The last of November

25 days until Xmas

Coolah, December is coming to town :) This beautiful month always brings me so much warmth and joy into my heart. 

Every year, there are the same things, the same days, the same people, the same place, the same festival called Xmas but not my feelings for them.

I had a grey month during November with many tones of emotion. Likely, if I don't mind about relationships, then it would be friendships. 

Nothing really frees my mind in peace more than being anti-social as the way people consider me. Because I do care for people but people even don't recognize it, I think too much and talk too much but who cares?

To exist, I'd better stay cool as much as possible to avoid pieces of slander and get less sorrows. Sometimes I'm under the impression that I'm wasting my time on people that ain't willing to waste their time on me but why do I  still care?

I'm upset...I'm worried...but who cares? =))) I look like an idiot!

However, up to now there is nothing of that sort happening again; I only pay my attention on people that are worth.

A month has gone with many lessons that I must keep in my head.

Because I wish to have a serene winter, a holy Xmas fully then please leave me alone. Don't test my patience anymore! 

Xmas last year was the coldest one I'd ever spent in my entire life, I don't want something terrifying to happen again :) I was too strong last Xmas to do something crazy and stupid, but there is no scope for pains or scars in my heart.

Love,

- Hal