Trust

You must acceptthe fact that the sooner you learn how to take it for granted, the better. Of all the people you've ever met, it seems like nobody has never once cheated me. Perhaps it's because you gave away your trust to easily then people is capable of using it to draw in me fake stories and lies.

Others might deceive you and leave, but it would be painful if you figure out that your close friends or beloved ones are also the great liars in your life. Their words have strong power to convince you that they love you enough to never cheat or betray you. The whole world might see their true colours while there is only you - the silliest and stupidest one believing in what they tell you.

Your first best friend created a cloned indentify to flirt with you as a guy. She did all of the most disgusting and horrible things in the world to catch you into her trap, making you crush over the virtual guy and she would obviously become the intermediary to get closer to you. You were clueless of the motive behind the trap, but yeah you were deceived :)

Other friends told you a ton of their romantic love stories as if Korean dramas had existed in reality. You believed in them and admired wholeheartedly. You dreamt of another perfect picture of your story would be written soon just like theirs, but everything turned out opposite.

How stupid of you to believe in someone 100% while the partner only gives you less than 30% trust. Poor you. And when you lost your balance and trust like this, you are going around and looking for some consolation because you think life is unfair.

Hey Hallie! How many times I must tell you that this life is impossible to be fair and full of pink for you and the way you live decides what you will get. The fact that others have broken faith in you doesn't appear to change anything in you. Not only your trust but also the overwhelming kidness is the fatal posoin of this ruthless life, why don't you learn this lesson?

Tears only prove your weakness and worthlessness. You even have no idea how to deal with matters all alone because you are overly sensitive and easy to get hurt, lost and disappointed. You know, you yourself are the most terrible element on the earth that I hate the most.

Why can't you become independent for once? You believe in them because you LIVE FOR THEM, not FOR YOURSELF. Don't blame for your kindness! No, you are not. It's because you are such a fool and rely on others too much, you learn how to please people and make sure they would love, care and help you back.

Wrong!

Hallie, I'm sick of sitting here and complaining about each matters in your life. If you want to wonder why they mistreat and hurt you, ask yourself first and try to cope with it. Don't ask and don't seek pity, either. It's disgrace :)

Fighting, babe :* :* The lesson of today: don't trust anyone completely! If only my heart were made by stone, nobody would ever be able to hurt me again.

Love you as usual,

Hal