Delight of life

Never had before I sensed my life this calm and serene. Either does October treat so nicely due to my upcoming birthday or my fresh mindset has just reformed life in a good way.

It was me becoming unbelievably taciturn. I'd rather devote all day at home, rolling in the bed lazily, reading retro-novels or watching dramas, drinking milk, having snacks, listening to classics than wander around on the Internet, catch up some so-called friends then start to gossip about someone else or simply listen to thousands of tiny sentimental love stories of them. Well, I'm done with those! I found myself having no reason to concern issues which scarcely involve my life, thus it is nonsense to waste my precious time for those who are not worth my attention at all. 

In other words, I have learned how to narrow down friendships and acquaintances to the least. The more relationships I connect, the more convoluted my life will become due to the fact that I always concern too deeply others' troubles, take theirs as mine then put lots of efforts to solve them out. The mindset, fortunately, has turned off and left the place for self-love which means caring about myself more carefully, taking responsibility for myself, respecting myself and learning to love myself in any forms. 

Besides, neither harsh words nor liars bother me again. The furious demon inside me was vanquished which led to my current pretty calm mind. I shan't frown, mess things up or reprimand others no matter how horrid they might become to me. Perhaps, I should thank them for teaching me another life lesson, and beat myself up for befriend false people. Either way, it's entirely all right as long as I remain this inner optimistic perspective.

Speaking of schooling matters, since today was the beginning of new semester, I decided to cease my stance against the university as well as the whole corrupt education system since it is impossible to shake it up, I must learn to dance in the rain instead of waiting for the storm to pass :) I'm glad that I've made it!

Mention to my unrequited love towards Willian for years, the quote "Love is something that you cannot achieve by efforts." has anyhow obsessed me, strongly enough to cast away the unwelcome beautiful flashbacks of us flickering in mind now and then. To my belief, anything on the earth, apart from love, I'm confidently capable of achievement as long as sufficient time and condition are given since I'm such a diligent person (in spite of being a true slob at home :p). That's it! Love pertains to fate and destiny - abstract notions that are scarcely resulted from endless endeavours. Stick in mind this "We are certainly bound by fate, but probably not by destiny. If we are, then it has unlikely come to the right timing yet. Right person, wrong timing." Consequently, I don't rant anymore! Love him, it's okay...but don't be such a disgusting meddler to him because he doesn't like it, either. I guess so!

Life formerly was enormously difficult and annoying to me which stressed me out for I was lost to find the way of balancing them: relationships, emotions, works, study, friends, troubles of mine and others', gossips, becoming a suffering listener, a people-pleaser and blah blah~ My head was going to explode at any time. Fortunately, I've changed my attitude slowly to make it easy and yeah, my life has altered as well. Of course, life still goes on the same routine, jeez, there is no miracle here. The point is that I chose to tackle the adversities with a positive attitude, rather than my negative thoughts previously, and the change seems to make the whole difference. Little by little, day by day, yeah I start to savour my life to the full :)

It's quite pleasing and tranquil <3 Thanks for everything has come to me, no matter sorrows or happiness they would be. If they are happiness, Hallielujah!! If sorrows are their names, I'm more grateful :') Only owing to their existence, sweet fruits coming after are valued and surely I myself also learn a pocket of lessons and experience named life~

Sorry, long time no blogging. Hah, this post is likely becoming interminable lolz~ Gotta stop here and ready for bedtime as usual!

For your information, my recent day routine is: reading books, talking to very few goodies on skype, weaning myself off facebook, watching various Japanese dramas, cooking (still in learning process), doing household (Maman's being absent 'till Sat) and obviously being a clinomaciac all the time ha ha :))

Wow @@ too long!

Hello the first week of October. It's Monday and it's raining too..."Mondays and rainy days always let me down la la la~" Okay, they let me up *frown* I'm lying teehee

Nite nite the world,

xoxo

~Hal

PS: I'm listening to "Castle in the sky" tune from my little music box offered by one of my goodie on my 20th birthday. It's such an ideal way to treat myself in this kind of weather. Again, too long =))) Sorry!