Crash and wounds

I got into a motorbike crash today and my head was hit off the ground. Out of nowhere, a man was driving too fast to brake in time before hit me.

Thanks to the helmet, my life was saved. Otherwise, I would have stayed in some hospital or even gone down to the hades.

Fortunately, God saved me indeed. I must declare that at the very moment I thought that was the last time I saw the sun and blue sky above for my head started to pound with a million stars around.

The man didn't show any apology on his face but solving this freaking problem as quickly as possible, then left. Actually I didn't wanna bring troubles to others so I simply said it would be alright soon, just plz let me lie on the ground for a while to ease that pain. But he didn't let me alone. He pulled me up even my body was so painful that I couldn't move =))) Merde!!!!

To make my day worse, having announced papa abt this crash, he laughed and said "It's all your fault. While driving, you often fly your mind somewhere not down-to-earth. Thus don't complain abt it bcoz you DO DESERVE to be into a crash as a lesson" :)) I was startled and had nothing left to say more due to the fact that I would never ever believe those words could come from his mouth.

Even maman also took the accident as a funny story to laugh. And yup, my beloved parents thought it was something really funny in day :) 

Sometimes I doubt their love. Or is this a different sort of love that I've discovered not yet? My injuries hurt, yet the way they treated me so [...] hurts me much more than that. I love them heaps and I wish I would be loved back. Or at least, plz give me a clue to figure out what kind of their love really is.

Felt so alone and self-pitiful. It's like I always care for others but when I've got something not all right, ppl just take it as a trifling matter. Well, I shouldn't blame or complain them because I act too well to  be recognized.

Act like I'm strong, act like I don't need anyone, act like I'm independent and I love making jokes to crack them up  =)))  when I say "I'm alrite", they always trust it so easily.

They have no idea how much I love and need them.

Whatever. Thank God for giving me another chance to live and understand this life more. Promise I will be brave and strong in any case to survive because I must make this life worth my efforts.

My head is seriously ache like hell atm. I'm scared to death coz I dunno what's wrong with it. Maybe I'd better take a rest and let it be recovered tmr. Plz plz nothing worse would happen!!!

Sadly, parents don't seem to feel any least troubled abt me :) Got it and I'm fine, thank you. Hallielujah~

Bless me,

Hal

PS: Cielle's got wounded too *sigh* I'm abt to repair it tmr :'(