Ready to change!

What a gloomy day although Tet holiday is coming soon. From natural disasters to an inferno destroying nearly 40 homes and the property of local residents, there is nothing left like Tet atmosphere in the city at the moment. In addition, it has been raining for days making the sky always looked grey and dull. 

And today, I got a bad news that bro.Kent – a colleague decided to resign from his job at the end of Feb. Bro.Kent and Mrs.Tiff have been my daily motive for working days. We shared a lot of good time together. We talked. We converted incredible ideas into weird products while the person out on business trip. We had lunch together. We laughed. We had snack at the break time. We hung out. We were fond of one another like a real family. I must admit that it is always painful to say goodbye to someone or something good that you have too deeply been used to. 

It is life, though. All good things come to an end no matter how much you struggle to hold them back a little longer. It has to change and so do I. In the beginning of March, I shall change the department to be a butler and no longer be such a translator or a trainer. This is a hard decision to make because I am the type of person who is afraid of changes once I have been thrown safe and sound in the comfort zone. I have a good job, according to others’ definition of a stable office job, with a high salary that others would admire. I have the title that others respect. There is no reason to alter the job in case it must be for a very special reason.

To be perfectly honest, in my opinion, working eight hours in front of the screen, looking to every word and being quiet for a whole day are unusual. Life is not meant to be that suck and meaningless. The knowledge and efforts that I gained during the university time are not supposed to waste in such a dumb way. I would like to speak in English daily, to communicate with others, to smile at them, to make them feel happy and inspired, and more importantly, to earn money for paying my family’s debt as soon as possible and to save money for the lifetime journey to Europe that I am eager to make it come true before my marriage. And this is the fastest way to carry on my plan!!!

I used to scroll down newsfeed on Facebook, seeing a number of my friends in different countries around the world taking stunning pictures or at some luxurious office beside their colleagues in a stylish dress to show how happy they are. Oh don’t worry; I’m not trapped at all. I am entirely aware of the bare reality behind those pictures, there are opposite stories to tell. On the social media, anyone often either shows off their best faces to the world so that others would admire and get jealous sometimes which causes them to be content with the number of likes they have got, or exaggerate their awful life to get more attention from others such as writing on the wall how horrid of their life would be as if they have been pushed in a corner and how painful to be in hell on earth. What an ironic situation!!

Having learned from the fact, I have ceased to use facebook or focused on newsfeed in recent time. Instead, I made a plan and define what to do next in order to make my dream come true. I am the one who will take the whole control of my life because no one is going to be there and rescue me. Changing means taking risk and sometimes you have to go through before touching the cup of victory. 

At times, when I wake up in the morning and wonder what I should do today and if I am indeed delightful with this current job although it has put me in the comfort zone for so long that I have almost forgot the reason to work and to live. I am uncertain if the decision to change the department would help me better but there is one thing for sure, change is painful but nothing is as painful as staying stuck where you don’t belong. 

Stay strong, Hal babe! I believe 2017 will be your most amazing year after all those years of waiting for a change to make a BIG STEP :) Always hope and have to courage to move.

Love,

Hal