Be careful of what you write

Dear diary,

Yesterday I just wrote a long post about what a true love should be, yes again, this topic is one of my most favourite categories of writing. I shared the post to one or two close friends from the group, they encouraged me to have it posted public either on my facebook or in the group for all the girls to read and raise their awareness of true love, I rejected though.

As a matter of fact, I spent hours to write a few posts to share and hopefully guide them through this road, turn their directions into a more accurate meaning that the book or whoever had conveyed. However, the more I wrote, the more I recognized myself even get out of my original intention quite distantly and I even lost myself admist the waves of hearts, likes and compliments :) 

When I was young, I wished I would become a writer but just a ghostwriter – it meant either I would write for myself without readers or become an anonymous writer. I would like to share inspirations, use my words to express my own perceptions not only to help others see something in a different light but also probably change the world better in some way. The more I grew up, the more I learnt a lesson that we each have our own way of perceiving and interpreting the world around which shapes our personality and guides behaviors. 

There is no way to change someone unless you have the power to come into someone’s mind and reprogram the whole system of thinking, or you just need offer someone a terrific result in advance – then it would become the motivation for this utter alteration.

Sometimes I indeed doubt the inspiring or self-help books if they are helpful or just a way to lure people more to hell. Sorry to say so. Different readers, different mindsets, different perceptions will drive to different consequences and actually writers obviously are not responsible for them although writers must unintentionally become “the murder of someone’s future” to someone. 

People nowadays are more addicted to those who are successful or those whose words become “so-called” correct and seem nice. To be honest, I never dare to affirm anything or encourage anyone to believe in my posts because at the end of the day, I’m just a normal human-being and I can only see and write based on my own perceptions. It may be right to these but be wrong to those. When I want to use my words and my personal life as a good testimony to convince more people to believe in me, it means that I’m doing something so wrong and potentially destroy someone future by my own manipulating words. It’s dangerous.

Each human-being was born with each different destiny and mission to fulfill in this life, your right to do as an influencer, a writer or someone should only be as a reference for those who seem to share the same missions with you, but shouldn’t use your words to manipulate anyone’s life :)

I have no idea about what “improve yourself to have a better life” really means, but the definition of “a better life” to me and “a better life” to others are quite different so how can someone read or see my “better life”, using all of my methods to reach to “a better life” in my definition while the person has no notion of how my “better life” in reality is?

Well, with all the given reasons, I figure that I should stop writing for others and focus more on my real life, improve myself so that next time I can do something more meaningful. Since my mind is not so stable, I’d better “fix” it first before being eager to please someone’s.

Thanks,

Hal-