in the best condition T_T

Merde!!!!!! My life always sucks with the issues involved an unattractive bod and super stubborn childishness. I wish I could change...but sometimes it's still me after all.

Arghhhh....