Hallie's revolution!

Despite that fact that this real society is to me nothing more than such a destructing Capitol in Hunger Game, I believe that I was born in a much better condition if compared with the people in other deprived countries.

At least, I am supposed to be grateful for what I have got so far thanks to unconditional sacrifices of my parents. Have you ever wonder why I'm always eager to take off to another country and get more than willing to struggle for my freedom, real life instead of settling down here in the bosom of family safely and peacefully?

I'm counting down every single day only for the linger hope to get out of all the current bullshits and reform the next generations not only in physic but also in mind because I'm afraid they would be buried down and rotted like the way I'm going through.

Sometimes I wish I could gather great courage and strength to become a Mockingjay and raise a revolution like Katniss to fight for exactly what we deserve to get, and beyond it, for what we lost. Sadly, it is impossible to alter any form of it once the custom is deeply ingrained in most of us. So deeply that there is no way to transfer them into a new form. 

Gosh, we are even clueless of whether the custom is exceedingly horrid. We even call it in an ironic way as  "a mode of culture" that I am also painfully ashamed of admitting myself to be a part of the society. I found it difficult to assimilate into this society it no matter how longer and deeper I'm immersed. 

I'm yearning for a revolution which would potentially heighten people's awareness of dignity and erase what are holding our development due to our fucking selfishness, uncontrollable greed, materialism and inner evil :) And well, I'm powerless because I'm not a saint. Thus, don't ever judge me if someday I flee away from this society as a such a miserable coward. 

Here is just a human-being attempting to find a way for survival or simply keep a line of retreat open for the future of my next generations :) Like what Katniss Everdeen did!

Perhaps, we are conditioned to the idea that any expression of vulnerability of sentiment is weakness. Yet my best friend used to stick this statement into my mind "You are strong when you dare to tell that you're pretty hurt. Instead of running away, faking smiles and pretending to be someone that you are not."

To live in the society, I was taught not to be so sensitive, so naive, so insecure and so kind-hearted. Being a pure and clean one in mud means you are eliminating yourself from the whole. Otherwise, be pleased to be treated as such an idiot puppet manipulated in literalness. That's who I am now-ish!

Unfortunately, the idiot puppet, as known as I, decided to make a revolution of my own  lolz~ "It's the things we love the most that destroy us." I'm far from being emotion-driven. You know, I personally believe that nothing is not important, and nothing is too much important as well. 

Each of creature in the world has their own values and we must appreciate and cherish them. Though, don't put anything or anyone at the point that has the power to tie your life tightly into many layer of emotions and falseness which only brings you down after all.

In the afternoon, for instance, if I had been the old girl, I would have got pissed off or irritated towards the people who left me alone watching "Mockingjay" in the cinema for buying tickets without leaving me a word. Honestly, I didn't hold my aggression since they were to me no more important people in my life :) They are not my friends. Just so-called ones. This idea made me have a peace of mind. 

Well, if they were my friends, I must have gone off to sulk like a child because I was indeed upset without them. These so-called friend, nevertheless, are those without whom I did enjoy the whole movie with much amusement and excitement. Actually, none of my friends have never ever done the crap to me. Never!

Seemingly my writing is overflowing again *lol* To conclude (so cliché, right?), the entry ultimately aims to remind me how to put myself at ease, treasure what is worthwhile, focus on the road to "revolution", become a "Mockingjay" for my next generations and rescue myself from the hole of hell :) I don't want to rot in this society!

Hallie, make the way for our own and become strong and determined. Don't settle for less than I deserve and chuck the whole crap that others are trying to put me in :)

Remember "I’m not a stop along the way, I’m a destination".

Welcome a fresh week with "Mockingjay" :') So cool!!!!

Love,

Hal

xoxo