I'm beating myself up for picking a semi-stranger instead of a very close friend of me. It was understandable as she was pissed off at me and talked to me with an air of detachment later on. I was unable to be biased towards her because my decision would influence on the whole outcome of others and excuse me, this period has been stressing me out so much that it's out of my capacity to put others upon myself. Honestly, I'm quite depressed right now although it ain't a big deal at all. Somehow it always hurts me each time I unintentionally upset someone, even if it's the right thing but I still feel uneasy.
Anyway, the book "Into the mid-night sun journey" was dispatched to my house this afternoon, lifted my mood up a bit after a gloomy day with such a heavy atmosphere with my friend for the decision. I ought to take it easy and care free since during the period, it must be a seer nonsense to get more space and time for sentiments and troubles. I'm utterly tired and exhausted...
Well, gotta turn off the lappie and read the book hastily right off. A bunch of other stuff are waiting for me to solve out, too :)) Had I not blogged like this, it would have blown my mind out due to recent pressures.
Agrhhhhhhhhhh...Thank God, I'm still alive!
Love,
~ Hal
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