July 23rd

Half of July has passed by in Saigon, I can see time flying so fast through ever second I'm staying here without my parents. Honestly I would like to go home asap to meet them and turn back into my old ugly habit - being a little kid in the bosom of my family.

In recent times, I find myself thinking too deep about various stories - both my friends' and mine. One time my head is tiring and ache for keeping those negative thoughts but having no idea how to get out of them. It's just like I feel extremely despress as what I can do for my friends is to be a good listener with no more word. Sometimes I want to say something more because they certainly wish to hear anything from me than the dead silence; but even me-myself-and-I am bearing a ton of stuff in my little head and in need for a clue to make it up. Those are really hard time for me in here.

Looking on the bright side, nevertheless, there was another time I felt like my feet off the ground 5 centimetres due to splendid and unexpected moments that people had happened to do for me. I love spending time with them and forget all the bullshits that are not worth any calorie from me and I do cherish everytime like that.

This July is really surprising me by many unexpected and amazing things. Although it ain't perfect at all, I'm content with my present and shall definitely try to make the best out of it despite some dark piece, but I don't mind again. To recognize the truth about true friends and acquaintances, I have carefully learnt a good lesson about it after a couple weeks in such a strange place like this. I can tell who loves me and who doesn't. I can identify who lies to me and who is honest with me. I can see whose heart belongs to me and to whom my heart truly pertains.

I'm happy :) 

There is more than a week to remain the holiday in Saigon, I'm fond of finishing something undone or half-done in order return to Nha Trang without regrets hak.

I'm still waiting for a sign from a person and rather pissed off these days. Actually my patience is losing a bit more each day and who knows when it would be drained out of my heart. I don't care if the person doesn't.

Sorry, I'm not sort of the girl left on the shelf to long for a vague sign hak. :)) It's not about my choice but my heart. I hate this fucking stupid and young heart for only one person while I've still got many ones out there for only me too. Surely he knows the fact so well that he doesn't mind pulling me back or pushing this relationship.

Well, we have a no-named relationship. I love him and he loves me. Even though we are not friends, not lovers, not strangers, not acquaintances, not something obvious to define, I believe I need this unclear thing.

It's just funny and exciting, eh?

Like you are watching a movie with no even the smallest clue how the end will be. So do I lolz~ 

Nice day,

Hal