Loss of my taste

28 jours avant Noel

*sigh* 

It's come to the period that I've lost my appetite and motivation for anything without a certain reason.

I've lately skipped many breakfast, shown no interest in study at school, had no mood to chat to anyone...It's like I'm such a ghost or a daydreamer!

Honestly, there are a few reasons. I guess so. Idiot, I re-watched the Korean drama "Playful kiss" which reinforces the sense of missing Will pretty much. I can't concentrate on anything but longing for Xmas to meet him T_T

And another one is that teachers at school are depressing me with their interminable speeches and traditionally unprogressive teaching methods. Sometimes they don't even show enthusiasm for their lectures. 

Well, I'm tired, frustrated and over-disappointed with what the whole education system has discouraged me until now. Certainly, I'm still studying very hard but only for myself, for the purposes that would lift me up to another higher level at somewhere else. 

Schooling stuff? Sorry, I'm done with them! :) It's beyond my description each time I initially write about the society. Whatever. Many kinds of terrible people. Many kinds of evil things. The more I talk to bro.H, the more I've comprehended exactly the hidden truth.

That's why I'm always hoping for a Harry Potter or a Katniss Everdeen in reality :) Gosh, please grant me strength and energy back to ride on the road I've chosen. Although I'm incapable of being a hero, I would struggle to pull my future generations out of the Capitol :)) Like Katniss did!

Can't wait for Xmas to meet him and charge in more energy :) I really miss him. It's took over one years since we encountered in that summer. He is not mine now, but somewhat still holds an unchangeable special position in my heart. Always and forever.

Cheer up,

~ Hal