The minor surgery

I am going to have the damn minor surgery this afternoon without the sight of my bf as my wish since we are getting through three days of separation due to our leaving space to recharge our emery and solving the current tense. 

Last night, he and felt as if we were getting married as most of my close relatives knew him, and I were invited to my cousin’s wedding and we did spend the best time together. I was more than proud of introducing him to my family. He is a good man loving me with all his passionate heart although sometimes it rather goes overwhelming that vexes me heaps. 

Argh… I wonder if I would be able to be alright this afternoon on the dead cold operating table all alone, beside the doctor with a sharp knife on his hand ready to cut through my skin while my eyes are wide open regardless of body entirely paralyzed. It is frightening to think of the surgery in details … 

Buddha, please help and support me to successfully overcome the horrid surgery!

Please :(

Hal

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08:07 pm

Local anesthesia didn't seem to work on me for the fact that it hurt me like hell as feeling the sharpness of knife inch by inch and I couldn't bear but breaking into tears. All I wished at that time was the surgery would last as soon as possible....

No sooner had I come home, I called my bf to confide in him and listen to his voice in order to calm me down and feel better a little bit. It was over but the pain stays... I can't move normally at least within a week :( Love him for always being here beside me at this hardest time.

I'm all right now! ~