Change?

It's been a while I am not longer habituated to write blog daily as how I would do in former period of time. Perhaps the cause of it stems from investing most of my time on real life and you know, the material life that the more you grow up, the more you have a tendency to chase instead of much concentrating on your state of spiritual starvation. 

It seems to me that I am gradually getting lost myself in this physical and realistic world having its power to become more appealing with a bunch of temptations that potentially seduce you out of spiritual world that in turn offers you a peaceful state of mind. 

I miss the time when writing blog and reading novels became a necessary part of my life. I could sit for hours writing fictions, pouring my expression on pages, making a heart-lightened stories on my own, wandering along the lonely tracks in amusement and delight, enjoying every second to live in solitude. Other time, I would listen to instrumental music, go deeper into myself and find the serenity closest to me for the only time. 

I wonder where those me-myself-and-I moments at the present...

I'm bound up in working, studying, hooking up with friends, chatting to virtual individuals, talking to boyfriend, reading skin-care product feedbacks, taking care of outward appearance rather than nourishing inner beauty. How changeable a person would be, even I myself am not aware of this progressively albeit excessively alternation until one day, I found neither reasons nor meaning of life for the day since the routine just goes round and round like a circle without any special points or highlights to be marked.

Sadly, everything is no longer the same, particularly the halicious me that I used to be :) Anw, I must move on forward no matter what 'cause once the time has gone, I'd never be able to find a ticket go back. I would save them as my innocent memories, sometimes looking back at them and reflecting how I have become so far. 

Dear life, I love you no matter what kind of form you are. The more I experience and discover you, the more I treasure you :)