I couldn't help but notice that summer has graced Nha Trang by the scorching heat in the air which is indeed annoying to not only me but also to all of dwellers in the town. It is understandable since Vietnam merely consists of a couple of seasons as a matter of fact, summer is the most concise way to describe the current season due to the fact that yeah, I'm in the last summer break of a student's life.
To remark and enjoy the final summer break to the fullest, I should have drawn up a specific plan in details, particularly traveling to some places and spending my scholarship award for the straight A student in consideration. However, the pre-summer break hit me with a sudden slap for being pickpocketed the smartphone Norah that I had bought over a year, culminated in the whole savings pouring out for a new one. From the ideas of a nice trip to somewhere else but remaining in the city during the summer, to expectations of buying my parents and beloved ones good presents and treating myself something refresh after a long semester at school, they all have failed completely in fact, leaving me the great regret of the former smartphone that I had been used to it, and the resentment for the rest of the month.
It was sombre right from the beginning of the summer, in addition to the sultry climate which almost caused me to behave more aggressive and worn-out than ever. It is like I am stuck here, in this condition with the loss of several stuffs since the January, struggling to feel better although the temperature seems increasingly against me, putting all the ideal plans that I set up behind and certainly there is no penny left in my pocket to fulfill the intention of surprising my beloved ones by gifts *frown*
Yes, I am ranting a little bit...just a little because at least, I have already discovered the refresh delight to enjoy my summer by my own, regardless of the lack of light-hearted encounters and dates with my best friends in Saigon city as we had promised.
It comes back to the summertime when I was little, I'd fancy reclining on the relaxed chair in the garden in the afternoon, reading some good books, having myself a cup of iced coconut for refreshment, getting the fresh air and cool whirlwind and of course, felling into a deep and peaceful slumber out of the blue if necessary. Neither my parents nor any matters backwards would bother me at the time, unless mother called me for the lunch lolz~ In the afternoon, I'd hang out with daddy along the beach to take an airing, if convenient, we'd swim and at night, I'd start to write fictions, set my imagination free flying further than the reality and immerse myself into the world that I created. Sounds daydream, eh? Yet it is exactly how my summer days are running ~
Could my life keep running in this way eternally, I would be the happiest girl in the world, sensing the exact heaven on the Earth ha ha~ Honestly I am going to have some voluntary jobs soon, despite its tiny wage, hopefully it will assist in my family finance somewhat and also give me more meaning in the summer.
Books are my only besties in recent times because I am not energetic enough to follow another super-duper long drama from dawn to dusk. Reading and writing seem to be the good options, and learning Ielts for the test around next year when I graduate from university. I wonder where I will live and work after the graduation, how much I will be able to earn in the first months officially having a job or whether I will be unemployed and become such a burden to my parents as usual. Well, I am not a good daughter at all, giving them nothing but useless certificates of merit and meaningless degrees without earning a bunch of money to treat them a genuine journey through twenty three years passing by.
Oh the first post of July contains a huge amount of words, mostly complaints and anxiety over the future haha it is no big deal in comparison with the first greeting to New Years at three a.m in tears on account of getting perfectly aware of the loss of everything between Willian and me. It sounds foolish and lame but I must admit the truth in order to remind me of the ugly past and how weakness and blindness used to take the hold of my life. That's the reason why after multiple times considering the closure of the blog, I decided to continue with this one in spite of the unbeautiful things in the past about me within :')
Out of the point again lol I don't know what I am typing so far since words and thoughts are coming out of my mind, turning into words in the post. I am sorry for having the start of July in a mess of complicated thoughts that I have no idea how to control them. I'd better put an end right away.
July, please be the last beautiful summer to me because next time, when I meet you again, I'd probably become a white collar and work my ass off through the summer :( I am no longer the girl sitting right here, typing these words to grace you with overwhelming state of mind. I'm afraid!
Kiss to July!
xoxo
Hal
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